Living in an Ironic World

Next phrase of Life

2009-07-19T09:36:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, I am starting to blog again after months of missing action.
Reasons being I am having so much transitions in life, facing so much dilemma, experiencing the worst things in life, having so much frustration in almost everything.
But not all are bitter.
At least I still have the sweetest memories behind to keep me going..
My life stories will start tmr.

2008-03-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

Time flies. 6 months have passed ever since I started my first permanent job after graduation.
And now I have fully understand why working adults always complain that schooling is better.
Yes, I finally agreed with them.( Nodding my head)

Things that I have come to terms with ever since I started working
1) No mistakes are allowed at work. Once you made a mistake, whatever gd impression the boss previously had about you will be ruined.
2)People come and go is very common. I was upset for a week when I learnt that 3 of my colleagues were leaving the company. It affected me quite badly. I even thought of quitting becoz of that.
3) No matter how much you hate or dun like a colleague at work, always smile and try to be friendly. I hate to put up that false front. I REALLY hate that!

I am so depressed, tired and stressed that I decided to take a long break.
I am on leave for 6 days from yest until next thur.
But I feel so insecure that I couldnt relax in peace.
I am so afraid that my colleagues will call me up to go back for ot or for some stupid meeting.
Frens asked me why I apply so many leave.
I replied jokingly that I was clearing my leave coz I am quitting my job soon.
Maybe..It did cross my mind.
I was very unhappy with my job.
..........
I paused for 15 mins.
I duno how to continue after that statement.
So much unhappiness yet no words can describe how I feel.

2008-02-04T23:47:00.000-08:00

I did not go online for more than 3 weeks!!
Thank god that darling deposited his laptop at my hse for 3 days.
Otherwise I duno when I will be checking mail, surfing net, reading blog again.
So today I will write a super long entry. Hee.

CNY is coming!!! So excited and happy.
This is the first time I will be spending my new year eve and 1st day of CNY working.
Actually I dun mind that coz every year my CNY is spent at home doing nth. Haha.
The only sad thing is that I cant accompany my mum to chinatown on the eve.
My dad wont go with my mum coz he hates the crowd.

Feb is going to be a relaxed month for me.
It will be over very soon.
First is CNY, then dar's bdae then V-day then Bintan trip with my dear gals(but I doubt huiya got go and book leh) and lastly Genting trip(going to invest all my ang pow money at the casino)
My feb is packed with fun-filled activities.
I cant wait for them to come esp the Bintan trip.
Need to destress.

Last week I bought a swatch watch for darling as bdae gift.
I had a hard time deciding which watch to buy coz of my budget.
And I realised I am a fickle-minded person.
When I hv decided to buy the watch, I can still go and look at other watches while queueing to pay and change my mind at the very last min.
Dar requested to hv an early bdae celebration coz he will be working on his bdae.
So we went out on last thur.
It has been such a long time that we both spend time together for a day.
I din plan any program for that day.
Abit bad on my side coz I hv ben too busy to come up with some special on his bdae as compared to last year.
We went for some shopping and movie, and later dinner at Ichiban.
Dar loves that jap restaurant the first time he went there coz the food is really delicious.
After that we went to esplande for a stroll.
A very simple bdae celebration.
Will do sth special on his catual bdae.
But dar likes the watch very much.Phew...

Sometimes I think life is so amused.
The most stressful part of my job I feel is the daily mrn meeting.
Its stressful coz I need to present every mrn.
Ya, do presentation!!
I will shiver the moment I hear the word 'present' or 'do presentation'.
I hated it when its in sch.
I thought I can escape from doing presentation after I graduated.
Yet I landed myself in a job that needs to do presentation every day. What the...
And the director always like to ask qns in the meeting.
Most of the time, my mind will be blank and I will give a blur look when asked.
To me, I feel that its a torture coz after working thro the night my brain has worn out and I still need to force my brain to think at the last hr before knock off.
No kidding. Try staying awake for 12 hrs thro the nite until 8am in the mrn, and c if ur mind can still think properly.
Your mind will be very saturated yet blank.

I think I hv blog enough.
Its time to sleep.
I am sleeping very late even during my off day.
That is very BAD!!
Nitez..

2008-01-17T12:44:00.001-08:00

Its finally the mid of jan.
And 6 more working days to my pay day!!!
Frankly speaking, ever since I started working pay day is the only thing I look forward to.
But I hate it the following day after I got my pay becoz...
Its so sianz working the first week after the pay day.
Then I feel much better when the 2nd week come.
The happiness came along when the 3rd week arrives.
Finally the pay day arrives. *Big grin
And the cycle repeats..
I can plot the mood of my working life graph featuring the 4 phases-xi nu ai le.

I am considering to buy a laptop.
I have changed to use my dad computer ever since darling took back his laptop.=(
I cant stand using my dad's antique computer.
Its damn S-L-O-W and always hang.
Becos of that, I have yet to send Sze yeng they all the photo tt we took for the gathering.
Is $1.5k possible to buy a laptop?
I dun mind a 2nd hand one. haha coz I was thinking I might not hv the time to use.
Anyway its not that urgent.
I get feed up but its still tolerable.

This month suppose to be a very happening month. But...
1)Ntu mates gathering at asian bar--I din turn up.
2)Chalet with jc frens at pasir--Need to work.
3)Go back to msia with darling--Went back but too tired to enjoy. Return home on my working day somemore.
4)2D1N Batam trip with gazebooers--All set ready to go but yaya gave me a 'surprise' at the v last min.
This is so sad. What has happen to my life?
Why has it become so no-life?
What I did in my off day is just tuition & sleep.
Wanted to meet frens for coffee but too tired to msg n ask them out.
TIRED.TIRED.TIRED.TIRED.TIRED.TIRED.
As tho I am carrying a mountain on my back and walking up a never ending steep slope everyday.
Its all written over my face....

2007-12-23T19:28:00.000-08:00

My life is getting...busier
, more stressful,
monotonous and miserable.
I try to be positive abt life and my current job but the setbacks at work eroded watever enthusiastism I have.
It eroded my confidence and happiness as well.
I feel extremely lousy.
So lousy that I duno how to describe my feelings.

Today I rcv a xmas card from Shiyi, my ntu fren.
The gal whom I went taiwan with.
Nowadays nobody send xmas card.
It feels good to rcv one after so many years.
Dear Shiyi, tts so sweet of u! Thks. *muaaacks
When reading ur card, it reminds me of the days we spent in taiwan.
Thinking back, I find ourselves so funny n silly.
It all started becoz we hv a tight budget constraint.
We tried to cramp everything into the short six days trip.
It was so packed that we hardly hv time to breathe and rest.
And becoz of that we always hv to starve ourselves.
Throughout the trip, we were always rushing for time.
And racking our brains to save and scrimp on food and transport.
Only to find ourselves left with alot of money on the last day. lol
And we hv to racked our brain to spend all the money before we left for the airport.
I dun think anyone will spend their holiday like the way we do lor.
Dun you think we are so silly? lol.
But I dun mind going back to taiwan with u to fillful those tt we missed out on our list.
Oh I am starting to miss taiwan..
You tk care k. See u and the rest soon at Asian bar.*muaacks

I purposely use green n red coz xmas is here!
WISHING U MY DEAR FRENS a HAPPY & MERRY XMAS!!!

2007-12-15T12:28:00.000-08:00

Two things to look forward in the month of Dec:
1. Tuition
2. Xmas party with 3 groups of frens

Last mon I was suppose to go for tuition in the evening.
I finished work in that mrn, went to catch a nap and I OVERSLEPT!!
And when I woke up I cant rem I got tuition until my tuition kid's mum called me.
It was so embarrassed!!
I hv to arrange another date again and the mum was quite unhappy.
I was quite upset over it.
I din hear my alarm rings.
Duno why I will be so careless to miss it.
Maybe I am too tired.

Yest was a happy day for me.
Coz I finally met up with my dear gals!
Had a jap feast at esplanade and a nice chat under the starry night.
I love u gals so much coz...
We nv stop reminding each other that we are old.
We nv stop suan-ing each other coz tt is our definition of true frens.
We can nv break the cow and bangedesh curse.
We nv fulfill the program that we hv planned since sec 4.
We cant hv enough of shopping tho we all complained being broke.
We nv missed out the marriage topic.
We nv run out of things to chat about.
How I wish yest night the minute hand will stop ticking.
And now I am back to the depressed mood again. :(
I cant imagine my current life without u gals.
Pls meet up real soon!!

2007-12-02T21:23:00.000-08:00

I am so tired and restless now. I feel like going to bed now. I finish my work this mrn. Was supposed to attend a colleague rom lunch at Ritz but I back out last min. Coz I caught a cold last night and was down for flu since 2am. So I decided to go back home to sleep instead. The colleague is my mentor, Eric. Sorry Eric, I choose to rest between ur rom and my sleep. Congrats and blessings!

Eric has taken two days leave due to his rom. And for the two nights I had my first taste of taking the deck phone and monitor the line using my fresh and raw experience. Every time the deck phone rings, I will panic. I am even fear of answering it when I see unfamiliar nos. The caller usually speaks very fast with a foreign accent that leaves me with alot of qns marks after he hang up. I am so slow in catching. Feel so stupid to ask them to repeat alot of times. The MAs must be thinking what a stupid boss they have!

There are endless things to learn and there are times where I feel that my tiny and stupid brain is already saturated but I still keep on stuffing more info into my brain. Even noting it down wun help me. The info scattered here and there. Either I cant find it or I totally forgotten about it and I have to start all over again to ask and be scolded. Luckily I have very nice mentor and colleagues who will be always be there when I needed their help. But one bad thing is that, I tend to be over rely on them.

I know I am stupid.
I know I am slow to absorb.
I know I am struggling very hard.
But I wun give up.
And I wun allow allow myself to fall.
I will keep on fighting.
To prove to myself that I can survive even under harsh environment.

2007-11-28T04:45:00.000-08:00

I find my life is full of contradiction.
I am a person who is against of things which can cause harm to my body.
These are the rules I set for myself:
NO to supper.
NO to sleeping late.
NO to coffee.
NO to smoking and 2nd hand smoke.
Becoz of these rules, I always have conflict with darling and friends.
Sometimes I would wonder am I taking my life too seriously?
Am I missing out all the funs becoz of these rules?
Am I a no life person if I sleep very early and seldom hang out late?
I have always been very discipline and strict when it comes to such things.
And its very tiring to refrain myself from violating these rules.
When I violate one of the rules, I will get so worried and unhappy about it.
Life is short and here I am worrying about such trival things.
Feel so stupid for making a big fuss out of it.

2007-11-24T19:07:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 5pm today.Then went to bath and ate some titbits while slacking away in front of the tv. I forgot that today is a sat coz I was eagerly waiting for the 7pm show, Lao po da ren. Very nice show! I came back from work at 10am this morning. I have started my night shift 8pm to 8am consecutively 2 days since thursday. I am soooooo tired and restless. Tho tired I still want to blog about my first taste of staying awake thro the night.

I was very excited about it on the first working night. That mrn I went to sheng siong to buy a small size toothpaste, shower foam, nestum cereal, milo, tea and panda biscuit etc. I also prepare my contact solution and facial cleanser. I reaslised I miss out one very impt thing--a cushion or sth furry that is soft to hug to see me through the silent night. I reaslised I miss out one very impt thing--a cushion or sth furry that is soft to hug to see me through the silent night. I feel as though I am moving house which is quite true when come to think of that. ssmc has become my 2nd home coz I spend more than 12 hrs there in a day.

My first night was quite terrible for me coz my eye started tearing from my non stop yawning and my brain started to freeze around 5am. Too bad I dun drink coffee. I stay awake purely thro my strong determination which doesnt work every well. So I went to brush my teeth and wash my face hoping that it can freshen me up and last for the next 3 hrs. It works BUT only for the first 10mins.. My yawning become more and more jia lat and I know I have reached my tolerance. I was totally knock out at 6.30am. I should learn to drink coffee.

Becoz of this I have learnt from my colleague that having sufficient sleep in the noon is very crucial. So from now on, I make sure I am in bed from 10am to 5pm. Before my first night, I only slept for one hour in the noon. Thats why I can only last until 6am in the morning. The second thing I learnt is the importance of power nap. I tried that this morning. I rested my head on my desk and slept for 20 mins, and when I woke up I am rejuvenated. It is very effective. After work I can still go around chit chat and play jokes with my colleagues.

I hate to eat late night supper yet...I am eating it for consecutively two nights when the clock strikes twleve midnight. It feel so disgusting and guilty to load my stomach with solid food and gave my liver extra work to do instead of resting. I dun wan to eat in the first place but somehow I start to feel hungry. If I dun eat my supper, I know I will definitely feel hungry later in 2/3 am. So I went reluctantly..and soon I got the habit of eating supper. I got more hungry when it is 6am in the morning. I think I couldnt get used to this eating pattern coz I lao sai after that. My stomach still feel abit bloated and uneasy until now. =(

My owl working schedule:
7.45pm : Arrive at ssmc
8.00pm : Passdown from mrn shift people
8.15pm : Start to monitor production line and answer phone calls
9.00pm : Went into the fab to settle things
10.30pm: Do reports
12.00am: Eat supper
1.00am : Back to office. Continue to do reports.
5.40am : Power nap.
6.00am : Brush teeth and wash face.
6.20am : Go for breakfast.
6.40am : Continue to do reports
7.45am : Passdown to next mrn shift people on line issue.
8.00am : Prepare reports for mrn meeting
8.30am : Attend mrn meeting
9.30am : End of meeting. Go for internal mfg meeting
10.00am: Rush back home to sleep. (Its really rushing coz I scare not enough time to sleep)

2007-11-20T21:01:00.000-08:00

I have 6 days of off thanks to the Mfg outing organised by my company.
My first day of the long break was spent having lunch with uncle.
It has been such a long time since I ate lunch and chit chat with him. Just the 2 of us.
Besides all the jokes and teasing, we also talked about some serious stuffs.
We seldom have the chance to chit chat when we go out in group and ever since Angie shifted home he no longer drive me back after the outing.
He is someone whom I looked up to as a good role model.
Coz I am impressed by the way he handles stress and his positive attitude about life.
I have so much to learn from him.

My second day of off was one I enjoyed the most.
I met up with my old secondary school mates, the peicaians, for lunch and some coffee.
They are Sze Yeng, Chiew Guet, Sharan, Lin Lin and Esther.
I psycho esther to accompany me coz I scare I will feel awkward.
Esther was very surprised that I want to go for the gathering.
Normally I will give a miss. No ulterior motive just feel like going.=)
Actually I was quite surprised that sze yeng will msg me for the gathering.
We seldom contact each other since I graduated from Peicai.
Few weeks back we bumped into each other at adidas at esplande.
I was busy msging when she called out my name.
We chatted for a while, exchange nos and thats how I was invited for the gathering.
There was not a moment of awkwardness at the gathering.
In fact I quite enjoyed it tho its only a few hours.
Its good to catch up with them after lost contact for so long.

My third day of off was spent in Malacca with my parents.
My mum got to know about this malacca trip organised by cc from her fren.
My mum then got so excited over it and keep pestering me to go with her.
I was quite unwilling to go coz I dun like tour guided trip and the trip is meant for senior citizen.
I think my mum is over bored at home ever since her boutique business closed down.
Sometimes I feel bad for leaving her alone at home when I couldnt come back for dinner.
To make up for that, I promise to go with her and in the end my dad decided to come along too.
I was glad that my parents enjoyed the one day trip and they were looking forward to another upcoming trip.
Well as for me, as long as they happy I am happy too. =)

My fourth day of off was spent with my colleagues.
My company organised a outing for the whole of manufacturing department.
Thanks to this outing that I can be excused for 2 days of work which explained how my long break came about.
Our SRC team organised a pool and bowling competition and buffet dinner at Merchant Court Hotel.
This is my first time playing bowling in my entire life.
Bowling is a game which I will always avoid playing becoz I dun know how to play.
Becoz of this outing, I die die need to play and soon I find myself enjoying it after a few throws.
As for the pool competition, my team came in first. We each won a $50 marina square voucher.
But we came in second last for the bowling competition.
After the long competition, we went to eat our hearts out at Merchant Court.
I heard about their buffet and the durian paste dessert before I came.
And after eating it, I must say their buffet was really fantastic.
For those who know me well, I dun like to eat durian but their durian paste is super nice.
And amazingly it doesnt leave the digusting taste in my mouth after eating.
Should try it. nooo..is MUST try!! hee.

My fifth day of off was today. I have no plan for today except to rest at home.
After having so much fun for the past four days, I start to feel the tiredness setting in.
I have two chalets to book, one for gazeboO and the other for my jc.
So I went down to downtown east to book a chalet.
My dad is not working today and he dun mind driving me all the way to pasir ris.
But it was a wasted trip!! fuck.
Becoz costa sands only sell their chalet in 3D2N package with 4 free theme park passes which I dun need.
And one night is 200+. Wtf.
Feel so piss off today. Its not easy to be a chalet organiser and esp for those last min booking.
I have search almost all the chalet resorts in singapore and made alot of calls to the resorts
but none of them suits wat I wanted.
Those that I want are already fully booked.
If only money is not a issue...
Arghhhh...bad day

Tomorrow will my last off day after which I will be going to night shift for five months. =(
I better conserve my energy for my next working day and cut down on outing.
Any good ideas to share on how to keep awake and alert throughout the night till 8am in the morning besides drinking coffee?

2007-11-13T21:37:00.000-08:00

Was extremely tired after two full days of ERT(emergency response team) training at Spore Aviation Academy.
My muscles are aching now and I also suffered some bruises and big mosquitos bites.
Today is the last day of the training. I am a certified ERT member!
This ERT is to trained us how and what to do during an emergency such as gas leakage or fire.
But I wont be in the front line if such emergency really occur.
My responsibility will be to coordinate with the front line people and help in the evacuation.
If I am the one in the front line, I probably will put everyone's lives in great danger.
Coz it requries alot of courage and physical strength to put out the fire or rescue any casualty.
I lack both and I must admit I am the worst female warrior during the training.
I totally cant carry the hosereel or fire extinguisher, let alone to rescue a 70kg dummy casualty.
And on top of that, I am carrying a 10kg breathing apparatus which I will have to depend on for oxygen.

The training is quite tough especially for a weak female like me.
I was fully dressed from head to toe with my helmet and breathing apparatus throughout the training.
One of the activity that scare me to death which is also the most memorable of all the training was the building simulator.
They put us a group of five into a dark room with alot of obstacles and a manhole.
This is to create a fire emergency. The objective is to overcome the fear of darkness and to find the way out to a safer zone.
To let us have a feel of the real situation, smoke and heat were introduced into the room.
When I entered the room, it was a total darkness.
I have to crawl through the room and rely on my sense of touch and also my group members to get out of the room.
The breathing apparatus can only last for ard 30mins.
A whistle will start to sound when the oxygen in the tank is running low which will make a person panic.
The whole experience was so scary becoz I couldnt see a single thing a all.
To make things worst, I was left behind by my group.
This is what happened...
I was the second person in the row and everything was going smoothly until we hit a dead end..
When my group was retreating, I lost the grip on the person in front of me.
Btw we are crawling in a narrow cage so we can only move in one direction either forward or backward.
I started to shout for his name. I couldnt hear very clearly coz everyone in the room was communicating with one another for direction.
I am not sure if he got response back to me.
I got panic and started to shout for 'number one! number one!'
I tried to search for him by using my hands to feel for his present but he was out of my search radius.
I think he was far ahead of me already.
Maybe he was already out of the cage to a safer zone.
At the same time I was waiting for the guy behind me and the rest to catch up before I can move on.
While I was gan chiong-ing shouting for number one, I realised the guy was not behind me anymore!
I tried to shout for him and he responsed but somehow he din reach out his hand to search for me.
Maybe he did. I couldnt see a single thing.
Soon the rest of the people behind me realised I was not with them.
I could hear them shouting for my name. I quickly response as loud as I could.
The most amazing thing came about.
That is I duno how come number one is with all of them already.
As I couldnt see a single thing and too scare to move, I stay put and wait for my group members to come and rescue me.
While waiting I heard the noise in the room dying down and soon the room was in total silent.
I know they had left the room WITHOUT ME.
At that point in time, I was so scared that I almost wanted to cry out.
I started to bang the cage violently and shout for my members' name.
The instructor acknowledged it and came to my rescue.
Btw the instructor has always been in the room to follow us through the training.
After the whole thing, I realised that the instructor has asked them to leave the room when they tried to go in and rescue me.
Coz he deliberately want to create a mis-communication in us to test our alertness.
Soon after that incident, I had became a laughing stock.
One of my colleagues even create a metaphor related to me and this incident.
Anyway, the course has been fun overall.
I will load the photos here in my next entry.

Tomorrow I still need to go to work for some classroom training.
I have been attending intensive classroom training for the past two weeks.
I need to sleep now. My eyes are closing....

2007-10-28T20:05:00.000-07:00

For the past few days, I was quite depressed due to work.
I will become speechless whenever somebody ask me how is work.
Speechless in the sense that I duno how I shld express my feelings I have for my job.
All I can say is that I am still learning the ropes and I felt useless most of the time.
I always thought that I have good memory until recently..
I keep forgetting what I have learned despite I took down the notes.
Coz the information is overwhelming and the pace is too fast for me to pause and think.
Time flies very fast, before I know it its already dinner time and 2 more hrs to knock off.
The depression set in when its near to knock off time.
I will always reflect on what I have done and achieved at the end of the day.
I am not satisfied with my daily achievement.
In fact, I feel stupid coz I am always slow to respond.
And the most crucial part is that I will become very sleepy when I couldnt understd or when I am lost in the midst of the explanation.
In short, I feel that I am a 白拿薪水的人。。。

Recently I have this outrageous thought.
I came about when I was looking out of the window on the bus on my way home from work.
I was quite depressed at that time.
I wanted to go to a foreign country be it US or australia to work for a year.
But not as an engineer there.
I want to work in their fast food restaurant or theme park(those low paying job).
But why low paying job, right?
Those jobs that I always enjoyed are those low paying job I realised.
Actually this thought originated from the summer program that I missed when I was in Uni.
That time I nearly went to US if not for my worrying parents.
But now the situation is different.
I am no longer a student where I can make use of my holiday to have fun in other part of the world.
If I want to stay in a foreign country to experience their life and culture, I probably need to quit my job.
Which company will allow me to take one year leave unless the CEO is my dad!
I really admire those people from the bottom of my heart who have the courage to give up the things they have in s'pore and flew to a foreign country for long term.
I think the courage will come a point in time when I fail to see the meaning of earning a lot of money.

2007-10-06T18:06:00.000-07:00

Meet my new colleagues.
My department manufacturing(Mfg) is divided into 4 section. Mfg I-IV.
Each section takes care of different stages from the start to the end of wafer fabrication.
So each section actually depend on one another to make sure that the process flow smoothly in order to meet the daily wafer outs target.

Top from left: Sing Liean(Mfg IV) & Yi Xian(Mfg I).

Bottom from left: Me(Mgf II) & Audrey(Mfg III).

They are the same age as me except for audrey who is one year older.

But they came in a few months earlier than me.
I am still consider a freshie and I hate being a freshie *_*

Yi Xian is from nus while Audrey & sing liean are from ntu.

Audrey is in the same faculty as me and I din know it until I came to ssmc.

For all the 4 years in ntu we hv been sharing the same lecture hall, taking the same exams, brushing shoulder with each other along the north spine yet we din know each other.

Funny rite?

When I was first introduced to them, I was like 'Oh, so u were in ntu and in MAE oso!?!'
I was quite surprised but I couldnt recall seeing them in sch.

I am very glad to hv such young colleagues.

No wide age gap and alot of common things to talk about.

But I am always the quiet one.

How to be more talkative huh?

Audrey suggested an outing during our common off day.

Btw we are all currently in the morning shift.

All of us are quite on and one of them suggested to eat buffet.
Sing liean who is most thrify amongst us wanted a cheap buffet.

And I am proud to introduce them the dim sum buffet at Miramar hotel which is only $11.50++.(Tested and proven good)

I got buffet list of all the hotels in singapore.

Look for me if u want to eat buffet at hotel.

I will give u the best recommendation. ^_^

At first I thought there were only five of us going plus Jasman.

But later two more colleagues(Roy & Jian da) decided to join us after their work.

Btw the guys are from ntu too.

I can only remember Jian Da face coz I hv seen him a couple of times in ntu.

From left: Roy(Mgf IV), Jasman, Jian Da(both Mfg III).

Roy and Jian Da still look so energetic loh.
They hv worked 12hrs through the night and came down to eat dim sum with us after that.

The afternoon dim sum buffet has 23 dishes to choose from.

Me & Sing Liean were busy selecting from the menu.

We both hv diffculties reading the chinese words!

I see the need to brush up my lousy chinese coz I will be using chinese to interact with my MAs(manufacturing assistant) from PRC most of the time.
Jian Da suggested to order 2 each for all the 23 dishes which is really alot for 8 people!

Here are only 11 dishes and our table is almost full.

When we started to enjoy our food, more and more dishes came.

And it was too late to cancel our order.

We hv to eat at a rate which is faster than the rate the dim sum is cooked.

But the dim sum is every nice.
Soon the dim sum basket at our table are stacked higher than any other table around.

Lucky we managed to finish 80% of all the food.

Jian Da was the one who suggest to order all the dishes yet he was the one who eat the least among us.

Should force him to finish the rest of the food.

We almost forgotten about the desserts coz we were very full.

Anyway the desserts are not as good as their dim sum.

Honeydew sago is very sweet and the mango pudding is quite hard.

Can give it a miss if you are really full.

We took a group photo before we left.

Thank you Yi Xian for making the effort to bring the camera.

So that these wonderful memories are captured and written down.

We are planning the next outing..Cycling at East Coast Park.

Thats the flexibility of our working hours. ^_*

We are 'enemy' at the battlefield but good friends after work.

2007-09-26T11:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a bad day for me and my student.
I have never scolded any of my students in my 4 years of tuition life.
But this sec 1 student of mine forces me to do it.
I din know I was over harsh in my words until I can almost see tears in his eyes.
I started teaching him since May this year.
He is my favourite student.
I derive satisfacion from teaching him coz I can see his gradual improvement in his class test.
I was very happy except for one thing and for one particular topic--Algebra.
He is weak in Algebra.
To monitor his progress in that topic, I noted down all his mistakes and prepared intensive excerise for him to do every now and then.
I explained his mistakes to him and expected him to correct and learn from his mistakes.
He said he fully understand it.
So I assume he wont repeat his mistakes.
But he keeps on making the same mistakes for the same set of questions.
Not once, not twice, not thrice.
It is more than five times.
And what does this show?
He din make an effort to learn from his mistakes despite I explained patiently to him and even told him to take down notes.
I got more and more frustrated with his learning attitude.
And thats how the scolding started.
I dont feel good in scolding him coz I dun wish to jeopardise our relationship.
But scolding is the last resort.
I just hope that the scolding will get into his head and he will at least make some effort to change.
Otherwise I will just surrender.

Sometimes I feel that I have too high expectation of myself.
I expect myself to do well in all aspect and I expect my students to do the same.
Its going to be a month soon and I DONT see any progress in my learning.
I am starting to get stress in my job.
I am starting to get afraid of the morning meeting.
I am starting to lose my passion for semiconductor.
I am starting to lose my confidence in whatever I do.
I am starting to doubt my ability to perform in the company.
I am starting to doubt if I can be a good leader to 32 people.
I am starting to drag going to work.
I am starting to believe what the director said to me during the interview.
He said I am not suitable for the job.
I was feeling so depressed one day that I msg my jc teacher, Mr Lum.
I know he will give me encourgement and motivation to push on.
So I msg him and this is what he replied:

What you can do you try.

What you cant do, try.

What you dont want to do, you try to be doing.

This ia a dog world.

When you are forty and have not make it,

even you try people also dont want.

Look on the bright side.

The person next to you also the same but never tell you.

Min tien hui kern how.

He dont know chinese well but he ended the msg with some chinese saying with a mixture of han yu pin yin, ang moh and hokkien.

Ever since I started work, I have stopped meeting up with my frens.

No time is always the reason or I can say is the excuse.

I really miss you guys and enjoy all the gossip and talk cock session.

These are the people I want to meet for the next few weeks.

1)GazeboO.(???)

2)Jc frens. (29th sep settled!)

3)Mr Lum.(after jc gathering. I owe him alot of treats.)

4)Uncle,angie & weilian.(maybe next wed)

5)Yufeng.(29th morning?? hope she is free)

6)Gina.(I wana play squash!!)

I shall be the organiser since my working days are so irregular. =)

2007-09-17T02:35:00.000-07:00

Its geting on my nerves.
I cant stand it anymore!
I am saying my hair...
Even since I rebonded my hair in july this year,
I knew that this day will come.
My rebonded hair is less than 3 months and its not straight anymore!
Ok...I know its not very straight right from the beginning coz none of my friends can tell that I rebonded my hair.
But I cant stand my fringe as its getting to be wavy.
And whenever I rebond my hair, it always feel that I am dropping alot of hair.
Or itiz a fact?
I am so worry that I even count the strands of hair I drop when shampooing my hair.
If not for my convocation, I wouldnt have gone to rebond my hair while I am in taiwan.
I miss my perm hair...
I want to go perm my hair again.
But what style should I go for this time round?
Should I perm my hair when its short or when its long?
I have never try long perm hair.
I wonder will I look old in it.
I saw some quite nice n funky long perm hairstyle in the magazine.
I am so tempted to go and try it.
But when it turns out to be not suitable for me, the cycle will repeat itself and I will be back to the complaining stage again.
This stage I definitely will go through whenever I change a new hairstyle.
But I need a change.
I dun want to be plain jane.
I will welcome xmas with my new hairstyle.
So help me by saying it looks nice on me. =)

I was told that my working shift will change to night in nov.
Which means I will work from 8pm to 8.15am the next day.
I was so worried that I went to ask my colleagues a lot of qns regarding working night shift.
To my surprise, most of my colleagues prefer to work night shift.
Besides monetary factor, they said the pace is more relax hence less stressful.
They din mention negative things at all.
Itiz really better than working morning shift or are they trying to make feel less worried?
I will know the answer in nov.
Oh one good news, due to the shift change in nov, I no need to work on xmas eve n xmas day.
So date me of anyone of u are free on these two days.
Let me feel more positive about the night shift.

2007-09-14T12:06:00.000-07:00

Today is my off day.
My boss asks me to rest at home coz tmr I will be starting my 12hrs shift.
I will be working on this sat and sun after which I will rest for 2 days and the cycle repeats.
My weekends are gone. =(
Hmm..Actually not so bad la if I think of it this way..
1)Going out on weekends is always crowded.
2)Weekends movie and buffet are expensive.
3)Carpark lots are always full on weekends.
4)Staying at home has nothing to do except to sleep.
5)The afternoon tv program to watch sucks. I can switch channel more than 10 times in 1 min.
6)Friends are not available on weekends.
7)Darling hv to work on weekends too.
So, its better to exchange my weekends for money$$ and spend it on weekdays. =)

I have started work for 2 weeks already.
The first 3 days were relaxing and fun coz it is orientation.
I had lots of briefing on work safety, security, intellectual properties, ISO and salary related matters.
Besides briefing, I also attended courses on the company's core values.
The core values were drilled into our heads through the games activties.
The ice breaker game reminds me of my secondary sch and jc days.
I have never really enjoyed the games in those days coz I simply find it stupid.
Maybe I was too anti-social. I duno how to make new friends.
But this time round, I put in all my heart and soul to participate actively in the games.
I was abit shy at first but after a few games I got warm up.
Most of the games emphasize on teamwork and every team members will need to contribute ideas to complete a task in the shortest time.
I am surprised that I actually open my golden mouth and contribute some ideas.
I had so much laughter and fun.
This is the best orientation I had ever enjoyed.
And I even look forward to the next course.

My progress in learning is very slow.
Sometimes I am very frustrated coz I am like stuck there not learning anything.
I was given some reading material and notes.
And I have a mentor attached to me.
But I dun wish to occupy his time coz he got more impt things to settle.
His desk phone and hp keep ringing non-stop.
He did teach me and answer whatever doubts I have but I feel that I din learn much at the end of the day.
Most of the time I will sit quietly at my desk to read the notes, and trying hard to figure out what all the technical terms means.
It was so boring and I have no one to talk to.
I never fail to fall asleep after lunch time.
I more I ty to keep myself awake the more my eyes feel like closing.
I wish I can also be as busy as them.
This is only possible when I hv learnt the ropes.
I must learn fast!!
Hopefully tmr will be a fruitful day for me coz I will be going into the production line to see see and touch touch the big big machines. Yeah.

2007-09-08T13:58:00.000-07:00

Hi people, I am back! I am still alive!!
To those who still read my blog, sorry for not updating my life anymore.
Reason being too lazy to blog.
And now I hardly have the time to go online.
Oh btw, I got something to announce.
I have found a job and already started working for a week.
Guess which company employ me?
Yes, it was SSMC-the company which I complained to u guys that I did badly for the 2nd round of interview.
I personally feel that I din do well for the 2nd round of interview.
In fact, I screwed it up.
The interviewer is not the department manager.
Its the director! I only know abt it after I worked in SSMC. opps.
And until now, I still din know the reason why I am employed.
Anyway this is not impt anymore.
Right now, I only want to learn first so that I can do my work independently.

Will tell u guys more about my company in the next entry.
Going shopping with my mum now.
I will try to update more often.
So stay tuned. ^_^

2007-08-05T15:52:00.000-07:00

I am a shy gal who is always pai seh about everything even on minor issues BUT I suggested to take grad pictures with my dear gals at esplanade. I thought I was so brave until I reached esplanade and was about to change into my gown. Everyone was like looking at us. Ofc I felt uneasy. But luckily we are not the only graduates taking pics at esplanade.

Soon I got used to the stare and we were all having fun time posing, acting cute and my jaws were numbed for smiling non stop.

Too engrossed in making funny stupid pose and trying to be inspirational. Haha.

I like this picture. Can see the 'finally graduated' expression written all over my face.

Hope that my achievements in my future career can soar as high as my hat in the sky. Yuppie.

That is us in the real working world..

But gals, promise to meet up no matter how busy we are k? *hugs*

2007-08-02T12:35:00.000-07:00

Time flies. 3 months have passed.
I have started my job search in late june and have gone for 2 interview so far.
I finally had the first taste of a REAL interview.
It was stressed, just the manager and me surrounded by four walls, and most of the time I was tongue tied.
When a question is shoot to me, I paused for a very long time before I can think of what to answer.
At that crucial moment, there are only two choices.
Do it or die.
The end of every interview session is demoralising.
I blamed myself for being too honest to the employer.

The first interview with Hitachi was a disaster.
I have short term memory.
I couldnt recall what I did for my fyp.
What an embarrassing moment!
I wish there was a hole to bury my head.
At the end of the interview session with the hr, I realised that I applied for the wrong industry.
HitachiGST is a hard disk drive industry and I am looking for semiconductor industry.
While waiting for the senior engineer to interview me, I feel like leaving the room.
But I didnt in the end.
I was glad that the senior engineer was a friendly guy.
We chatted and I got to know more about hard disk drive.
But...he asked me about my fyp. again?!
Arghhhh. There is no way I can smoke through.
I just told him that I cant rem...He laughed.
What a bad impression I had left for the employer!

The second interview is SSMC.
This time I applied for the right industry.
SSMC is a company that I am dying to work in.
Its a BIG company with GOOD prospects.
The moment I stepped into its building the feeling is totally different from that of Hitachi.
I will be damn proud of my company if I have a chance to work there.
The engineer that interviewed me tried to make the session less stressful and formal.
He asked me alot of irrelevant qns and we even talked about my taiwan trip.
He din ask me about my fyp.
But this time round, I am more stressed.
I thought the first interview is already a good practise so I din prepare much for the 2nd interview except for reading up the company's website.
*Mistakes that have failed me*
I paused for a very long time when a qns is asked
Talked crap that I dun even know what I am saying.
Tongue-tied. kou chi.
Used broken english.
Overall, its horrible. I know I fare badly for the interview.
Gone. Gone. Gone.
My chance of working in SSMC has gone with the wind.

I know I am too pessimistic.
And yes I am!
I rcv a call this morning and it was from SSMC!!!
I was asked to go down for a second interview with the department manager.
Cool. I thought my first round gone case already.
This time round I MUST succeed.

2007-07-09T13:02:00.000-07:00

7th May 2007--My FYP Presentation Day
...which was also the day that marked my end of school life.
It was also a day that marked the beginning of the next chapter of my life.
Have been attending school since I was in kindergarten all the way to university, it took me 18 years to complete all the hurdles in my studies one after another.

At the age of 16, I was a rebellious yet ambitious gal.
After completed my O-level, I almost wanted to stop school and devoted my youth to work as a waitress. I have fallen deeply in love with F&B line since then.
Visiting cafes frequently..
Started collection of cafe menu..
As well as the receipt of those cafes I hv been to..
Always on the look out for waitress-related jobs during school holiday..
Was contented with the lowly-paid salary as long as they want me..
To the extent of willing to work free for the cafe..
I was crazy over F&B line for no specific reason.

After my O-level, I almost wanted to enrol in TP hospitality course.
But was faced with discouragement from my parents
and friends too...
I was confused and upset.
Without the full endorsement from family and friends,
I began to doubt my choice.
In the end I gave up the hospitality course and enrolled myself in a junior college.
Choosing that route, I understand that there was no turning back.
It was like signing a 6 years contract.
I went on with my life having regrets most of the time.
Living life with regrets was never happy.

My life in junior college was never easy.
I remember how I struggled for General Paper and finding last minute tuition with bankus when its near to A-level exams.
Dun even dare to aim for a B4 coz it was an impossible task to me.
Thank God, I made it through with a C6.
With the rest of the grades I obtained, I happily apply for business course at any of the local university.

However things din work out smoothly for me.
I was allocated to a Engineering course.
At that moment, my world seems to collapse.
It must be the poor GP grade that got me rejected.
Facing with no other alternative, I accepted the Engineering course unwillingly.
Deep down my heart, I hate the sucky course.
It took me a year to accept it.
And I was glad that I did enjoyed myself and even like some of the physics and maths I learnt.
Maybe becos I have accepted it.
Now 6 years had passed..
I have finally graduated.

Do I still regret for not choosing TP hospitality course?
Yes, abit. I always wonder how my life will change if I choose that route and where will I be now, AND will I be happier with my current situation now?
I am very interested to know..
But choosing another route let me realise that interest can be nurtured. I din know that I have a liking for physics and maths till then. U will call me crazy if I tell you that I like to read physics textbk.

But if I am given the chance once again, will I still pursue my dreams?
Seriously, I duno coz my life is in such a mess now.
I am in a over-relaxed situation which makes me feel like a useless bum.
I hate to waste time and I have been idle for 2 months and 3 days.
There wun be an answer until I have found a permanent job.
DEAR COMPANIES PLS GIVE ME A RING...

2007-07-03T15:40:00.000-07:00

RECAP of my happenings in the past one month...

20th May-Genting trip

Ferry wheel ride

Santa Clause has arrived in genting.

Waiting for our turn to visit the haunted house.

We are more scarier than the ghosts inside the house.

Darling has a hard time nagivating the boat while I am free riding it.

Deposited darling at coffee beans while I tried my luck at the casino on the last day.

8th of june-ktv with GazeboOers

Kster has become our 2nd home since its existence.

End of ktv sesion.
No, huiya is not hiding behind the glass of coke. She is working.

16th june-Celebration of Fathers' Day

I was invited to celebrate Fathers' Day with darling's family at kukup Island in M'sia.

Overlooking into the big sea from the resort..

And the kelong..

Darling's mum and elder bro and his gf

And his nephew..
He just lost his two front teeth tts why he dun wan to smile.

27th of June-Gathering with ex-colleagues

Had a simple meal together despite our busy schedule.

After that we went to Minds Cafe...

A great way to unwind after a hard day work.

UNCLE sim performing challenging stunt again.

A quick snap at my dear muddy angie

Weilian's chicky smile..

He must be praying hard for it to collapse.

30th june-Cycling at Pasir Ris

Wo de bai ma wang zhi..
Din know Pasir Ris Park has horse-riding activity

Taking a rest and eating mr bean's snack

MORE HAPPENINGS to come..

I hv finally made up my mind to go taiwan + hk!!
Yuppie x3!!

Will be leaving on 17th july(tentatively) for a week.

Boring Saturday

2007-06-23T15:12:00.000-07:00

It is a boring saturday.
Mum and sis are working.
Dad and bro are sleeping.
Darling has went back to msia and will only be back on thur. =(
And I am in my home making a new organiser for myself(trying to find things to do).
My old one is only left with a few pages.
I love to see the calendar in my orgainser fully filled with things to do.
I want each day of my life to be meaningful.

I am a contradict and fickle-minded person.
I mentioned in my last entry that I dun intend to find a job.
I will give tuition for the time being and may consider to become a full time tutor.
But the day after the entry, an incident happened.
This trival yet significant incident changes the decision I have made.
I hv decided to find an engineering job and start work immediately after my convocation.
Being a full time private tutor is going to get me nowhere unless I am NIE-trained.
Which I dun think I want.
Finding an eng job is a better and appropriate choice.
Besides I am not young anymore. =(
Think of those kids who are still in sec school or jc.
And you find that the number 23 is very depressing.
Stop reminding me that sickening number.
I better spend my youth properly.
Teaching is my passion.
I can always teach when I retired.

Went to see friendster yesterday to check out my friends' lastest update.
More and more people getting engaged or married at such early age.
But definitely not me at the moment.
Have to build my career first.
I also saw photos taken at various countries like taiwan, hk, korea etc.
Watching enviously when they pose with the nice scenery,
drooling over the yummy food in their hand,
xin yang yang over their shopping goodies...
I want to go overseas!!!!!
I wan to go taiwan.
Feel like flying there now and bring back all the goodies.
I should really consider going.
To give myself a big treat for completing the 4yrs 'jail term'.
After which I will have the motivation to work harder for my career.
Ok, that shall be my decision FOR THE NEXT FEW MONTHS.

2007-06-20T23:04:00.000-07:00

Damn it. I am sick again. When did I become so weak and susceptible to flu virus? My last sick record was april! Have been coughing my lungs out and having a bad sore throat for the past few days. I have a bad habit of not seeing the doctor whenever I am sick coz I always believe that minor illnessess such as cough and running nose will go away if I drink enough water. But it takes a long time to recover.

My results for the last semester has been out. BB+B-D+. And I got B for my fyp. I am satisfied with my fyp grade coz I know I din put in much effort for my fyp so cant expect for higher grade. My results for the four years in ntu added up to a 2nd lower class honours. :( Well...ahem at least I got a honours.. Din let my parents down...

Back to my job search. Frankly speaking, I dun feel like starting work now. Besides that I am not mentally prepared for entering the working society. I know specifically what kind of job and position I want to look for. Even though I have been complaining about my engineering course, I do hv an interest in some areas which is semiconductor(my specialisation). All my job search are concentrated on wafer fabrication companies. One thing that is holding me back for applying the job is the tough working condition. Most semiconductor industries require to work 12 hrs rotating shift which I doubt I can make it coz I am someone who is very concern about sleeping early. How can I bear to exchange my precious sleeping hours for money$$. No amount of money will be able to compensate for that! I can imagine myself quitting the job after one week I start work.

Besides that, I hv three private tuition now. I need to choose between engineering job and tuition which I dun want to let go. Coz I am satisfied with the pay as well as the job. My passion for teaching is back again! In fact I enjoy what I am doing now thats why I stop the job search. Maybe I should try being a full time tutor but if I were to become a full time tutor I cant continue this job for the rest of my life. It would be such a waste to spend so much money and time studying in university. And it can be quite stress when all my friends hv started working and I am the only one who haven start working. I dun want to anyhow apply for a job just to try out coz the first job is going to hv a major impact on the rest of my working career. Haiz..

2007-06-07T09:49:00.000-07:00

Its thursday already. So fast?! The 4th day of a week and soon the weekends will come and it will be monday and then the cycle repeats itself. Weeks after weeks, the month of june will be over soon. I promise to do a job search this week but I din do anything at all. I did try to look for some jobs but I just got irritated and vexed, and decided to surf the net instead. So I practically spent my time on those bo liao stuffs rather than on things that concern my future. Arghhhhh..

I got a marketing exam next thursday. The last module to clear before I declared a minor in business. Alot of ppl mistaken that I did badly in my studies and hv to repeat tts why I am still need to go school during the holiday. The mum just couldnt understand when I explained to her hundreds and thousands of times. I din TA BAO! I am innocent! And my dad is way too concern about the extra sch fee he has to pay for the 5 weeks inter-sem module I took. Arghhhh..

10 lessons and I only attended 5 lessons. And I have yet to start my revision for the exam. Hate my slackiness with no motivation and no discipline. I thought its my last module and last exam in ntu and furthermore its my fave business business, I should hv all the energy, enthusiasm and motivation to read beyond my lecture notes. But I just..Arghhhh..

I have a marketing presentation later in the afternoon. The product that my group is doing is a multifunction mp3 watch that allows calories burnt in a workout to be measured, and can transfer incoming calls and SMSes from your hp to the watch. Basically one can listen to music via wirless bluetooth earpiece while doing exercise and save the hassle of carrying the hp during the workout. Unrealistic product, right? Haha who cares. The lecturer only concern about how we market the product. There is one group doing LCD shoes that can change colour so girls no need to buy so many shoes. So funny!

I wana learn driving. Anyone has good driving instructor to recommend??

2007-06-04T14:39:00.000-07:00

Finally the 2 days temp job at the suntec IT fair has ended. Have not been doing sales job like this for quite a long time. And my legs are going to break for standing full 8 hours for the 2 days. But all this is worth cos I FINALLY understand what is meant by wireless connection(thks to bankus for ur patient and kind explanation and also for tis lobang). Yuppie. And I am being paid for learning so many IT stuffs. But I din get to tour the IT fair. What a waste.

Doing temp part jobs reminds me of those good old days when I hv just finished my O level or A level. I remember I will always wake up very early to buy the newspapers(very kiasu), and immediately flipped it to the temp jobs/other jobs category under the classified jobs section. Then I will call up all the companies that offer temp jobs but always ended up in frustration cos the line cant get through. haha. Those were the days...

Nowadays I am getting very sensitive to conversation related to age or words associated with 老. Not sure whether is it my new hairstyle or my overall dressing, somebody commented that I looked like 25 yrs old. :'(

My timetable for this week is to search for jobs and send resume, and hopefully by june I can find a job. *Pray

Life after graduation

2007-06-02T13:32:00.000-07:00

Everyone is like busy searching for jobs and going for interview.
I hv been slacking around, giving tuition and doing some temp jobs.
I din do any job search except for attending one interview held in ntu campus.
But in the end, I din manage to get interviewed cos there were too many graduates applying for that company.
So I just sent my resume to the company.
I doubt the HR will reply my email.

Haiz whatever la..I feel that I am not ready to enter the working society yet.
I want to take my time to slowly search for a job that is really suitable for me.
Cos I know myself too well. I do things purely based on my interest.
Actually I also duno what I want now.
I used to be very sure of my goal in life and very determine to achieve it.

But now..
I realised that the dream that I hv been pursuing for so many years has become more and more unrealistic.
The strong passion that I always had for this dream has gradually eroded over the years just like a handful of sand escaping from my fingers.
Now I am back to the crossroads not knowing which direction to go to.
My dad hopes that I can find a proper engineering job soon.
He is near the retiring age and he is still slogging hard at work.
I cant bear to see him work till wee hours for almost everyday.
I must find a job soon not for me but at least for my family.

2007-06-01T00:16:00.000-07:00

I have been a cave women since april. My pc was spoilt and currently the borrowed laptop that I am using has no proper network connection. Thats why I cant hv access to the net let alone blogging. :'( I have got so many 感触since the day I finish my exams to my fyp presentation to my finally graduation. But now I have found the solution to my network problem. wireless router!!! Din know the existence of router until I went to do a temp job to sell router at suntec IT fair. *blushed. Imagine a com idiot trying to sell wireless router who doesnt even know the basic things like ***( I shall not disclosed here to save some face for myself!) and asking dumb qns with no idea what myself is talking. That was one customer who walked over to my booth and said," Hi, I am actually a com idiot, I need your help in choosing a suitable router." In my heart, I was saying " I am more c0m idiot than you lor..." I think I really learn a great deal from this IT fair. I take things too granted.

<< Staying over in sh>>

2007-04-14T20:52:00.000-07:00

This whole week I am isolated from my family, outside friends and darling. =(
I just reached singapore, oops I mean home this evening.
With one big bag(4 reference books inside), laptop and paper bag for my dirty clothes. V HEAVY!! As tho I hv just came back from holiday.

Since mon I hv been staying in sch till 12am in the computer lab until it closed.
And waking up real early for sch to rush two reports(my fyp and design).
Because both the dateline is fri which is yesterday.
Only slept for 3-5hrs a day and I am down with a flu. Plus cough now.
Always skip my breakfast and had my dinner at 10plus.
I went to weigh myself and I lost 3 kg accompanied by super dark circles. =(

Have been rushing like hell to and fro school so I decided to staying over sch instead.
Thur night I stayed through the nite until 6am typing non stop but I FAILED to finish writing my fyp report. #FIRST FAILURE#
I am so discourage despite putting in my 101% effort.
If I cant finish with my report, I cant start on my revision for exams.
*The first paper is next tue 17/4*
So my fren and I who were under the same professor went to email him to extend the submission dateline.

Dear Prof,

Can we check with you if there is a date which our fyp final report must be handed in?
we still need more time to tidy up our reports and especially in our discussion chapter.

Regards,
Janet & Gwyn

Dear all,
As I told you, I won’t insist to have your report before the end of the month, so from my point of view, you still have time – but seeing how close we are from the exam start, you should ask yourself questions about the way you plan (or don’t plan :-) your work.
It is still time to find answer to this question – you are at school for a few more weeks

Stress goes hand in hand with procrastination and bad planning – doing things at the last minute is the best recipe for a stressful life. Jun Hua, who already submitted his report after minor corrections, is now more serene that the others I bet :-)

I hope to see a draft ASAP (even incomplete) so that we can discuss the report organization… I may still have one thing or two to teach you there :-)

Good luck for your exams and cheers!
Franck

After reading his reply, I feel extremely down instead of feeling relieved.
I duno how to describe my feelings at that point of time.
A FEELING MIXTURE OF:
Negative thoughts.Resentment. Disappointment. Sad. Remorseful. Angry.
Feeling to doubt on capability.
Feel like a total failure.

The 2nd report is my design project on sugarcane juice extractor machine.
The dateline is also fri which is yesterday.
It is a group work but everyone is busy with their own fyp report.
I try to balance out my time for this and fyp, and I am already working like a mad woman.
Couldnt finish the report yesterday and again, my proj mates and I ask for dateline extension.
The prof was ok with handing in today.
But I overslept today! Slept at 4am and set my alarm to wake up at 7am.
Shit shldnt go catch a wink at all!
Hv a quick bath and rush the report at the fastest speed as we could.
Still left with abit to do, some touch up and some editing to do.
But all these took ard 5hrs!?
In the end, the prof sent us an email asking us to hand in on mon morning instead. That was the time we had just finish printing and binding our report ready to hand in to him!!! ARGHHHH.
I think the prof was angry waiting for the LATE report that he went home already.
My heart dropped when I rcv his email and I just stood there freezed with the report in my hands.
All the efforts has gone into the drain.
Why cant he just wait for us for another min anyway he has waited quite long.
ONE MINUTE MAKES A BIG DIFFERENCE.
#2ND FAILURE#

I am not going to experience the 3rd failure again.
I will make sure I hand my fyp report on mon punctually.
I am not going to sleep until I finish my fyp report today.

<< Rushing proj>>

2007-04-07T16:35:00.000-07:00

Hv anyone seen a sotong with panda eyes tt eat junk food whole day?
Its at sgoon north. Free admission.
Photo taking is allowed. ^_^"

Totally worn out these few days.
Hv been burning mid night for the whole week and maybe next week too.
And now I am used to going to bed only after 12am.
Is there any research on why ppl tend to eat junk food when they are stressed?
It doesnt help to de-stress and its making me sick.
But do I have craving for it?

I think I better dun bored u guys with my prob.
Anyway I have learnt how to cope with it having trained 4 yrs in ntu.
I am following my own pace.
Slow and steady=win the race.
Its my last sem before I leave ntu forever.
But its also my worst sem.
Maybe this is a best way to create deep impression of my last stage of student life.
LAST STAGE OF STUDENT LIFE!!!
Going to release from MAE prison on 30th April.
Jail term: 4yrs since july yr 2003
Crime committed: Not courageous enough to pursue my dreams.
I swear I am not going to waste any of my youth again.

I finally went to IKEA at tampines yest.
And its a outing with my parents.
Despite having alot of sch work to do, I still go out with them.
Coz I have been rejecting my mum a million of times.
Not worth to sacrifice my time for sch work and neglect my family.
A public holiday hardly come by.
I asked Sean to come along.
So I can acc my parents and him at the same time.
So off we went to tampines.

My first reaction when enter IKEA was wow.
My second and third reaction was still wow.
The place was so so so spacious despite having big crowd!!
And for one item they have all sort of design to choose from.
Each design is so creative and nice. I feel like buying all of them.
And their decoration for bedroom, living room, toilet, kitchen is still as cosy as before.
It makes me feel like buying a new house and start decorating it immediately.
Din get to eat their famous $1 hot dog coz its such a long queue.
Their cafe is full too. =(
Miss their famous meatball and fried chicken wings.

GIANT and COURTS are there too.
Din know it until I went there. Opps.
By the time I finish shopping at IKEA, my legs are already tired to walk any further.
End of shopping trip.
Bought a cool quilt for myself.
Tested it out last night.
It brings me sweet dreams.
I need a good rest. The quilt is the best reward.

<< busy life style >>

2007-04-02T21:45:00.000-07:00

I finally went to donate blood on last sat at punggol park CC.
I was greeted by a warm welcome by the staff.
There were not much blood donors.
This is my 2nd time donating blood but I am still scare of the process.
I am scare of the thick needle.
Its the psychological fear coz I din even see them inserting it into my skin.
I can imagine the pain of a patient going through kidney dialysis.

My 2nd time donating blood is not that pleasant as the first time.
Coz my arm hurts during the process and time taken for the blood to fill one packet is very slow.
The nurse said I have very fine blood veins and low pulse rate.
Need to exercise more and drink more water.
I wan to exercise except swimming. Any takers??

Had a bad time surviving in ntu.
There are so many project dateline to meet.
Alot of things screwed up last min.
Alot of things are done incompletely.
All the things just came at one go and I duno which one to handle first.
Coz all of them need to be given first priority.
I dun wan to sacrifice my sleep for it.
But wat can I do when I have so many things to do but so little time.

I tried not to complain and keep calm.
Somehow I just lose my temper and vent it on my loved ones.
I feel so bad for treating them this way.
I just lose control.
I think the best way is dun open my mouth to talk until I am back to normal.

I hope this difficult period will end real soon.
I am already imagining myself enjoying holiday in some parts of the world in coming May before the reality hits me again.
God bless me!

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2007-03-18T18:10:00.000-07:00

Had a wonderful and busy week since 10Mar.

Coz of my dear da bing aka Tiff's bdae and my bdae.
Had celebration for consecutive 3 days which make me so high and happy.

Eaten 3 choc cakes and made 3 same wishes.
Appreciate the effort by all my dear frens, darling and family who make me the most happiest person for that week. A BIG thank you!!

And seriously, these efforts have became my source of motivation to hang on till I graduate in Jul 07.

*10th of Mar-Tiff's 23rd Bdae*

Sec sch frens gathering as well! Peicai rocks!

Yummy food. This is my 2nd round!

The 'twist' family. Who has the cutiest twist?

Sorry gal. Your Mr.White received more attention than you on ur big day!

Tipsy Tiff.

Moral of the story: Nv play games involving alcoholic drinks on ur bdae day.

*11th of Mar-My Big Day*

Had lunch with my family at Marine Raffles Club.

My mum was very enthu in celebrating my bdae.

She has booked me one week in advance!!!

Sean was invited too! But he has to leave early to do 'something'.

I somehow know that he was planning something for my special day later in the evening.
Poor darling. He was 'accused' by my parents,who do not know abt anything, for leaving early to meet his 2nd gf.
I din explain to them. I just laughed quietly.

After lunch I went back home to wait for him to pick me up.
He was late. I din get angry coz I know he was busy with that 'something'.

We went to Paris Park as suggested by him.

Paris Park has changed quite alot. There are construction everywhere.

We went to have our dinner at a newly open cafe Mid Summer Nite Breeze which serves nice chinese food.

No service charge + Fresh ingredient + Big portion + Reasonable price = Satisfied and full :)

We were so full that we decided to take a stroll on the beach.

And he started to write on the sand and we played fireworks.

Tired and perspiring, we sat under the coconut tree to watch the stars.

I was getting more and more curious.

He just wont tell what surprises he had for me! humpf..

We sat there until its time to go home.

So he sent me back to his car but ask me to sit at the front seat and wait.
I was asked not to peep or turn my back.
So I sat there obediently, listening attentively on what he was doing 'behind my back'. Haha.

I heard loud banging of seats, removing of plastic bags sound, water flowing sound(???).

He was running busily from one side of his car to the back side of the car.

And I was laughing non stop with my eyes still closed.

While waiting I kept making fun of him by repeatedly saying, "Hor..I am gg to turn my back."

He was so nervous that he replied me in a serious tone, "Pls..Pls..dont turn first.." Haha.

THEN he led me to the back seat of the car with my eyes still closed.

**SURPRISE**
Every small little things that he do now comes into picture.
Purpose of sitting under the coconut tree was to wait for the clock to strike 12.

I was totally amazed that he planned my bdae in such a special way. I was inside his car!

I requested for a Cantonese Bdae Song and he really sang for me. *blushed*

He ordered dark choc cake for me coz he knew I like dark choc!

Hooray I am only one year old. The cake shop gave the wrong nos of candles la!

The next thing I know, the bouquet of roses was already in my hand.

I was speechless! I din expect it at all but I did hope for it.

Its my fave colour-purple!!!

We had some sparkling juice after that.

He even bought his own wine glass and self-made mini fridge to keep the bottle chilled.

**He melts my heart with all the things that he did**

**I was very touched that night**

12th of Mar-My Actual Bdae

I was on my way to tuition when Tiff's msg me to ask whether I am free.

I know she was gg to celebrate my bdae with me.

So I pretend to dun know anything and replied yes.

I called her after my tuition. She told me ah mei and yaya wont be coming.

But there will be a shen mi jia bing.

So I called ah mei and yaya immediately to find out the mystery person.

But to my dismay, it neither ah mei or yaya.

I gave up finding and went to eat my dinner first at her hse kopitiam.

I gave her a call when I was done.

She told me she was at home and promise to bring down my things for me.

I din suspect anything.

I asked her to meet me at the kopitiam but she said meet at the park there.

So I walked to the park and on my way there I met the mystery person-Fuwei!!

I asked where is Tiff but Fuwei asked me not to probe and wait in the park.

After a while, Tiff's appeared with carriers in her hands.

She came from Hougang pt not her hse!

AND we hv a simple yet heart warming celebration... and chit chat session

The cake will finish eating.

The flowers will wither and die.

The happy times will finally end.

But the memories will stay forever.

Thank you for giving me all the happy memories.

Love u guys!! =)

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2007-03-09T17:11:00.000-08:00

Dun understand why I am having this very bad headache recently.
My head is spinning as though there is a mini earthquake in my body.
The headache makes me wan to puke and my stomach feels bloated.

Expected my project discussion to end ard 5.30pm.
But it ended at 4.40pm.
I cant make make up my mind whether to go home or stay in sch until 5.30pm.
Coz I am meeting my dear gals at 7pm at amk the new shopping mall.
In the end I decided to stay in sch to use the computer.
Checking of email, reading blog and blogging.

It seems so weird to meet at amk.
Coz all the while we hv been meeting at hougang hall or town area.
Anyway I hv not been to the amk hub so its a good idea!
Plus I will be the first to reach home tonight.
U nv know it is so depressing to be the last one to reach home everytime. haa

<>

2007-03-08T23:22:00.000-08:00

This week is the most busiest week in sch.
Coz the dateline for fyp 1st draft for most students is next week.
For my faculty, it is on the 13th of Mar.
Everywhere I walked, in the canteen, lift and benches I could hear people discussing about fyp.
The most talked topic during lunch now is fyp.
When I met my frens in sch, the first qns that we asked is fyp.
I really need to buck up coz I am getting stress when I see everyone is harding so hard for the report.

I had a presentation this morning.
Yest I was complaining to Moo during Yoga class.
Frankly speaking I hate presentation/public speaking becoz I hv stage fright.
But I am very satisfied with my performance today.
I managed to overcome the stage fright and calm myself down.
I made it! I made it! MoOOOOO..
Each speaker is given a maximum of 4 mins to present.
I spoke too fast. I think my speech lasts for only 2 mins.

Comments from the tutor:
Good professional approach. (I think becoz I made my objectives very clear at the beginning)
Reduce reading from notes. (I was reading practically every words from my script but I got maintain eye contact with the audience)
With that, I was graded with B. =)

Today I was scolded by my tuition kid's grandma.
Coz my P4 tuition kid failed his Math and Science test.
He got 31 out of 100 for both. *faint
And he was still very proud of his results.
Becoz he told me he got the highest marks among those failed students. *faint
I only started teaching him for one month plus.
His grandma's words makes me realised that I have lost my passion for teaching.
Now I only teach for only one reason--that is $$$.
Haiz..Need to do some self reflection.

I am looking forward to my fri, sat and sun.
My weekends are packed and happening.
Fri-Gazeboo gathering
Sat-Tiff's bdae party
Sun-Lunch with parents and meeting Sean in the evening
I like it when my timetable is packed in the sense that I am busy with my own personal stuffs.

This year Tiff is organising her own bdae celebration so that means I will be less busy.
I am so getting used to preparing her bdae celebration for the last two yrs with A*mei, Yaya and Tiff's frens.
Thinking hard what to get for her bdae, coming up with those stupid surprise, pulling in her frens and bro to share bdae present when I dun even know them well.
Will be missing her and those memories when she fly to korea.

I have a new resolution starting from this year.
I am going to donate blood every year on my bdae.
I got to thks xf, my ntu mates for asking me to acc her to donate blood last year.
In the end, she din donate at all becoz she was underweight.
So its the other way round instead.
It feels good to be able to save lives even tho you may not know who u are saving.
Instead of hearing those scary stories about thick needles, why not come forward to experience it.
One thing to emphasize, it is NOT painful at all!
FYI:
There is one blood donation drive at punggol park CC on 31st Mar, sun 10am-4pm.
Experience it!

<< Busy day >>

2007-03-07T18:55:00.000-08:00

I am waiting to go for my Yoga lesson which starts at 7.30pm.
Today is the last lesson and my attendance is 5/8.
Came back home from school at 6.30pm.
Took out my contact lenses and washed my face to freshen up.
Decided to blog since I got time to spare.
Coz the CC is just a few metres away from my hse. Hee..
If only ntu is so near!

Finally found someone in ntu who is as sway as me.
Met Elida,my jc fren, on last mon in sch canteen.
Have not been seeing her for quite some time ever since we specialise in different engineering faculty.
The first qns that we asked is FYP and dateline of the first draft report!
And from there I found out that her dateline for the first draft is the day after her bdae.
Which is exactly the same situation as me!
Both of us just laughed bitterly.

Have not started on my report yet.
I am procastinating...dragging..duno how to start..
I hv caught yaya's disease.
Struggling hard to tell myself to get over once and for all.
Arghhhhhhh..

Its time for Yoga!!!
MoO, here I come. haha.

<< Finally>>

2007-03-03T20:44:00.000-08:00

I have been blogging every now and then, it just that the entry never get posted everytime. I always dun feel like posting it up after I typing a long entryand I just switched off my com. Haa..thats why it is not updated. I hope after I had finished typing my entry, I 'feel' like posting it!

Haiz..my 1 week holiday has come to an end. Actually this is the best holiday ever because it falls on the week after CNY="quite" long holiday. And this will be the last sch term break I get to enjoy. I am going to graduate in two more months!! Going to be four years soon. Just two more steps to Mount Engineering, grab the flag, hold it high up, wave and shout I have made it! Started this course in Yr2003. I feel that I have aged!!!

Regarding my fyp, I have a GOOD news to share. The solution has been found(of course not by me) and from the 30% completion, it shot up to 70% completion. I have finished all my experimental work during the holi and the remaining 30% is report writing. I hope so. I feel so blessed to have all the kind soul around me whenever I am stuck with all the engineering related shit.

Yeah! Goodbye to cleanroom.

I finally met up with Tiff, A*mei and Yaya. I thought the gathering will be cancelled because everything screwed up last min and due to some miscommunication. Everyone arrived late(near midnight) but it is better than not coming. Thanks for the effort for making ur way down to my house. But the gathering soon turned into a fun gambling session with more and more people joining.

I was totally amazed by the these group of frens who can stay awake until 6.30am gambling non stop without yawning. I gave up in the middle of the night and sat there stoning, looking at the pile of coins moving from one end of the table to the other end and back to the original owner again. My stomach was grumbling the whole night but I couldnt eat any of the goodies thanks to sickening cough and flu. I was coughing like a grandmother the whole night. Sorry gals if i hv passed the virus to u. Hee.

This time I feel like posting it. ;P

<< Busy >>

2007-02-04T21:45:00.000-08:00

I am going to suffer from heart attack.
The dateline for my fyp report is drawing near.
The first draft is on 13th March.
My experiment has yet to complete.
The solution to solve it has yet to be found.
*Die. I am done for...

After this project I will be expert in microscopy esp on the illumination path.
I am so sick of viewing enlarged micro lens for hours. Arghhhh..
I have got 15 lenses to view. Can u imagine that?
Taking measurements of one lens took me an hour plus.
After all the tedious reading takings, the research student who is in charge of my fyp actually doubted my readings.
I took two weeks to take those readings!!
The thought of doing it all over again makes me sick.
Time is running out.
I really feel like giving up.

I have no idea where I spend my time.
Why I am left with so little time for studies and fyp?
I only took 4 module this sem and only has one private tuition.
Comparing with last sem, I took 7 module and had 3 tuition.
But amazingly I cope quite well.

I am so stressed that I almost forgot all about V-day and his bdae which is the day before V-day.
Including my own bdae which is the day before the dateline of first draft.
I have forgotten it until somebody mentioned the number 23.
My most hated number for yr 2007.
No mood for CNY too.
I haven buy any new clothes or shoes.

If I have some time to spare, I hope to go through all the brochures I taken from the career fair.
Need to filter them and narrow down to a few companies.
Not sure whether to work immediately after graduation. Abit kaisu??
But I am glad that this year the economy is doing very well.
Finding job shouldnt be a problem esp engine job.
Is the interest that matter.

2007-01-27T15:22:00.000-08:00

I feel alot better after a couple of de-stress session.
Targetting for perfection is impossible.
Coz nothing is perfect in this world.
For that I bought alot of unnecessary stress to myself.
And unhappiness as well.
Silly me.

Went shopping with Tiff yest.
We looked tired and sian when we met on the bus.
I was rushing some drawings before meeting Tiff.
And tiff was sleeping before meeting me.
I knew it. Stay with her for a day and you will know her living style. ;P

We both remain silent on the journey.
I guess we have not warm up yet.
We are not into the shopping situation until we walked into BYSI.
My shopping list is simple.
I only want a plain white spag top to go with my orange skirt.
Simple yet diffcult to find the right type of material texture.

Loves to shop with Tiff coz she has unique taste for clothes.
Ever since the last time I shop with her, I am influenced by her to wear dress.
Dress is now one of the items on my shopping list.
I realised whenever we visit Mango, she will definitely grab a few clothes off the shelves and ask me to try.
It only happens at Mango. Why huh?

I have finally visted the XIN WANG hongkong cafe.
I have always wanted to visit it and find out what it has in store for cafe lovers.
My passion for opening a cafe has not changed.
Chi-na design with some warrior statues.
Nice ambience but food is average.
Learnt a new way of eating fried mini buns from Tiff.
Dip it with condensed milk and it tastes heavenly yummy.
Try it and you will get what I mean. =)

It has been a year plus and we are still proud of StyleP.
We lose but we gain invaluable experience.
Thinking back of all..
the fun, the quarrels, bangkok trip, missing flight, pasar malam..
Its indeed memorable.
If we have money when we retire, lets work together again. haa.

To all my dearies, a website to share with u.
Nice and cheap clothes. Take a look at www.cct-fashion.com

2007-01-17T18:04:00.000-08:00

New year resolution revisit
1) Spend less and save more--->My piggy is still 'underweight'. Will try to hit my target so that I can open an UOB account. jiA yOu!
2) Work super hard and play hard as well for my last sem in ntu---> I did work super hard but I play very little. =(
3) Try to get as many As as possible. It will be my last chance already---> Why should I wait for the last year in ntu then try to get as many As as possible? Anyway just chiong all the way.
4) Spend more time with my parents. Improve communication with them--->Well it only lasts for a week after I wrote down the new year resolution. =/
5) Get my driving license---> The first I want to do after I graduate.
6) Find out what I really want in life. Is engineering jobs really suit me?---> Will attend the career exhibition held in ntu and see how.
7) Try not to be so pai seh with every little thing--->Trying to but seems hard to change that weird habit of mine.
8) Learn tennis and yoga--->I have signed up for yoga! and had attended the first lesson with Moo. It was FUN! Will learn tennis when I hv the time and also money.

Just doing some self reflection. I hope I can accomplish at least half of it.

<< School blues >>

2007-01-13T21:46:00.000-08:00

I hv finally waited for the weekends.
I am hating school more and more.
I am not only having monday blues.
I am having 'everyday' blues as long as I need to go school.

My luck in Yr2007 seems bad.
My rat zodiac clashes with the piggy?

Bad luck#1:
My timetable was screwed up becos of clashes here and there. Sch term starts since last mon and my timetable hv yet to finalise=cant sit down in peace to study and revise lec notes. Was in dilemma for the entire week whether to drop my fav module becos of clashes and time constraint. I made up my mind on Fri. It was a diffcult decision. I dropped one of my fav module(and also fav lecturer!) in exchange for a easier + boring module. =( I can only say its a pity. I need the time for my fyp. Cursing and swearing at my fyp!

Bad luck#2:
It is also to do with my timetable. Initially my mon is off but now its back to 5 days week. That is the trade off I hv to accept for changing to an easier module.

Bad luck#3:
For the first time I am troubled over project grouping prob and I saw the ugly side of my best fren. In the past, there was no such prob becos I was usually a loner and bo chap type. I was never worry when it comes to project grouping. I choose the slot that suit my timetable the best and let fate decide who will be my project mates.

This sem I register a project based module with a group of gal frens and saw alot of friendship prob. I agree everyone is selfish but I din expect that best fren of mine to be even more selfish. The more I see her the more I am disgusted by her.

Bad luck#4:
I dropped my handphone! Ouch, my hear hurts. The impact was so great that the cover and memory card actually flew out. Lucky there isnt any scratches and it is still fuctioning well. I am planning to change phone cos Nokia phone always hang.

Bad luck#5:
My love life will encounter some twists and turns due to some conflicts and disagreement. This is from my zodiac for the year 2007 and we are both rats. Its quite true coz we had some stupid quarrels over trival things.

Bad luck#6:
I lost all my students. The tuition centre din contact me to start work and my private student has changed her hp nos. Maybe I din do a good job.

I need to wear some crystals to ward off more bad lucks. Shoo!!

<< My first complain in 2007 >>

2007-01-06T21:20:00.000-08:00

I wish, I wish, I wish..
that my fyp is in pairs and not indivdual so that I can discuss with my partner all the problems I encounter in the proj, so that there is at least someone to share the stress and workload with me, so that someone will at least understand what the hell I am talking regarding my proj. Nobody seems to understand my proj even tho I tried explaining what it is about. Neither do I understand what my frens' fyp is about. One word: COMPLICATED. Half a sem has gone and I am still at the same spot where I started. NO DIRECTION. LOST. AGITATED. VEXED. ANGRY. Its getting more and more stressed becoz the DEADline for the final report is 13 Mar. One day after my bdae. I am so disappointed with my capability in doing things. First of all, the fyp I am doing has nothing to do with my course of study. Its OPTICS. It was a last min change. Put in other words, I am forced to change to that proj. It was my Prof research proj and I am doing it for my fyp. The diffculty level is 3 times harder. I am very grateful for all the ppl who has help me in my fyp in one way or another but I still have to solve the main prob by MYSELF. Going to bed whenever I faced a prob is my solution now. I always hope I can find some inspiration to solve it after I woke up but I ended up sleeping more, hating the proj more.

< Uploading photo >>

2007-01-03T16:37:00.000-08:00

Dear gazebooers, these are all I have. Please help urself k. =)

*X'mas Exchange 2006*

Kh receiving present from Peiru. BEFORE scene.
Peiru: I dun wan to exchange. Can I skip first?..

Peiru: Nah, here is ur xmas present..

Peiru: Oh no, I am scare. Wonder if kh will like my present..

INTERMEDIATE scene

AFTER scene
Kh's satisfied look. Anyway the soft toy is really cute!

Peiru receiving present from kh. BEFORE scene.
Kh: Oh no, its my turn now..

INTERMEDIATE scene

AFTER scene
Peiru: Guess what I hv got in my hand?

Peiru: Its my favorite Pooh and chocolate! This soft toy is even cuter!

Ending with the last photo.

Good news again! I have successfully register the module for next sem and its an official 4 day week! Mon off. =)

<< happy new year >>

2007-01-02T16:01:00.000-08:00

First of all, Happy New Year to all my dear frens out there! Wishing u all the best in everything in the yr 2007. Lets work towards our new year resolution and make sure it doesnt accumulate to yr 2008. And thks for all the greeting msg which I din reply in time.

I was away from spore for 2 days. He finally brought me back to his hometown in msia to let his family see. I passed the test. Accepted. Approved. His mum even ask me to come again on chinese new year. I am looking forward to it. I had so much fun. My last 2 days of yr 2006 was indeed memorable. And guess what, I cried on the bus on my way home to spore. I missed the place. I always has a very unique feeling, a strange kind of bonding when I go back to msia, somehow I just feel that I belong to there. Maybe I really do.

Enough of my updating. Here comes my new year resolution.
1) Spend less and save more.
2) Work super hard and play hard as well for my last sem in ntu.
3) Try to get as many As as possible. It will be my last chance already.
4) Spend more time with my parents. Improve communication with them.
5) Get my driving license.
6) Find out what I really want in life. Is engineering jobs really suit me?
7) Try not to be so pai seh with every little thing.
8) Learn tennis and yoga.

But for now, I need to do hair treatment, buy face mask and eye gel. My resolution for now is to get rid of my hay-like hair, disgusting pimples and blackheads, and thick eye bag + dark circles.

<< Results!! >>

2006-12-28T22:04:00.000-08:00

My results are out!!! I am extremely happy and satisfied with my results. I wana share my joy with whoever is reading this. Yuppie!

I am glad that I made it again this sem and achieve 4As. OMG. This is totally unexpected coz I din put in much efforts this sem. I admit that I did over play for this sem. Studying very hard at the last min did help to salvage the situation but I really din expect to get 4As out of the 7 module. ;P

Lucky I passed human resource mgt C+ somemore. Whahaha. I was worying like hell for that module coz I really did very badly for that paper. I want to announce to the whole MAE year 4 cohort that I PASSED HRM!!!!

Now I have greater motivation for my fyp and next sem. =)

I am going to have sweet sweet dreams tonight...

<< Merry X'mas >>

2006-12-26T01:18:00.000-08:00

Had heArt wArmiNg, wEt, spArklinG and thriLLing x'mas with my dear gals. We finally meet up on x'mas eve after all the efforts to arrange a perfect day which fits everyone. So happy that we made it!
We hired a photographer from india and her skills not bad. But I think I looked plump in the photo. =(

heArt wArmiNg: We ended up in huiya hse, the small cosy room with the usual gossips, jokes, suan-ing and updating of each others' life.

wEt: If only the rain drops are snow, we will be making and throwing snowballs at each other. The rain did dampen the festive qi fen.

spArklinG: Working on x'mas day as fake shopper looking at diamond non stop for 4 hrs. Ouch, my eyes hurt. Thats how I spent my x'mas. /

thriLLing: I nearly suffered heart attack from x'mas present exchange. Though my luck is abit down this year, but huiya I still love ur present. BUT please get sth smaller next year. ;P

Thanks gals for giving me such a memorable and wonderful x'mas eve. The only pity thing is that we dun hv camera with us. I must say bankus camera phone takes better pictures evn though mine is also 2 mega pixels. Hope we can celebrate x'mas togther every year. Luv u gals! *hugs and muacks

<< Merry xmas-2 more days>>

2006-12-23T15:59:00.000-08:00

2 more days to xmas. I hv almost forgotten today is 23rd already becoz I too busy. I am very busy but I duno what I am busy with! I cant rem what I hv done for the past few weeks and time flies without me knowing. Let me recall..gg back to sch for fyp, tuition, gathering, doing temp job and hmmm..I think tts all and I am busy like a buzzing bee?? maybe I spend my time doing some unnecessary stuff.

I hv been going back to sch since 6th of dec until now and I realised I hv been doing some dumb lab experiment that doesnt yield any results. In other words, I hv been wasting half of my dec holi doing #$%@&. Anyway I also duno what I am doing. Getting worried if I am able to complete my fyp in time. I just feel that the project given to me is beyond my capability. I still gotta to write the final report which is 50 over pages. It must be kidding. What is there to write?? Urghhhh.

Some of my frens said the exams results will be out on yest and some said 26th. Since it was not out yest then it must be next tue. *worried. I am praying hard that I can pass hrm coz I wun have the extra time to cater for this repeated module for my next sem timetable. Its hard to be optimistic when I hv a strong feeling that I will bao. :(

<< I wan shopping!! >>

2006-12-15T22:38:00.000-08:00

Hate ppl who watch tv while chatting on the phone with me.
That is simply so rude! Pissed off.
If you are keen on chatting with me, pls switch off ur tv.

I din go school to do my expt today. I am feeling extremely tired. I think I deserve a day off from lab work because I have been very hardworking since last week. I took a 2hrs nap in the afternoon and I am still feeling sleepy now. Why am I so tired? yawning non stop wherever I go, watever I do. Oh no, did I caught some strange illness?

I want to shop!!! I have a whole list of things to buy.
1) Covered shoes. at least 2 pairs.
2) Adidas track shoes.
3) Shorts.
4) Three-quarter shorts
5) A new levis jeans
6) A new spec with thick frame.
7) A dress.
8) Some new clothes.
9) A sling bag.
Did I just mention in my last entry I was broke? (looking back at last entry) Ya, I did!
Endless things to buy but limited budget.
Maybe I should focus on the things I need rather than I want.
Then my shopping list will be narrowed down to only one or two items--Covered shoes and three quarts shorts. Ok I should focus on just these two items in my next shopping trip.

Who has started on the fyp report? Pls send me the cover page and content page template coz I am so lazy to type..yawn again..

<< Angry, regret, disappointed >>

2006-12-13T10:36:00.000-08:00

I regreted going to jb with my ntu frens on mon coz I am spending more and more money for this holiday. This time not all on food. Its on ktv, movies and clothes. But there is one thing that I din regret-ktv Neway at citysquare. The ktv room is posh and spacious. There is even a washroom inside it. Their service is good and efficient. Sooooo much better than S'pore very own kbox and kster. 5hrs for only RM18 after all the ++. SUPER CHEAP! must go try.

Yest was my first session of tuition. FINALLY! finally I see some inflow of cash after all the constant outflow becoz my bank account is running low. I hope it can last me till I get my first pay. I just spent $97 on bus and train concession. thks to my fyp! Thats why I am so 'hardworking' going back to sch everyday. I will make sure I take 4 train ride and at least 5 bus ride everyday! Why is it so easy to spend money and so difficult to save up? Coz there is endless things to buy, see and eat!

<< BOred>>

2006-12-07T16:11:00.000-08:00

I AM BORED EVEN THOUGH I HV GOT LOTS OF THINGS TO DO!!
I finally finished the ppt slide for tue presentation.
Well, I manage to skip the presentation using 'doc appointment' as an excuse.
My prof din reply my email after that. Its either he is too busy to check email or he is too fed up with my attitude. I am not sure if the presentation is graded. btw, this is the 2nd presentation that I hv skipped. There will be a 3rd one coming in jan and the 4th one in April. I just sent him my ppt slides and my fyp schedule plan. If he din reply anything then I am sure I am already blacklisted by him.

Fyp is an ongoing project. I cant even take a break for this short holiday. I would rather rot at home then to do the proj. Travelling all the way to boon lay and spending 3 hrs plus inside cleanroom with the bunny suit-->>NO WAY! But do I have a choice? I hate the bunny suit coz it messed up my hair everytime. And I have to wear the suit with the guys in the same changing room(just put it on only). Female by nature do things slower than male, so every time the guys got to wait for me. Feel so embarrassed!

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2006-12-04T14:38:00.000-08:00

My exams ended on the 30th nov and I rcv an email regarding the interim presentation for my fyp on the 28th nov. UrghhhhhhhHHHH. C'mon my exams has just ended and I need time to rest. This presentation came at the wrong time. I wish I din checked my email. Can i just ignore it and pretend I hv gone for a short holiday? Reply my prof "when I am back". Sounds irresponsible right? The truth is I dun want to present. I dun mind rushing the report for my prof but presentation is a no-no. Right now, I am thinking of the best and perfect solution I can think of to miss this presentation. think, think, think...I got exactly 24hrs to decide whether to turn up for tmr presentation.

<< Charlotte's web!>>

2006-12-02T14:59:00.000-08:00

Saw this coming soon movie "Charlotte's web" when checking out at the GV website.
Does it ring a bell, dear peicaians?
Its our sec 2 literature story book taught by Miss Neo.
Just to recap the main animal characters in the story.
Charlotte is the spider.
Wilbur is the cute little white pig.
Templeton is the rat. (Totally forgotten abt the rat!)
The story plot took place at Zuckerman's farm.
I think it will be a heart warming n touching story.
And the pig is super cute!
Open in threatres on 15th of dec.
So rem to watch!

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2006-12-01T16:46:00.000-08:00

Dont worry u are at the right blog. :)
I have finally give my blog a new look.
Had a hard time changing it cause I am a com idiot!
Looks fresher and more vibrant now, right?

Yesterday was the last day of my exams.
I dun think I can achieve my goals for this sem exam.
Aim to achieve 4 As out of my 7 module.
But I think I can only get A for Quality Management.
The paper was easy and I even left early.
The easier the paper, the harder to get A!

The most demoralising paper was Human Resource Management.
It was a essay type of exam.
My neigbours are writing pages and pages and mine is only half or three quarter page for each qns.
I was so devastated after the paper.
Just hoping for a pass will do. *crossing finger

Now that my exam is over, what should I do now?
Suddenly feel lost because no need to mug anymore. haa.
The last 2 weeks were hell for me.
Mugging non stop, sleeping less than 6hrs a day almost consecutively.
Now I know what I should do already.
Find cure for my dark circle and eye bag!
Cant stand it when I look into the mirror.

Many unpleasant things happen during exams.
I bet u guys will say I lost weight again when you guys see me.
I think I have become more sensible after all the incident.
I am determined to change to a better person.
Grateful for the given chance to change and make amendement before its too late.

<< Giddy >>

2006-10-31T22:10:00.000-08:00

My head is spinning as if I have been spinned in the washing machine for an hour. My head feel like its going to explode any time. I have been having late nights consecutively for 4 days and sleeping for only 4 hrs a day. This is crazy. I hope the sch will have study break so that I can concentrate fully on my revision. Haiz..left another 15 days. I have 7 module to study which means I have left with 2.1 days for each module. Arghhhh..

Its the last day of a month. Why time pass so fast without me realising it? Am I too preoccupied with my own stuff all the time that I din realise 3 months has actually gone since the day sch reopens? June I was in thailand, July I was in Redang and now its going to be Nov soon. I really look forward to my Genting trip in Dec. Haa. I want to gamble, gamble and gamble. Thats the only place i am interested to visit. Maybe the casino management can introduce more kawaii jackpot machine of walt disney character and doraemon. ;p

Was introduced to a nice pub called 'Live Impact' at clark quay by Tiff. We met up on last fri with Yaya too for drink. We all agreed that we have grown old and prefer 'not-so-noisy' pub than clubbing where we can actually sit down to unwind and chit chat. We talked about a topic tt I hate yet inevitable--our future. A headache and endless topic to discuss. I dun even know where my future lies. But I seriously need to start planning for my future and start saving now.

Tiff, I want to go see the night view at Mt Faber!! Having live in spore for 22 years, I have nv been to Mt faber! Lets have another round of fireworks, bubble blowing and pinic. This time I will make sure my cam is fully charged! haa.

<< Mood swing >>

2006-10-23T09:43:00.000-07:00

Woke up with a dampened mood today.
Thanks dear for the mrn call.
But I went back to sleep for another 10 mins before dragging myself to wash up.
I need more rest.
I thought today was still sunday.
My weekends past by like a flash of light.
I wish the sch extend the e-learning week so that I can stay at home for online lec and listen at my own pace.
And I dun hv to waste my precious time travelling back and forth to sch.
I envy those who stay near the sch.
I can jostly well move to hostel but I dun like the environment.

Reasons for my dampened mood:
(a) The haze is upsetting me and disrupting my outdoor activities. I hate polluted air. I can visualise the air filled micro organism and bacteria and when I breathe, millions of them travel through my nose and mouth and into my lungs..
(b)I am having a bad flu and cough. I hv completed my medicine and I see no improvement in my illness. Thats the reason why I dun like to take medicine.
(c)Offended by someone?? Nobody upset me. I am the one who upset ppl. I feel bad for venting my anger on those innocent ppl. Thats why I prefer to isolate myself when I am in bad mood.
(d)24 days to exams. The last time I counted the days was 30 and now... Miracle dun happen all the time.
(e)Cope myself up at home to study, study and study. No entertainment, no hangout, no TV. Ban the stupid exam!!

Wishes:
(a) I wish I was born a genius and have a superb memory---->next life maybe
(b)I wish I have higher threshold for tolerance---->long way to go
(c)I wish I share a closer relationship with my dad---->still trying hard
(d)I wish I have straight hair---->rebond does the wonder, isnt it?
(e)I wish I can stay happy forever---->that depends on many factor

A reason to cheer up:

ITS PUBLIC HOLIDAY
TOMORROW!!! ;P

2006-10-19T23:55:00.000-07:00

Actually I have blogging these few days but they are always incomplete and eventually save as drafts. I hope this time it will be posted. =) I have so much to blog but simply dun hv the spare time for it!

Ya, the most hateful and stressful period is coming soon. EXAMS! Exactly 30 days to my exams. I love countdown for xmas, chinese new year but not this. It will only generate more stress. I remember my sch teachers always said this to us, " Exams are just to test your knowledge for the subjects, as long as you do your work consistently and listen attentively in class, passing the exams shouldnt be a problem. " Ya, I totally agree with the teachers. And the problem is... I din do my work consistently neither did I listen attentively in class. I realise I have become lazier,less hardworking and less motivated. Doing the same routine things for the past 3 years has become numb to me, and I am always looking for shortcut to get things done asap. "ORD" in july next year. God bless me for the last final lap.

Busy-->contact less-->lost contact-->gone??
I have been missing my dear frens thro I manage to meet up with Gazebooers last fri.
Met up with ah mei and Tiff on ah mei's bdae and that was last month.
Reading up on blog is the best way to know how my frens are doing.
And dear Kulish, if you are reading this pls meet up soon. 3 weeks no ice cream session has become a tortured to me. Simple love all the craps session, laughing like hell as if we own the whole damn cafe.

A funny forwarded email to share with u guys.
Have a good laugh and blessed day ahead. =)

A Singaporean was on holiday in Malaysia..
He was having his coffee, croissants, bread, butter & jam at the hotel's coffee house.
A Malaysian man who was chewing gum, sat down next to him & started a casual conversation.

Malaysian : "You Singaporeans eat the whole bread?"
Singaporean : "Of course."
Malaysian : "We don't. In Malaysia , we only eat what's inside. The crusts we collect in a container, recycle it, transform them into croissants & sell them across to Singapore."

The Malaysian then had a smirk on his face while the Singaporean listened in silence.
Malaysian : "Do you eat the jam with the bread?"
Singaporean : "Of course."
Malaysian (chuckling): "We don't. In Malaysia, we eat fresh fruit for breakfast, then we put all the peels, seeds & other left-overs in a container, recycle them, transform them into jam,..... before we sell it across to Singapore."

This time, the Singaporean retorted : "Do you have sex in Malaysia?"
Malaysian : "Why, of course we do"
Singaporean : "Do you wear protection"
Malaysian : "Of course! We wear condoms."
Singaporean : "And what do you do with the condoms once you've used them?"
Malaysian : "Stupid question ! Of course we throw them away."
Singaporean : "We don't. In Singapore, the government secretly puts them
ina container, recycle them, melt them down into chewing gum & sell them across to Malaysia,... & that's the real reason why we banned chewing
gum in Singapore."

<< Arghhh>>

2006-09-14T12:26:00.000-07:00

I started my day with a not-so-good mood. I am having bad stomach cramp since yest. I intend to stay at home to rest. I should have! And what can be worse that this is receiving an email from my fyp prof asking me to do a short presentation of my current fyp status. Arghhhh. I HATE PRESENTATION!! Its my weakest point. Can u believe it, I am shivering in cold right now. I cant imagine how the presentation would be on the 25th of sep...A presentation to my two fyp prof. OH SHIT!! I JUST HATE IT!! I think its a taboo to say I am coping well with my studies so far in my last entry. And guess what happen after I said that. Project coming, quiz coming, extra homework suddenly and worse presentation to do! They just popped out from nowhere. "Surprise" !!! Arghhhh... Bad day.

<< Just an entry >>

2006-09-10T11:57:00.000-07:00

Getting fed up with my sun tuition kid.
She keeps postponing the tuition and it was last min somemore.
Sun tuition is 10-12pm and she always inform me this morning at 8plus.
Make me wake up so early just to rcv her postponement of tuition news.
Instead of getting pay every month now I am getting pay every two months!
Going to eat grass and drink plain water soon!

I was surprised to see ah mei on last friday when she came to visit Yaya.
Have not been seeing this gal for so long.
She is still the same when I last saw her except that she cut her fringe.
This poor gal gonna be separated from her bf for one year starting 23th of sep.
And I was fast to told her that I wont be free to keep her accompained for that period.
How mean I was! Haha.
Bad news: Yaya's mum said I slim down again. Not again...=(

Time past fast and it is 5th week already.
Actually nothing much to complain for my studies.
I am still coping well with it though relationship does take up a portion of my time.
As for my fyp, I have not done anything yet whereas my frens have started working in the lab.
I am still trying to adapt to my fyp prof french accent.
I can only catch 20% of what he is saying.

I am actually quite keen to visit the cleanroom which the lab I will be working it.
I cant wait to get my hands on those silicon wafer.
Guess what, I have finally found sth I like in the engineering course in my last year.
I took 3 years to discover what I really!
I was fascinated how silicon chips(related to computer?)are made.
[Maybe what Moo said may be true. My computer idiot book will be out in 2010. Haa]
The process is something similar to baking a super small scale multi-layer cake.
I am sick of reading the theory part. Theory without practice is useless!

Anyone has visit the newly opened New York cafe in citylink yet?
Let me know if the food taste nice if you hv visited it. Thanks.

<< buzz like a bee>>

2006-08-16T20:41:00.000-07:00

Something irritating happened today.
I went to bishan kopitiam to hv my dinner.
A china guy from the drink stall walked up my table and asked what drink I want.
Me: I want ice lemon tea but without ice.
Their ice lemon tea is those home made type not canned drink.
Guy: How to drink ice lemon tea without ice? It wont taste nice.
Me: But I want it without the ice!
Guy: But how to drink without the ice? We dun hv 'ice lemon tea without ice'.
Me: Just dun put ice la.
Guy: Doesnt it taste weird without the ice?
Me: I am the one drinking not U! Just give me that!
We continue to argue over the ice thingy which is just a very simple request.
In the end he still gave me ice lemon tea with ice.
Feel so irritated that I feel like hammer him.
Either he dun understand simple english or his country dun hv such a 'weird' culture!

Its the 2nd week of school and I am already busy like hell.
Rushing here and there, buzzing like a bee.
There is a population boom in ntu.
All of a sudden the school seems so crowded everywhere I go.
And the queue in the canteen, printing shop even toilet is always super long.
Hate it!!

I am taking 7 module this semester plus fyp.
On average I study 4hrs per day in school which sounds quite relax!
But not true. Too many break in between.
Ntu not enough benches or desktop for me to use.
I wonder where does the increased in school fee goes to.
Lecture starts at 1030am everyday.
No more 830 class. This is the best timetable I ever had!

Something funny happened on the first day of school.
I attended the first lecture of my core module.
It was a very dry and boring module.
The lecturer was reading words from the lec notes and he misread a term 'g-line' as g-string.
The whole lecture theatre with 800 students burst into laughter which lasted for 5 mins.
The lecturer quickly explained that it was a slip of the tongue but the laughter wouldnt stop.
That was so embarrassing!
He was then mistaken as some horny, lecherous guy. Poor thing..
What will you do if you were the lecturer?

Had a small chat with Tiff.
She gave me 3 missed call. Sorry!
A very lame guy told me this.
"Hey I just give u a missed call."
"You looking for me? Yes?"
"Nothing. I miss you so I give u a missed call."
This is so lame!! :S
Anyway, hope u hv a fun time with ur darlings at thailand.
Take more pix and dun forget the mission k. Hee.

Looking forward for the weekend to come.
I wana jog and play squash.
I wana hv a nice cafe session with cakes and iced cool drink.
I wana visit the newly open New York cafe at citylink.
I wana watch the movie 'Haunting'.
I wana shop. My wardrobe needs some new clothes.
I wana meet up with my gazebooers and my colleagues.
Waiting for friday to come!!

<< Updating >>

2006-08-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

Backed from Penang on sunday evening.
And mon is the first day of school which ends at 8.30pm. SIANZ!!
Penang is not a fun place for those adventurous people.
But its definitely a paradise for good food.
The food was so nice that I ate exactly the same food for two consecutive nights.
The portion was big and the ingredient given was very generously.
Thats why customers are coming back for more.
I tried the chendol there which they claimed was very famous.
But it tasted normal to me except that the red beans were damn big and fat.
The char kuay tiao and laska are totally different taste from here. Must try!

I stayed in Copthrone Orchid Hotel.
It is a 4 star hotel but the service and facilities are only 2 stars!
My room was not make up throughout my entire stay there despite calling the houskeeping alot of times.
No hair dryer in the room which is still acceptable for me.
All the lift not working while going for my breakfast buffet.
Waited for 10 mins for it. *Frustrated.
So I went back to my hotel room and called up the reception to complain.
And the lastly the most amusing thing was breakfast buffet starts at 6.30am and the crowd was slowly coming in but the restaurant staffs report work at 7.30am!
What a DIY buffet I had! Had to fry the egg and clear the plates ourselves. *Horrible hotel!

My mum told me about the $540 medisave for stylepalace the moment I came back from my trip. No time to go find out more.
Yest Tiff called me up regarding the same thing.
It seems serious. $540 of our profit is gonna fly away. ='(
I couldnt find the stupid letter where my dad put it.
Stylepalace is in such a mess and my mum is helping me to clear the up the shit all this while.
Thank you Mummy!!
She is doing all the work but the money is going into my pocket.
She deserves more credit than me!

I am damn broke after the trip.
And I am badly affected by my tuition centre shifting to a new location.
I lost a class becoz of this = amount of income lost.
I lost a few students too in my remaining class = no more incentives.
All this adds up to less pay. *Arghh.
And after PSLE in Oct, my two Pri 6 class wont be coming for tuition anymore.
So I will be left with one class which is only hundred bucks a month. fuck.
Gotta find more tution assignment!

Tmr I am meeting Tiff to buy hp.
I has been so excited about it but not now anymore.
May need to hold back the plan of changing hp.
I just pray that national day brings some luck to me.
Let my targetted phone be on the promotion list pls..

<< Updating >>

2006-08-07T18:00:00.000-07:00

<< Ok ok Here I come >>

2006-08-02T14:20:00.000-07:00

I was waken up by my bro alarm clock at 6am.
Sickening. I hate to be disturbed when I am sleeping.
I cant get back to sleep after that.
Wanted to go for a jog but was lazy to get out of my bed.
Why cant I be more disciplined and determined?
I want to be healthy yet I am so lazy!

I went to look at my blog and saw Tiff tagging my board.
And here I am doing some updating.
I prefer to read people blog rather than writing it.
Cos I am lousy at expressing my thoughts.
I think I write better in Mandarin than in ang mo.
My ang mo sucks!

Nothing much to update anyway.
Update my love life??
I am waiting for 3rd Aug to come which is tomorrow!
My dad asked why I am always going for holiday in a nagging way.
I kept quiet and continue to eat my food.
My dad continues to nag saying tt I am spending too much money, and it is not safe to travel blah blah.
I continue to eat my food until the nagging cease.
Dun understand why parents always nag at their children even when they hv done nth wrong. Haiz.
Is there any research on why older people tend to nag more?

Suddenly I wish that I am back to school.
At least I hv an excuse for not doing the house work.
I am not trying to be irresponsible.
Just feel that my mum is so unfair to me.
No matter how hardworking I am, I will nv reach my mum cleanliness standard.
Reaching 100% is already very difficult but hers is 101%!
She is more energetic than me cos she has so much energy to nag and scream at me after a hard day work. Haiz.
I know I shldnt be complaining cos I will miss their nagging one day when they are not around.

To dear Tiff:
Thank you for your strong encouragement.
You are right. What matter most is how me and him think and not what others think. =D
You are not the ugliest pig I had ever seen on earth.
You really look pretty with your new hairstyle in the photos.
Instead of fagging about ur weight, do something abt it.
If you need someone to exercise with you in any form, I will be the one to volunteer.
I know I am getting older, and I hate to nag this at you again and again so
please quitting smoking first.

<< A Penny for a thought >>

2006-07-24T16:34:00.000-07:00

My 3 months school holiday is coming to an end soon.
I am left with 13 more days to enjoy before hitting the books again.
Seriously, I feel kinda sad cos good times always fly by without realising it.
And I hv been receiving ntu email that the lecture notes are ready for printing.
Suddenly I hv this phobia of going back to sch.
A lot of projects and presentation are waiting for me. And FYP!
I hv nv done an individual project before and this time its not only indivdual, its a big project too.
I hope I am capable enough to handle all this!

Went to buy Penang coach ticket last night.
And I just rcv a hotel confirmation call from the travel agent.
Everything is settled! Penang here I come!
Leaving on 3rd of aug and coming back on the 6th of Aug.
I am going to try the famous Penang laksa, beef noodle soup, mee goreng and chendol!!
Msia is having mega sales now but I am not quite interested in it.
I seldom shop for clothes in msia.
I only shop for food.
My motto: Live to eat not eat to live.

I hate it whenever frens and relatives told me " You lost weight again ar? "
I went for home tuition last sun and my kid's mother told me that.
I met up with my colleagues last wed for supper and they said the same thing too.
I know Tiff would love to hear this phrase.
I went to weigh myself and my weight is still the same leh.
I tried so hard to put on weight just one kg and it seems like an impossible task.
I can almost visualise Tiff shooting her fierce look at me when she read this.
I guess things always work the opposite way.
The more u want to slim down, the more weight u put on.
The more u want to put on weight, the more u slim down.
I shall slim down from now on!

My sentosa trip with fireworks and beer under the starry night has come true.
Me and Tiff hv been saying this about a month ago.
I hv been super excited about it since yest when I rcv the message from Tiff.
Wendy, CK and Reece are joining us.
Tiff always has a group of fun loving frens!
I missed Nath! Haha. Shhhh..dun tell her hor.
I always heard Tiff mention abt Reece but I hv totally no idea who is him.
Tiff, rem to intro this good fren of urs to me k.
I guess it would be a very fun trip and I am really looking forward to it.

<< Time to blog >>

2006-07-19T13:30:00.000-07:00

Has been MIA for more than one week.
I hv been busy surfing the net for hp and visiting singtel shop.
I hv saw quite a few hp that I like but the price wise..ahem..
Waiting for National Day to come. Maybe they will hv some great promotion.

I hv finally rcv the Redang photo after a long long wait.
This is only part of it lor.
Just some scenery view. Here it is!!
First time loading photo here eh got abit of prob. Opps.

The sea has 3 shades of blue. Can u see it?

Laguna Resort. This resort is more happening at night and service I must say is good. Buffet served is not bad too.

Got this photo from my fren. I cant wake up to see the beautiful sunrise. What a waste! Watched England match the night before.
Eh.. itiz the same ship that pass by the rock?? Or itiz sunset?..

Goodbye to beautiful sea, Nemo and all the fishes!! I will miss this place.

Celebrated Gazeboo july babies 22nd bdae on last friday.
Last min shopping for presents.
Thank god we still managed to get what u gals want.
Its not the present that counts, its the thought that counts. ^_^

Tmr is my fyp selection dateline.
And I am still dilli dalli.
I hate hassle. Why cant ntu just choose for us?
I din go sch to meet any prof and neither did I do any research on the proj I am interested in.
I just cant be bothered with it.
It doesnt matter which proj I choose becoz I hv simply no interest in it right from the beginning.
I just want to get over it and done.
Anyway I am choosing electronics related proj-Nano fabrication.
Last year. Final lap to go.

I finally went to change my hairstyle.
Goodbye to maggie mee or curly fries.
I spent 5.5hrs in the saloon and I wasnt very satisfied with the outcome. =(
It was not funky enough and it looked funny. Or itiz my xin li zhuo yong?
I spent a total of $140 for the perm and highlight.
The highlight was not very ideal as compared to the last time.

Tiff, when are we going to sentosa for fireworks?
I am getting impatiently le.
Hoe about next week before I leave for Penang on the 3rd of Aug.

<< Blogging..>>

2006-07-08T21:35:00.000-07:00

Met up with Tiff last nite.
She must be missing me so much that she teared! Haa.
Initially wanted to ask her go jogging in the evening but din confirm with her.
I was at Raffles shopping centre and was abt to go home when I called her.
She was at Paradiz centre which was quite near to where I was.
After asking for direction, we finally meet up each other at suntec.

I couldnt recognised her for a moment.
Cause she is in sneakers, jeans and tee.
Used to seeing her in heels and dressing maturely.
We went to Marina Square for a walk.
Quite like the place there after renovation cause there isnt so much crowd.
I din prepared to shop for any clothes but somehow we tried alot of clothes.
Just trying for fun anyway.

After shopping for a while, we started to look for place to sit down.
I knew she will suggest that place.
I was reluctant initially. I duno why I dun like the idea of going there.
But in the end we still went. And I hv promised Tiff not to anyhow think again!
Enjoyed chatting with Tiff on a windy night with almost perfect atmosphere.

I din waste a single day of my holiday.
Its is the most fulfilling holiday so far despite the fact that I din look for any part time job.
The month of july is always the busiest month.
There are so many july babies in this month.
Shopping for presents and planning for bdae celebration cum gathering.
Attention to the July babies!! Pls send me ur bdae wishlist by next week.
I am still eagerly waiting for the date at sentosa with fireworks to come.
Tiff, get well real soon. Will wait for u to come back from msia.
And after that will be my turn to go msia.
I am planning to pay my relatives a visit at KL, then make a trip down to Penang for some real good food.
And hoping can go to Genting Casino before the sch term starts.

Still looking for a handphone to change.
Dear Nokia or Samsung users, any nice phone to recommend?
Cant wait to change it asap.

Btw, dear Moo hv u finish reading Divine Evil?
I wana know the story and the ending!!

<< Super hot >>

2006-07-05T15:15:00.000-07:00

For god sake, can the sky please rain?
The weather is damn bloodly hot and humid.
I am perspiring like hell. Lost count of the number of times I hv bathed.
And I am right here rotting in my house.
I AM BORED TO DEATH!!
I have done all the household chores upon reaching spore.
I am trying hard to drown all the unhappiness i bought back from the trip.

I am planning for my next short trip again.
Maybe going to msia again.
But this time will have a bit of problem cos my tuition has started.
I am not rich. But I am spending every single cents in my back account just to escape from something.
I thought that the Redang trip will be much better than the thailand trip.
But it turned out to be worst.
The $250 is not wasted.
Its the 10 yrs of frenship that is wasted.

I really treasure the 3months of holiday I have.
Counting down the days, crossing out the date on my calendar...
Cos I know my last year in ntu is gonna be a tough ride.
Alrite I am going to give my best shoot for my final year.
My last roller coaster ride in ntu. I have fasten my seat belt and ready to chiong!!

I hv decided not to find a temp job.
I hv calculated. My current tuition job is enough for me to survive for the rest of the 32 days.
Assumption: No shopping for clothes.
I hv not been hanging out in cafes for quite some time.
Missed the chill out session at cafe. Cakes and ice cream are enough to make me go crazy.
Did my glutton look appear in ur mind now? Hee.

I am so happy that I am finally starting my first game of squash this wkend.
I hv bought the racket and the ball.
Cant wait to get started and whack the ball!!

Another happy news to share with u gals.
I hv finally waited for the right time to change my hp.
I CAN CHANGE MY HANDPHONE LE!!!
I went to call up singtel and check my 2 yr plan expiry date.
To my surprise, its on Oct this year which is over the 21mths already.
I can type and send chinese in the future.
Haha. I am over the moon.

<< Back >>

2006-07-03T20:39:00.000-07:00

My 3D2N beach holiday at Redang Island has ended.
10 hours of bus journey + 2hrs of ferry to the Island.
The route was meandering that it was so difficult to fall asleep on the bus.
I hate the ferry trip. The engine was very noisy and nearly puke on the ferry.
But everything is worthwhile when you see the beach. The sea water has three shades of blue. ^_^

I looked tanned but no luckily sunburn. =(
I expect the sun to be sorching hot and I even bought a sunblock with SPF70.
Day one I applied 2 layers of sunblock but the subsquent days I dun feel like applying anymore.

The snorkeling trip was fulfilling. A total of 3 places to visit.
Marine Park is the best of all. More things to see and the sea water was clearer.
But too bad I cant take photos to let u guys see.
I could have see more things under the deep blue sea if not for my breathing problem.
I always forgot to breathe with my mouth.
I ended up inhaling alot of sea water and got disrupted alot of times during snorkeling.

I din expect a non-swimmer like me to have a chance to be in the middle of the big sea.
I hestitated for quite some time before jumping down from the speedboat even tho I have a life jacket with me.
And my poor fren Yufeng has to keep telling me 'Just let go of your hand. U will be fine cos u hv a life jacket with you. DUN WORRY!!'
But still I was worrying like hell and I nearly pull off my fren's bf pants.

Visited the More More Tea Inn featured in the 'xia ri mo mo cha' movie acted by Sammi.
But I think they have relocated it to other side of the beach and its no longer a Inn.
The 2 storey Inn sells souvenirs now.
I din buy any souvenirs back becos nothing caught my eyes.
The best souvenirs are the memories of the marine life I saw under the clear blue sea.
I have touched jelly fish, sea cucumber, blue coral.
And I saw Nemo(so cute!!) and sorts of colourful fishes!!
But I din managed to see Gaint Groupa, sea turtle and baby shark.

Will try to upload some photos cos picture speak a thousand words.
My dad din realise I am back. Feel so invisible.
All he care abt is his camera. He gave a total of 5 missed call just to ask me to take gd care of his precious cam instead of asking me to take good care of myself.

I am still left with 34days of holiday.
School reopens on 7th of aug.
Should I go find a job or slack around?
I suddenly miss jogging. Tiff, Moo if you are free to jog, pls let me know k.

<< I am Back >>

2006-06-28T22:08:00.000-07:00

I was back from my 4D3N bangkok trip yest night.
The flight was delayed for an hour. * mutter
Poor Mum and Dad hv to wait for me for so long.
I bought packs of Tiger at the airport for my Dad and he was appeased. Haa.

This is my second time to bangkok.
The first time I went was purely shopping, shopping and more shopping.
This time round I went for some sight seeing and some new shopping places.
I din shop much for myself even tho the things there are very cheap cos I duno what to buy also.
I was busy shopping for souvenirs for frens.
Grand Palace is a must-visit places of interest.
The magnificent view would have sweep you off your feet.
I went for authentic thai foot massage too. Hv been longing to try foot massage.
I expect it to be very painful but it was not at all.
Its only when you feel the pain then you will feel that your money is well spent.

Guess what I saw Tiki at Sumo Restaurant.
When I walked past that restaurant, I was searching hard for the gal who dress in the smart black uniform.
I comb the whole restaurant but din see her at all.
I even look out for gals who tied up their hair.
But when I walked past the restaurant again near closing time, I saw her at the counter!!
Her uniform has changed to a red tee shirt.
But she is still the same the first time I saw her.
I think I got blushed. Haa. But I din went up to say hi to her.
I guess she must hv forgotten abt the stranger who so eager to take photo with her and even gave her a rose.
Anyway I am happy to see her again and I hv learnt a new term 'Andro' from Tiff.

So tired. I slept for less than 5 hrs for the 3 days.
I hope the photos doesnt show my dark circles and eye bag.
Its impt to bring a concealer and herbal tea when travelling!
Gotta get some sleep before setting off for another trip.
Dear Tiff, dun forget abt our sentosa trip k. Miss ya.

<< Excited >>

2006-06-20T21:43:00.000-07:00

My computer has discharged from the hospital. Sayang~
I promise I will take xtra good care of my com from now on.
And the most important thing to hv backup for my impt files!

Starting to countdown..3 more DAYS to bangkok.
OMG. I am super excited!!! The mention of Tiki makes me even more excited! I cant wait to see her.
I cant believe the 5 of us are finally flying together.
I can almost envision us having the fun of our life over there wherever we go and saying cheeze til our jaw ache.
We planned this trip since last year xmas. We finally make an effort to make it come true.
Fruit plate or plate of fruits? Anybody wana bet?? Winner will either bring the plate home or eat finish the fruits at one go. Haha.
But one thing that I dun like abt bangkok is their polluted air plus super hot weather.
The air is so polluted that ur white top will hv dust and dirt on it when you are back from outdoor shopping.
Other than that, everything is perfect to me.

Away to bangkok from 24/6 to 27/6.
Away to Redang from 29/6 to 3/7.
Shiok~ It feels like I am transiting in Spore from 27th to 29th before setting off to another country.
But the period I am away clash with my subj reg date and FYP(final year proj) selection date.
I hv found someone who volunteer to help me reg subj but I dont feel secure about it.
What if the reg is not successful how is she going to contact me?
I am so stressed about my timetable planning for next sem. [The Final Lap]
All these hv to settle by this fri. Rushing to get it done now..

I want to change my hp badly.
The 2 years contract seems like 20years.
There is sth wrong with my hp.
Besides, Samsung is not user friendly.
Sometimes I can get irritated when msging to the point of slamming my hp on the floor.
Nokia is still the best at least its user friendly. Thats the first in my priority list.
But I dun mind using other brands or using back Samsung as long as I can change my hp.
The technology of hp has become so advanced and I am still using an antique phone.
I am so far behind time. A com idiot like me will nv catch up with technology.
I will get it change when I am back from my trip.
And oso my hair. Its time to change to change a new hairstyle.

And oh ya, itiz true that renewing library books cost 50cents??
Since when such law is implement? Am I behind time again? Opps.

<< Bad Day >>

2006-06-15T15:22:00.000-07:00

I cant believe this. My computer is spoilt AGAIN. What the..
This is the 4th time I think. And yes, all my files and photos will be gone. *Mad
I am so embarrased to send my computer for Moo's dad to repair.
Did i break your dad record for being the most regular customer of the year?
Dear Computer, I wish you can talk and tell me where you are not feeling well before you get so seriously ill and fall into a deep coma.

I just finish my Accounting paper. Omg it really sucks!
Lesson learnt: Never take business mod during the intersem cos you will never hv the mood to study for it.
Anyway I am not left with much intersem period. Guess this is the last one.
Next year during this time, I will be going for my graduating trip. No more taking of intersem.
Time really flies. I am already in my fourth year.
I still rem the time when I am still a freshie and all the freshmen orientation and camp. Yucks I hate camp cos I dun like to get dirty.And I always get lost in ntu. I still do ocassionally.
Though I do not have a very active life in campus, I am glad I still managed to make some worthy frens in ntu.
I am eager to know what my future will be like in 5 years time.

I had a really bad day yesterday.
It was not a fight, not an argument or a scolding. It was an emotional struggle.
After all these years I thought I hv become more matured and my relationship with him has changed for the better.
Unfortunately it didnt. Or maybe it never will.
I thought I am rebellious enough to fight back but I just turn soft and let emotions take over me.
Over the 22 years of my life, I have been building walls and barriers against him instead of bridges.
Am I the one at fault? I find ways to connect with him but end up building more walls.
Bad and unpleasant memories flooded my mind the whole night.
The harder I try to forget it or erase it, the more it resurface.
I need a getaway badly. Escape to a quiet and peaceful place alone to sort out my thoughts.
Sometimes I feel that its good to hv a religion. Cos some things only god can help. I hope God hear my prayers.

<< 06.06.06 >>

2006-06-06T20:19:00.000-07:00

The nickname Sotong really suit me.
I remindered myself to bring jacket to sch by placing it in a prominent place but yet I can still forget to take. And it rained heavily today.
Serve me right for that.

My exam results are out since yesterday evening!!
I hv cleared all my subjects and promoted to Year 4.
And its the 'best grades' that I ever have in my ntu life.
I got BB+BBCBB-B+.
I was speechless when I saw my grades.
Not becos I did well for it.
It is becos the sch moderate the marks too much! (Got notice the word 'best grades').
Getting a B for a subj means that you know the subject quite well but my grades do not tally with the knowledge I hv for the subjects.
Anyway I hv made it thro and why am I still complaining here?

I have enough of movies! I surrender.
Poisedon.
Da Vinci.
X-men 3.
The Omen.
I am not a movie freak and I really dun like to watch movie.
But I duno why I keep watching movie now until I am so sick of it.
I will not step into the cinema for the next 3 months.

<< Travelling tips >>

2006-06-02T19:34:00.000-07:00

Met up with Mr Lum, my jc economics teacher.
We chatted from 12 to 6pm and I always feel inspired after hearing him talked.
I have never thought that we will be that close.
I used to hate him during junior college becoz I dun like economics.
I can still rem how he suan me during lesson and I was given the title 'public enemy' by him!

We had lunch, coffee, cakes at this place Sha Villa.
It is a 3 star hotel which hire students from shatec.
There is a restaurant named Rosette which provides really excellent service which is comparable to a 5 stars hotel. The food is nice too.
And surprisingly the food is not that expensive as I thought it would be given their excellent service.
Highly recommended it to u guys! It is at 64 Lloyd Road.

I always wonder how money changer make money by exchanging currency notes.
He is the best person to ask and really learn alot of things from him.
And this topic leads to overseas travelling.

Here are some of the useful tips given him:
1. Never use your credit card when travelling. It is not safe and you will be charged higher when converted back to singapore currency.
2. Record the reference number of your credit card somewhere in case you lose your wallet. Take note of the last three number too at the back of your credit card where your signature is.
3. If you are carrying alot of currency notes with you, put it into a zip lock plastic bag and slip in under ur feet. A robber will never expect you to hide your money there. (omg he really did that!)
4. Never rush during the rush hour.
5. Never open your mouth to speak in a different language country esp in crowded place.
6. Money changer recommend: Go to OG chinatown, walk thro the OG and you will see a hawker centre. Turn left and you will see a money changer at a corner. Thats the one.
7. Avoid going to the money exchanger on friday afternoon. The exchange rate is lower.

<< sick >>

2006-05-30T23:41:00.000-07:00

I hate this! I am down with flu. Arghhh!
Mugging in the middle of night with this stupid flu disrupting my study mood.
Kulish, the smell of the dry rose is making me sneeze like hell.
I am feeling so demoralise now becos of my accounting test tmr.
Accounting is real difficult! OMG.
Moo, now i understand how u feel after ur accounting paper.
I am feeling so drowsy after the medi. I wana go to dreamland..

Meeting up my dear Tiff next tue. Book u le!
I wana try the strawberry shortcake that Tiff always crave for.
I wana know what attract my dear gal to be so crazy abt it.

Last section of the notes to go. Jia you jia you.

<< Great Spore Sales>>

2006-05-28T19:54:00.000-07:00

I rarely have the chance to use my com now let alone blogging.
My bro is hogging the com for more than ten hrs practically everyday.
He is hooked to warcraft and frozen throne.
He is like being possessed when I see him played.

Anyway I am still the same as before, doing the same things everyday.
I finally went for jogging this mrn. Yuppie.
But was caught in the rain on my way home.
I was surprised that Tiff wants to jog but her timing is too early.
She once told me that jogging is boring.
I hope she mean it and jog for life not temporary.

I wish I am at Genting Casino hitting the jackpot now!!
I wana strike Triple X.
Thanks Tiff for introducing me to X-men and since then I hv fallen in love with it deeply.
I promise I wun leave her out for genting casino in the future.
I am not an addictive gambling queen.
And I dun think it is a waste of money going to Casino.
Cause every cents I spent I get happiness in return.
As long as I am happy, the rest doesnt matter.
Life is short, pls do enjoy to the fullest.

I am glad that I am going back sch twice a day during the holiday.
Otherwise I will be damn bored at home and end up spending more.
I need to be more wise in spending my money now becos of my Thailand and Rendang trip.
I am so excited to visit Bangkok again.
I can go find Tiki, the gal whom I gave a white rose to the last time I went.
I hope she is still working in the Sumo Restaurant and hopefully still rem me.

Great Spore Sales is here!
Went to orchard on Sat with my dear gazebooers.
The crowd nearly drowned me.
Whichever corner I turned to, it is packed with shoppers.
So much jostling and stepping on each other shoes.
I hate crowded place. Cant even find a proper place to eat.
I din really shop much becos of the crowd but I managed to buy a watch.
It is the 3rd black watch I owned. *Happy.
But I am thinking of changing it to other colour cos the the black is too boyish for me.
There are so many things I want to buy!!
I cant get enough of shopping!!
If anyone of u are free to shop on weekdays, let me know k.

I just got my May's pay for tuition.
Super pathetic. It is not even enough for me to hit the jackpot.
I SWEAR I am going to quit when a better tuition job comes along.

<< Ass >>

2006-05-20T22:27:00.000-07:00

I should be on the bus heading to Genting now.
My fren cant make it last min.
I was quite disappointed at first but I am glad that the trip is postponed.
Coz I overspent for the past few weeks.
Cant afford to go Casino to hit the jackpot now.
And I hv no income coming in for the next few months.
My holiday just started 2 weeks ago and I hv been spending like there is no tomorrow.
Horrible me!
I cant imagine travelling without concession after I hv graduated.
Concession really help to save alot on my transportation.
I better go and find some part time temp job.
But I too lazy to go for job interview and the interview does not guaranteed I get the job.
And I will end up wasting my time and money on transportation.
Anyone got job lobang??
Money is always not enough!!

<< NorMaL monday >>

2006-05-15T13:22:00.000-07:00

I am getting sick of everything in my life.
I want to leave this small island!!
But why it is always the wrong timing?
Its so hard to find the perfect timing where everyone can make it.
The best is to go alone. No hassle and no need to please everyone.

I am getting more and more insolated over the years.
I dun understand myself anymore.
I have stopping making close frens with anybody.
Duno wats fucking wrong with me.

Getting vexed over my future too.
I am left with one more year before I graduate.
I think I should really sit down and plan my future carefully.
But wat can I do after I graduate? Engineer?
Am I going to do the things that I dun like for the entire of my working life?
I frown when I think of that.

I chatted with a fren regarding this.
She is joining the teaching career.
I have nv thought of teaching as a career even thou I like teaching very much.
Not until she told me the luxurious pay.
Frankly speaking, I am tempted to join the teaching career after hearing it.
That will be my backup plan.

My accounting class in holi has started.
I feel so inferior inside the class.
All the students in the class are so well spoken and out spoken.
And I hate presentation. I hate public speaking.
I dun even have the courage to look at the audience.
My forever weakness.

I am going to Genting Casino AGAIN this sat.
To whack the X-men and this time I will bring more $$.

Waiting for Da Vinci Code and X-Men movie and many more.
I am going to watch all at one go when I come back.

<< Slacking around >>

2006-05-10T14:25:00.000-07:00

Hv not been well these few weeks.
My insomnia is coming back. *Shoo go away pls.
Arghhh. I hv got ugly puffy and dull eyes now.
I guess my biological system has got used sleeping very late during the exam period. And the weather is damn humid and hot these days.
My bed feels like oven. Dun feel like going anywhere too. The moment I step out of my house, I feel like I am melting away slowly.

Yesterday was damn high. Celebrate my supervisor Kulish bdae.
Turning 32 today. You will always be me and Angie respectable UNCLE!! Whaha. Opps. Will kena 'qiang bi' by your powderlyful gun.
Get to know another cafe thro Uncle. Hard Rock Cafe.
Nice place and gaint serving food. And balloons!! Will come back again.

My holiday ends at 7th of Aug. Thats super long. *Shiok.
Should I learn driving?? Even Yaya has gotten a car license.
And my dad wont be using his car on wkdays for 3 yrs!
I will get to drive his car once I hv gotten a car license.
But I will be super broke after that unless my parents...

I am getting sleepy now. Yawn~
Hate to rcv phone calls or someone pressing doorbell when I am sleeping!
The person who called is going to be cursed by me. Nitez!

<< First Day of Holiday >>

2006-05-07T16:18:00.000-07:00

This place has been collecting dust.
Cause my computer has been spoilt for 2 weeks.
And nobody bothers to get it repair.
Dear computer, pls dun fall sick again.
My life cant do without you.

My one month exams have FINALLY ended.
No comments for it except that I did badly for it.
Why all my frens wont believe that I REALLY did badly to the extend of failing?
Thanks for having so much confidence in me.
But its REAL this time.
Whether I can make it or not this time, one thing is sure.
I have totally lost interest in studying.
Still trying to search that hardworking gal which I used to be..
Think she has vanished into the thin air.

I have made a breakthrough.
I always dun like the idea of group study cause I feel that it is ineffective.
I even detest studying outside cause I cant concentrate in music background environment.
But I have overcome all these barriers!
I cant imagine I would ever study in fast food restaurant for more than 8 hrs.
Studying in 24hrs Mac til wee hrs the day before our exams.
All my pocket money is spent on cab fare!
For the first time, I felt so close to my ntu mates.

Jusr met up with my dear gazebooers on fri.
I really miss you gals!!
The last time we hang out itiz on my birthday?
Thats so looonnng ago. So we must hang out more during the holidays.

I hv not seen Tiff for long time too.
Wanted to ask her n zm out for coffee, and I forgotten she is in hongkong now.
Take more photos of HK scenery k!

<< Defeated >>

2006-04-20T23:10:00.000-07:00

My day sucks.
Totally defeated by two papers in a row.
My heart hurts when I think of it.
I was utterly disappointed with myself.
Nobody knows it better than I do.
And I know it myself.
It is a not a life threatening issue and there is no loss of lives here but I just cant helped feeling damn bloodly lousy and stressed up. fuck.
I hate the bitterness feeling!
Anybody out there, I need a shoulder!!

<< First Paper >>

2006-04-13T22:58:00.000-07:00

Exams start today.
First paper. Its my fave business module.
MB361: Operations & Quality Mgt in Manufacturing and Service Industry.
I know I will do well for this module.
Alot better than my engineering module.

After my graduation, I may consider a job in service industry.
I like serving people and meet different kind of customers.
Opening a cafe of my own has always been my dream since the age of 16.
I fall in love with cafe under the influence of sister.
She is the one who brought me to alot of cosy cafe to eat.
And we will always bring the cafe menu home to keep.
I am still doing it now. My collection of cafe menu!!
Reading a menu is like reading a storybook to me.
I take hours to read it and appreciate the interesting names they gave to their dishes.
Some cafe really have wonderful menu.

I can still rem after my O levels results I was hestitating whether to study hospitality at TP or go to JC.
After much hestitation, I choose JC.
I blame myself for not having the courage to pursue my dreams.
I am not fit to complain about my engineering course.
Cause I choose the path myself.
I know that my dreams are drifting further away.
But I am still holding on to it.
Cause I believe that one day my dreams are going to realise.

Have the urge to go jogging tmr.
But cant find a jogging mate after msging so many frens.
They are too busy to jog. :'(

<< Exam Period >>

2006-04-12T00:24:00.000-07:00

First paper on the 13th of April.
Last paper on the 5th of May.
Though only 6 papers, the exam period stretches til one month.
5 days of rest after each paper.
I prefer it this way rather than hv it on consecutive days.

Have not been putting in my 100% effort to study.
For the first time, I am hooked to the TV for more than 5hrs.
Have been watching repeated drama series, taiwan varieties show and SuperBand etc.
Omg, this is terrible. Dun hv the mood for exams.
I always have this terrible thought to defer my course one or two years of study.
And where will I be and what will I do for this 2 years?
Of course to realise my dreams.
If I am successful, I would quit sch.
A thought is just a thought.

Oh btw SuperBand show is rubbish!
I quite look forward to it but it turns out to be quite disappointing.
Why is there so many compeition nowadays?
The channel 8-yong bu yan bai is also quite horrible.
Just feel that those contestants hv been made fun of to boost the viewers' rate.

I went for dental checkup today.
My gum has been bleeding for the past one month.
The dentist said my gum is swollen tt lead to the bleeding.
The medicine for mouthwash tastes awfully yucky.

I have listed down all the activties I wana to do during the long holi.
Its a long list and more to go. Cant wait to do it now.

<< A Penny for a Thought >>

2006-03-31T22:31:00.000-08:00

Is the Earth spinning too fast?
Its the end of a month again.
Usually I will ask myself this qns, "What have I done in that month? "
Its the same old answer.
I study, study and still its study again.

After 15 years of books and studies, I finally getting sick of it.
I dun really like to study but neither do I hate studies.
Just getting upset by the stressful lifestyle.
But there is nothing we could do to change the stressful environment.
That's the reason why I want to travel. As far as possible.
Anywhere will do as long as I can get away temporarily from this small island before the reality hits me again.
Maybe will consider going for backpacking.

I read a medical article today.
Its about heart disease and heart attack.
It encourages people to go for regular body check up as heart attack can happen to people in the twenties too.
And these people appear to be healthy and do not have a family history of heart disease.
It suddenly strikes me that I have not been exercising for quite a long time.
My diet and lifestyle are very unhealthy too with all the late nights, supper and irregular meals.
I have been trying hard to change my lifestyle but its so hard to do it.
Its like mission impossible!
It needs shear amount of determination and discipline.
I seriously lack these two key elements. I will try harder.

Tmr I am going to Yaya's house to watch Shutter.
I have been wanting to watch this movie since very long time.
I simple love horror show. The chills that run down the spine and errie sound effect..Love it!
But after the show, I always ending up scaring myself with all my silly wild imagination.
I am having second thought now..

I duno why I get hungry very easily these days.
I ate 4 meals a day and the portion is like double!?
Yest dinner I had 2 plates of fried rice and half pack of maggie mee.
And my house is always stock up with chips and choc.
Nearly two-thirth of my pocket money is spent on food!

Today a canteen stall auntie asks whether my hair is fake or real.
Do my hair really look like a wig?
Then a guy fren of mine ask what happen to my hair when I go sleep.
Another fren ask how will my hair look like when is all wet?
I hv already lost count the number of people who ask me all those qns.

I thought my HK trip bubble has burst cos most prob I wont be going with Moo.
To my surprise, Tiff msg me today and ask me whether I wana go HK as she is leading group there.
I almost say YES!!! But hv to wait until next week then can confirm with her.
Since young, I have always wanted to go HK.
Heard that HK has nothing much to shop or play.
And the disneyland there is quite disappointing.
The people there are quite rude too.
I wont know how true it is until I am there.
Even if it is true, I wont change my mind going there.
Really pray hard that I can go.

<< Just another Day >>

2006-03-25T20:17:00.000-08:00

I wanted to go jogging this mrn but couldnt wake up.
I not lazy just feeling extremely tired.
I wish I could live in my dreamland forever.
The places in my dreamland, the people & strangers I met there and the things I do there are so interesting to the extend that it wont happen in real life.
I wonder why people dream..

I finally watch brokeback mountain.
Highly recommended by yaya.
But I almost fell asleep in the movie coz I know the whole story and the ending as well in details!
Haa. Anyway its quite a touching story.
Still trying to figure out what 'I swear' mean in the ending.
More nice movies coming in May.
Looking forward it.

I am thinking how to spend my long holiday-3 mths.
There are always alot of things I wanted to do but no time to do.
But when I have the time, I wont go and do it. Ironic right?
I wana travel but everything doesnt turn out the way I want. Sigh.
Its always the wrong timing. Then when is the right timing?

My taiwan & HK trip is gone with the wind le unless I get ge in SS2.
UNLIKELY!
The USA exchange program at San Diego confirmed CANT GO le.
It costs around SGD7000. Not worth to go.
By right this summer, me and Moo should be going to Yellow Stone for USA Work & Travel program. But my parents wont allow me to go.
Thinking back, I think Work&Travel in USA is more worth than the exchange program in terms of less money required.
Now left with Thailand with gazeboo.
We MUST GO ok. Dun wana to be disappointed again.

EXAMS COMING!! ARGHhhh.
I hate exams.
I hate it even most when I know I am not ready for it.

<< HAppy Birthday>>

2006-03-12T22:39:00.000-08:00

HaPPy 22nd BiRthdAy to myself!!
MAy all my wishes will COME TRUE!!

3 more years I will be 25 years old.
OH NO... :(
Thanks frens for all the bdae clelebration.
This year bdae kinda special and meaningful to me.
I dun wan any presents for my bdae.
Coz I have everything I want except for the non-material.
Birthday is a best time for gathering.
Becos of Tiff bdae, I get to meet up with A-mei whom I hv not seen long time ago.
Becos of my bdae, I get to meet up with my gazeboo dearies coz we hv not been meeting up every fri recently. Everyone of us is busy.
And not forgetting my group of 'pig, chicken, mud' frens for the surprise.
We used to hang out for ice cream every week but not now anymore due to my busy schedule.
And today I just had a wonderful dinner with my family.
I have not seen my dad for quite some time since he has working until very late.
And I miss my mum!! Thanks for helping me alot with my style business.
This birthday serves as a remainder to me not to neglect my parents. I hope its not too late.

Birthday is more than just cake and presents and getting one year older.
Its the best time for gathering.
Its the time to really cast aside your work and enjoy the precious moment of the company of good frens and family time.

<< Tired >>

2006-03-07T23:58:00.000-08:00

Class finishes at 8.50pm today.
Thanks Alex for giving me a ride to Braddell mrt station.
I am drained out. TIRED!!

Just realised that all my frens around me hv got their driving license.
I used to be very determined in getting a driving license but not now anymore.
The process in learning to drive and the time spent seems to be very tedious.
And you may not pass for the first time.
Heard many frightening stories abt driving.
Maybe I will learn it after I graduate ba.

One of my fren has completed the 15AUs of business ge.
She can file for minor le. So envious of her.
I am still left with 3 more to go.
I dun know whether I should take the risk of registering ge for the special session 2.
What if I cant any of the ge? and SS2 only has marketing, no accounting.
I dun wan to miss the taiwan trip.
I am very vexed now and the closing date for SS2 registration is this thur.
Moo, what should I do?? Help...

Stress = Pressure - Adaptability
Thats how stress is measured.
Taught by a fren who is taking 'Mind over stress' module.
This module seems fun. May consider taking it next sem.
My adaptability skills is very bad.
No wonder my stress level is higher than the rest of my ntu frens. :/

35 days to exams..I hate this...
Study just to pass exams?
Thats what every students does, isnt it?
Very often I question myself, do I study for the knowledge or to pass exam.
If you feel happy throughout the learning process, you are studying for sake of knowledge.
If you feel tortured throughout the learning process, you are studying just to pass exams.
Forget about it, just study for exams and get the degree.
Anyway that holy paper is the key to everything in life.
Without the holy paper, life in the future will be very hard.
Thats what all the aunties uncles in the fish market, my parents and teachers said.

<< Happy Day >>

2006-03-03T23:07:00.000-08:00

It was a happy day.
I had a great day shopping even though its only 2.5 hrs.
Shopping is a great way to relieve stress.
I almost over spent but dun care.
I shop as if I own a bank.
So many nice clothes caught my eyes.
I have fall in love with Mr Yellow.
The two clothes that I bought were yellow.
I like vibrant colour coz I have a dull life.
How good it would be if I own a PUMA shop.
They really have nice clothes and bags and shoes.
Simply love PUMA!!

I have finally taking a long break for my tuition centre until my exam is over.
I feel so guilty telling lies to my boss again and again.
Sorry I din meant it coz I desperately need the time.
Time is running out!

So many dateline to meet. (I think its more like deadline)
So many project to do.
So many tutorial to catch up.
So many report to write.
And its just one month away from my exam.
My stress level has reached the climax.
I feel so numb rushing and doing non stop to clear all this pile of shit.
Is there sth wrong with my time management?
Is sacrificing my beauty sleep the solution to it?
Seems to be the only solution...

I have a bad feeling I wun be able to make it this time round.
All my frens know how much I hated this engineering course and I swear a hundred of times that I will never be a engineer in the near future but I am still aiming for a 2nd upper Honours.
I not satisfied to graduate with a degree.
And hopefully I can complete my business minor in time.

Thanks Moo and Yaya for 'forcing' me to accept the early bdae present.
The more I see it the more I like it. Thanks gals!!
Moo, lets jia you k and our rewards will be the taiwan & HK trip.
I really look forward to it!!
And bankus, the thailand trip is still on. Dun be disappointed k.

My dear Tiff. I am not angry with you.
I am too occupied with my sch work than to be angry with such a trival matter.
Happy for u that its ur 3rd time gg to Taiwan. *so envious.
Taiwan becoming your 2nd home le. Haa.

<< I am back >>

2006-02-24T13:41:00.001-08:00

I am back.
Reached spore yest at 10.48pm.
I watched three action show on the bus.
We are so excited about the 2nd show. Its about cops and villian. Cant rem the show name.
Tiff kept repeating that the hk guy acted in the show is v yan dao.
But i still duno who is that guy. Not interested to know also.

I feel that the genting trip is too long. 3D2N
There are quite alot of entertainment there but i think we finish it in one day.
I spent my first day at casino in the early morning.
Tiff introduced me X-men. Triple X, triple X, triple X!
Its so addictive. Going crazy over X-men.
The music and the ring sound keep repeating in my head last nite.
The probability of winning is very very low. You win but lose more.

We went to see "Ripley's believe it or not".
Its a collection of all the amazing and incredible things and people.
The most memorable one would be the fertility statues. It is stated that by rubbing the statues one would get pregnant so there is a sign warning us not to anyhow touch unless the couple wan to get pregnant. There is even an evidence showing the number of women who got pregnant after touching it. This is ridiculous!
Almost wanted to experiment with it. Tiff can adopt my child if i really get pregnant.Haa!

I finally found a common food that me and da bing like.
Its honeycomb cookies.
Its so nice. I cant stop popping it. Rite? ;P

My one week break is coming to an end.
Its FRIDAY le!! So fast. =(
Gotta to finish up the pile of desserts.inverse work by hook or by crook.
**Hope that i can go to taiwan this coming May.

<< Sunny Day >>

2006-02-19T19:35:00.000-08:00

I missed out the wonderful time at Tiff's hse last night.
And its the second time already. All thks to my stupid lab report.
I haven finish with the lab report lor!
I am supposed to continue writing it but end up surfing the net.
Now I know why I cant finish it on time. "_"

TiFF, u reminded me my bdae is coming. And urs too.
Oh no!! I am so OLD!!!
Blowing 22 candles on my bdae cake is so depressing.
I am no longer a teenager nor a sec sch student.
No more silly crushes and dumb love game .
Actually I miss it! Maybe we shall play it again one day.
But I hv nobody to place it on the wishlist now.
Put those er xin guys for u gals to match. Haha.
Realli miss the time we had at Peicai and SRJC.
All we think about is just studies and PLAY.
Now is less play and more worries!!
Worry about practically everything from money to future to ageing.
I am glad that love relationship is not on my worry list.

Met up with Moo and bankus at hougang mall todae.
Bankus, realli x3 thanks for helping me out at the centre.
Treat u indian curry plus moo's freshly produced fresh milk when I am back.Haa.
We had a funny chat about our tuition students.
I din know that Mr Tan's "negative sign bomb" is so effective in teaching algebra.
We realli benefitted alot from this phrase. I hope my student too!

<< Blogging Time >>

2006-02-18T09:36:00.000-08:00

Supposed to have tuition now but my student postpone it to tmr.
Yeah. Actually I was hoping she will postpone it.
Dun wana go for tuition...Tired..Zzz..

I am seriously lacking of sleep. 8hrs of sleep doesnt seem enough for me.
I caught Tiff's " cant wake up on time" virus.
Its already the 4th time i woke up with the word "SHIT! i am late for lec n tut AGAIN! "
And the most serious thing is that I went to switch off my alarm clock when it rings and went back to sleep again. And when I woke up, I cant rem I ever did that. gosh.
I GONNA buy a super loud alarm clock that is enough to wake my whole family up.

TiFF is making me excited about the Genting trip.
I cant believe I am spending my one week holi in cAsino and theme park which I am supposed to catch up sch homework. Feeling guilty already. =(
My sch homework piles up and is accumulating. And the stupid lab report and design project.
Can the world stop spinning, please?

*sTreSSed*sTreSSed*sTressed.
Stressed is definitely not desserts.
GIVE ME A BREAK PLS!!

<< Fuck. again >>

2006-01-27T23:08:00.000-08:00

I duno what the hell I have been doing these days. I just know that I am sinking into depression mood again. ArghHH. I am not OK! Why am I going through all these shit again and again? I need to release all my emotion that is building up inside me!!! Every little thing is enough to make me lose control of my emotion. Everything is so gloomy out there. I just feel like staying in bed with my blanket and rot there. I dun wan to go school, I dun wan to go out and I just dun feel like doing anything now. I need a hug BADLY and maybe a shoulder too. I know I have been offending alot of people and my attitude really sucks but i simply DUN CARE. just LEAVE ME ALONE. fuck.

<< Sick Day >>

2006-01-26T09:23:00.000-08:00

Decided not to go sch today. Cant catch up with the lecture anyway.
I am super sick and weak after all the puking session yest.
The sch toilet auntie was so mean to chase me out after staying in the cubicle too long.
Damn it. Should have puke on her face instead of the toilet bowl!
I can still hear my stomach churning. It was terrible worse than dying.

I duno whether to give up my centre tuition or private tuition.
Have been feeling vexed about this issue. Arghhh.
After thinking for so many days I still cant make up my mind.
Indecisive! If it is for money wise, I should quit my centre tuition.
But I cant bear to leave my centre kids esp my sunday class.
I have been teaching them since yr 2004. They know my teaching style thou abit sarcastic and I know their strengths and weaknesses. We love each other.
I have seen the improvements they made throughout the 2 years.
Even thou they are very naughty and sometimes make me angry, they meant no harm. They are just a bunch of pure innocent kids, isnt it?
I hv dropped hints on leaving more than once. But when I saw the sad expression on their face, my heart just softened and I stayed on..
Blame it on my sentimental character.

High pay job and job satisfaction dosent coexist and never will. Hate it.

<< Sunshine after the Rain >>

2006-01-20T19:54:00.000-08:00

Sunshine after the rain.
I finally got over my depression period.
Last two weeks was horrible and super depressed.
I was almost on the verge on breaking down and cry.
My world feels like collapsing and I seem to lost my soul.
I have long forgotten what is the feeling of being happy.
And there is no reason for me to smile.
I am glad I am smiling now.
I really feel alot better than last week.

And what makes me more happy is receiving Angie msg from msia.
She is coming back next week and we gonna eat ice cream again. Yuppie.
I am gonna resume our ice cream eating gathering soon.
I miss u guys and I promise the next time you see me I will be recharged and of course happier. =)

Met up with Moo yesterday for lunch.
Bankus, hope to have lunch with you in ntu soon.
I was supposed to help her do her FYP survey but i couldnt wake up on time.
Moo, you are arousing my curosity! The more you dun let me know about the content of the survey, the more I wanted to know. Hump.

Chinese New Year is around the corner.
It is spring cleaning time! My mum constant nagging is driving me crazy.
Discard the old and welcome the new.
I think this is the only time where I can really sit down to rest.
and hopefully to catch up on my tutorials.
**Doesnt it sound pathetic to stay home to do tutorial on chinese new year?

<< Totally stressed out >>

2006-01-15T22:51:00.000-08:00

I was on my way to the bus stop when this indian lady in front of me was throwing pieces and pieces of the aluminium foil peeled from her maize corn bought from the pasar malam. Then she started to eat her maize and spit those inedible portion onto the floor. I was so digusted by her behaviour that i overtook her and turn around to get a view of that horrible litterbug. I cursed that one day she will be caught to do CWO!

Few days back I rcv a good news from TiFF that we can do consignment at one of the stall at bugis. I was so happy and brought the goods down but just few hours before meeting TiFF, i rcv a call from her that we are not doing consigment at bugis le due to some stupid management rules. Then the next day we try our luck at hougang point. We approached the stall owner and was rejected straight in the face. Fuck.

Had a chat with TiFF. We talked about our next strategy and it links to alot of topic. Heard TiFF talked about her interesting course Tourism in TP and how she enjoyed her 3 yrs there while I hv nothing to share with her. Listen to TiFF talked about her own problem. She was caught between whether to change job. I realised that in life we dont always have a choice and when you have to make a choice do make the right one cause there wont be turning back. I told TiFF I feel like quitting sch or defer my course to concentrate full time on the business. I feel guilty for not devoting enough time on it.

Went for tuition as usual. I love my sunday class. Its my favorite class. But I dun seem to enjoy teaching anymore. In the past I teach because of passion, now I do it for money. Money is so important in this materalistic world. Its money that make the world goes round.

Today they have endless of math questions to ask and one student asked me a creative thinking math question. I was glad that I know! I always tell my students not to give up and keep on trying. I was easier said than done. I cant even do it. I was feeling so frustrated now. So many things weighing on my mind.

<< Another Rainy Day >>

2006-01-10T17:50:00.000-08:00

Its another rainy day. My hands are so cold and the tap water is freezingly cold. I thought i will sleep until very late cos yesterday night i slept at 5am. Surprisingly i woke up at 10am without the alarm clock. With the alarm clock i have the tendency to overslept i realised. Strange. I was shocked when i looked into the mirror and saw my super dark circles. Its my mascara from last night!! Forgot to remove. Hee. My stomach has been feeling weird plus pain *ouch since last night after the mee goreng and green tea. It feel like those gastric pain that i even have problem lying down on my bed. I am not going to have late supper anymore. ("/)

Went MOS yesterday with Tiff, CK and Sandra. I almost wanted to change my mind last minute cos i was very tired and it was already so late. I heard that the queue was super long. The thought of queueing put me off. Luckily we are in the VIP queue. The place is very big and spacious, they have escalator to the 2nd floor. so cool. And the washroom its so nice and big. It looks like some studio makeup room cos there are seats for each mirror. The music is nice too but i was been pushed out of the dance floor cos it was TOO CROWDED! *Argh. They really know how to squeeze through the crowd. My white shoes has been stepped hundred of times! So we went back to the cosy enclosed room to dance instead. Its only us on the dance floor.Haa. But Tiff doesnt seem to be enjoying herself. We left at 3am after that and went to the prate shop at Yio Chu Kang road. Its so fun I wana to go there again!! ^_^

<< Rainy Day >>

2006-01-08T16:50:00.000-08:00

:: Rain rain go away. Come again another day. ::
The weather is so cold and the rain wont stop.
Dun ever leave home without your jacket and umbrella!
It has been raining the whole afternoon le.
Becos of the stupid rain, i din managed to dine in clarke quay. =(
I ended up in Marina Square swensen.
Nothing special about their baked rice and service is lousy too!
It will be my second and last time going to swensen. I swear.

Sch has started since last week.
Have been busy buying notes and printing tutorial.
Thur and Fri are my earliest day. =)
But lesson on mon and wed starts at 830am. =(
The roller coaster gonna start next week. Hold tight!
Moo, send me your timetable.

I am not writing any further cos TiFF is online.
Gotta send her photo and check vacancy for my GE module.
Anybody interested to go MOS? TiFF is going with her colleagues.

<< Happy New Year >>

2006-01-01T13:11:00.000-08:00

Hey ppl, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Wishing u guys a more fulfilled life in the year 2006 and stay happy throughout the 365 days.
Wanted to blog on the eve of new year but was still in 'concussion' .
I guess i drank too much on fri which is Wendy's 21st bdae. Bdae falls on the last day of the year, it must be a long long wait..
I intend to stay at home and sleep early on tt day but TiFF msg me in the noon to help her wrap up wendy's bdae present and deliver to her workplace!
I was abit unwilling to deliver to her but in the end i still went. Trying to be service-oriented..
TiFF said the super big yellow wrapper bag was very ugly but i still think its very nice.
Its my first time going to sushi tei at taka. The location is so wulu. Ya like wat TiFF had said the taxi queue real freak us out and the yellow wrapper really attract alot of attention.
Gal, can see tt u are excited about gg to m.o.s and really disappointed when it was cancelled due to the long queue. I ***promise i will go next time k.

We went to partyworld ktv instead. Its my first time there too.
Going to K is much more healthier than gg to chiong.
Gal, i din know u got such fun loving friends.
Even a introvert like me is mixing well with them.
It was a fun and enjoyable night. *_^

I am left with today and tmr to enjoy before sch starts.
I havent really sit down to seriously plan my timetable.
All my things are half done and i am out almost every day.
Next sem gonna be the most busiest sem tt i ever have.
And i hv taken up two new tuition assignment.
I want to live a hectic life maybe tts the only way i will be fulfilled with my life.

I duno wats wrong with me these few days.
I hv a very depressing look and i carry with it wherever i go.
Sorry to make those who care abt me worry so much.
I am really fine. Thanks Gerald.

<< JC Xmas Party >>

2005-12-24T11:41:00.000-08:00

I met up with my JC mates at Peizhi's hse. Its so nice to see them again. I think the last time i saw them was more than one year ago ba. Opps. They are still the same and most of them are attached. I dun understand why my frens around me are crazily getting attached. Itiz becos of our age? No more those silly crushes and puppy love. And the next thing is getting engaged and then married and life will be monotonous onwards. Once you reached a certain age, you will realise that these are the things that you need to do. I think i am getting " over twenties blue "... I hate to be over twenties cos time will pass very fast and the next thing u know is that you are 25 already then 30 then 40. ArghhHH I DUN WAN TO GROW UP SO FAST!!!

I read this from Tuesday with Morrie. Sth that strikes my mind. (Huiya, i am gg to finish soon. One more month k. Hee. FYI, i take more than one year to finish reading a storybk. Haa)

Werent you ever afraid to grow old, I asked?
"Mitch, I embrace aging. " Embrace it?
" Its very simple. As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed at twenty-two, you'd always be as ignorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, its growth."
Yes, I said, but if aging were so valuable, why do people always say, "Oh, if I were young again. " You never hear people say, " I wish I were sixty-five."
He smiled. "You know what that reflects? Unsatisfied lives. Unfulfilled lives. Lives that havent found meaning. Because if you've found meaning in your life, you dont want to go back. You want to go forward. You want to see more, do more. You cant wait until sixty-five."

My life is so unsatisfied, unfulfilled. In fact i HATE my life. My life is full of regrets. Can I start all over again from the time i learn how to walk and talk?...

<< WHy?? >>

2005-12-21T16:17:00.000-08:00

I am waiting for the hour hand to go to 5 then i can start to prepare to visit my colleagues at sunmicro. They insisted that i come back on the 21st which is today. Ya ya i am coming back...

These two weeks i am enjoying myself too much that i am feeling abit unwell. Ate too many junk food. Choc, ice cream, nachos watever i can find in the kitchen.. Having irregular meals that my gastric is hurting now. The most sinful of all is SUPPER & LATE NIGHTS! Omg.. That is not me! I used to hate supper cos its so unhealthy, and late nights becos i dun wan to turn into panda. Horrible ME! arghhhhh.

<< Freak >>

2005-12-15T02:21:00.000-08:00

Today is the 4th day since the commencement of my slack period. Its so great to wake up naturally without being interrupted by the alarm. *shiok. Most of my frens are extending their IA except for me. They must be quite happy working there.

I finally did what I wana to do>> Change a new hairstyle.
I duno whether this hairdo really suit me but somehow i just feel like a freak. You guys must tell me the truth! It is the most outrageous hairdo that i ever had.
This is not the hairstyle that i wanted initially. I wanted something more funky but my hairdresser insisted that i go for this hairdo. I spent 5 hrs at the saloon!! Well, it is not that bad as i think. It is just all about being bold and bringing out my own style. But i fail to do that. Moo almost escorted me from my hse yesterday when we go shopping. Until now i am still feeling abit uneasy with my new hairdo. I JUST FEEL LIKE A FREAK!!

<< Finally >>

2005-12-10T07:56:00.000-08:00

I cant believe that i finally left Sunmicro, the hell place which i always call it.
The day i hv been waiting for finally is here.
HEY PEOPLE, I HV GRADUATED FROM MY 22 WEEKS OF ATTACHMENT! Yuppee hooray.
By right the last day should be today 10th of dec but i left yesterday.
Yesterday i din feel sad or anything until the very last 15 mins which i go around to bid goodbye to them. I din realise that actually so many people cant bear to see me leave. And they all say the same thing, " huh..so fast 6 months already ar". This 6 months is so slow to me, waiting for a day to pass is already a torture let alone 6 months. But not now anymore! I can sleep as late as i want from now on until sch reopens. And SAT I DUN HV TO WAKE UP AND DRAG MYSELF TO WORK anymore. sat no work = more leisure + happy. Most importantly, i dun hv to do things which i am not interested it.

Here are my moments at Sunmicro..
Most memorable moment: Received a touching love letter on my second last day even tho the letter is written for fun only.
Most saddest moment: The last 15 mins on my last day. Saw their sad face when i bid goodbye to them.
Most happiest moment: Whenever da jie (Gerald you who rite) is on leave, i feel like i am the da jie. keke.
Most terrible moment: Hard to keep myself awake after a heavy lunch. Feel sleepy yet canot sleep. Only Gerald knows i did next..Shhh..
Most craziest moment: When it comes to Bunny and Tiger..always sneak to ATA just to get a glimpse of Tiger..

GOODBYE SUNMICRO!!!

<< Pissed off >>

2005-12-01T20:50:00.000-08:00

Finally i am home for dinner. Missed home cooked food and soup! Something happen in the office today which really pissed me off. It is my once close fren colleague again. I am totally giving up on this friendship. Today i have seen enough all her true colours and i am finally convinced that she is rotten! Yesterday we just had a wonderful dinner together and all the playful time taking photo and joking around the dinner table. And today she is a totally different person. I duno if i am ever a friend to her. If i am, what is her definition of friend? If she really treats me as her friend, why would she gossip behind my back? Doesnt she spare a thought for my feeling? *hurt*

Dear gazebooers, we are finally doing one of the activities that we planned long long time ago>>MOVIE MARATHON. Yuppee. So excited!! Bankus is going to have a memorable 21st bdae with all the horror grossy scary scenes. Hee..We are going to force u to watch...*evil smile

Da bing where are u? Why you dun pick up my call? Call me now!!!

<< She is flying again.. >>

2005-11-25T21:50:00.000-08:00

14 more days to say BYE BYE to my company. I am always counting down and complaining about my job since the very first day and will continue to do so even on the very last day. I feel that the 22 weeks of industrial attachment was a WASTE! I learn practically nothing there. I think the only thing that i learn there is how to use microsoft words and excel. I was like so *amazed that microsoft words and excel are able to do so many things. Opps...

The attachment makes me realised that I HAVE CHOSEN THE WRONG PATH IN MY LIFE. I knew i was heading the wrong direction since 3 yrs back but i just went ahead thinking that it was no big deal. But i was wrong i realised. IT IS VERY BIG DEAL! I wasted 3yrs in ntu studying sth i have no interest at all and on top of that i also wasted 2yrs in JC so that i can go Uni. But surprisingly my results not bad despite the fact that i dun like engineering. A true NERD!

After the attachment ends, I still have one & the half years at ntu. Graduating in year 2007 and will be 23 years OLD. Gonna waste one & the half years of my youth again. fuck. I wonder how much that engineering cert WORTH after all the tough times i went thro banging my head against the wall for choosing the wrong course. IT BETTER WORTH IT!

My beloved da bing is FLYING again. Pang sei STYLEPALACE again. Sometimes i do pissed off with u esp ur attitude. I know u also pissed off with me esp my ignorance to alot of things. Thats why our communication always break down. But seriously ur da bing behaviour makes me want to laugh sometimes. I understand ur situation and also our reason for setting up STYLEPALACE. I wish i could work independently while u are away...but i just...BUT i dun care anymore. The most important thing now is to get rid of all the goods asap. GOD BLESS!