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This whole week I am isolated from my family, outside friends and darling. =(
I just reached singapore, oops I mean home this evening.
With one big bag(4 reference books inside), laptop and paper bag for my dirty clothes. V HEAVY!! As tho I hv just came back from holiday.

Since mon I hv been staying in sch till 12am in the computer lab until it closed.
And waking up real early for sch to rush two reports(my fyp and design).
Because both the dateline is fri which is yesterday.
Only slept for 3-5hrs a day and I am down with a flu. Plus cough now.
Always skip my breakfast and had my dinner at 10plus.
I went to weigh myself and I lost 3 kg accompanied by super dark circles. =(

Have been rushing like hell to and fro school so I decided to staying over sch instead.
Thur night I stayed through the nite until 6am typing non stop but I FAILED to finish writing my fyp report. #FIRST FAILURE#
I am so discourage despite putting in my 101% effort.
If I cant finish with my report, I cant start on my revision for exams.
*The first paper is next tue 17/4*
So my fren and I who were under the same professor went to email him to extend the submission dateline.

Dear Prof,

Can we check with you if there is a date which our fyp final report must be handed in?
we still need more time to tidy up our reports and especially in our discussion chapter.

Regards,
Janet & Gwyn


Dear all,
As I told you, I won’t insist to have your report before the end of the month, so from my point of view, you still have time – but seeing how close we are from the exam start, you should ask yourself questions about the way you plan (or don’t plan :-) your work.
It is still time to find answer to this question – you are at school for a few more weeks

Stress goes hand in hand with procrastination and bad planning – doing things at the last minute is the best recipe for a stressful life. Jun Hua, who already submitted his report after minor corrections, is now more serene that the others I bet :-)

I hope to see a draft ASAP (even incomplete) so that we can discuss the report organization… I may still have one thing or two to teach you there :-)

Good luck for your exams and cheers!
Franck

After reading his reply, I feel extremely down instead of feeling relieved.
I duno how to describe my feelings at that point of time.
A FEELING MIXTURE OF:
Negative thoughts.Resentment. Disappointment. Sad. Remorseful. Angry.
Feeling to doubt on capability.
Feel like a total failure.

The 2nd report is my design project on sugarcane juice extractor machine.
The dateline is also fri which is yesterday.
It is a group work but everyone is busy with their own fyp report.
I try to balance out my time for this and fyp, and I am already working like a mad woman.
Couldnt finish the report yesterday and again, my proj mates and I ask for dateline extension.
The prof was ok with handing in today.
But I overslept today! Slept at 4am and set my alarm to wake up at 7am.
Shit shldnt go catch a wink at all!
Hv a quick bath and rush the report at the fastest speed as we could.
Still left with abit to do, some touch up and some editing to do.
But all these took ard 5hrs!?
In the end, the prof sent us an email asking us to hand in on mon morning instead. That was the time we had just finish printing and binding our report ready to hand in to him!!! ARGHHHH.
I think the prof was angry waiting for the LATE report that he went home already.
My heart dropped when I rcv his email and I just stood there freezed with the report in my hands.
All the efforts has gone into the drain.
Why cant he just wait for us for another min anyway he has waited quite long.
ONE MINUTE MAKES A BIG DIFFERENCE.
#2ND FAILURE#

I am not going to experience the 3rd failure again.
I will make sure I hand my fyp report on mon punctually.
I am not going to sleep until I finish my fyp report today.