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There is only one word to describe my life now--meaningless.
I wish i can shut up and stop complaining about my job.
This week is already the 3rd week and i am still doing the same old stuff evryday.
Its either the same old stuff or nothing to do at all.

Ppl say its stressed when you hv alot of work to do.
I think its more stress when you hv nth to do yet the ppl ard you are as busy as a bee.
I really hate this kind of feeling. Its a useless kind of feeling. U understand?

You guys wun understand how useless i feel every min every sec of the day.
I dun like to be a slacker and i dun wan to be a slacker either.
Everyday i hv to go ard asking them to give me something to do. Just sth tt can keep me occupied even for a min. But everyone is too busy to entertain me. Look at the pathetic state i am in.

Well, maybe i shldnt blame myself so much.
I guess the prob lies in my interest.
If i hv the interest in the job, i would hv taken the intitative to learn more. But i din.
I rather sit at my desk pretend tt i am as busy as the rest than to ask how the machine operate.

I am feeling useless not only because i hv nth to do.
Its also because i still cannot understand alot of things despite my supervisor explain to me repeatedly. That is real useless!
And i hv a stupid brain which doesnt register what i hv done earlier on.
Even my supervisor can rem what i hv did like whether i hv file in the document a not.
I am now the most famous sotong in the office.

Can someone just tell me what i should do?
Dun console me by telling me tt 6 mths will pass very fast.
Its all lies!! Hearing this will make me even more upset.
How can time pass very fast when you are stuck with things tt u dun enjoy doing?
I am very fan now. I hate everything. I hate my life now.