<< Defeated >>

My day sucks.
Totally defeated by two papers in a row.
My heart hurts when I think of it.
I was utterly disappointed with myself.
Nobody knows it better than I do.
And I know it myself.
It is a not a life threatening issue and there is no loss of lives here but I just cant helped feeling damn bloodly lousy and stressed up. fuck.
I hate the bitterness feeling!
Anybody out there, I need a shoulder!!