<< Our fantasy has ended >>

"i am happier since i know her ... she brightened up my life, making it move again ... i am sure my fren can see the cheerfulness in me these days ... gonna be over soon ... "

This is from his blog. I agree with this too. He really brightened up my day.
I wake up everyday hoping to see his msg. And to msg him.
I rem i used to wait for Mx msg too. U know the feeling of waiting for tt someone msg?
He is the 2nd person to let me feel this way.
But too bad all this is cuming to an end like what he has written. "gonna be over soon... "
Or maybe it has already come to an end.
Happiness is always short lived.
Sadness always last for a longer period.
Now i wake up everyday to find myself in reality not in a dream anymore.
I need to remind myself "our fantasy has ended "
We no longer msg each other tt often le.
We hv less things to talk abt now.
Sometimes i find it hard to start a conversation with him.
Maybe he feel the same way too tts y he din msg me tt often le.
I still online becos of him but he is too busy with his game.
Maybe he feels tt no point wasting time on someone who wun reciprocate.

Yes,i was the one to make it cum to an end.
I am not ready for another relationship.
I still haven get over Mx. Its the guilt. Its gonna live with me forever.
I din tell him about my guilt. I just cant accept his love.
Everytime i push him to somebody, i feel upset too.
I am pushing someone i like to somebody. Yet i hv to pretend i dun care at all.
Everytime he mention abt some gals, i feel jealous.
I hv to hide my feelings and pretend tt i feel happy for him.
Maybe i should be glad tt we are still friends.
I duno wat i will do if i lost him completely.
But that day will come one day...
I will treasure the time we are still frens.
I cant stop u from leaving my life but i can keep the memory of u in my life.