Life after graduation

Everyone is like busy searching for jobs and going for interview.
I hv been slacking around, giving tuition and doing some temp jobs.
I din do any job search except for attending one interview held in ntu campus.
But in the end, I din manage to get interviewed cos there were too many graduates applying for that company.
So I just sent my resume to the company.
I doubt the HR will reply my email.

Haiz whatever la..I feel that I am not ready to enter the working society yet.
I want to take my time to slowly search for a job that is really suitable for me.
Cos I know myself too well. I do things purely based on my interest.
Actually I also duno what I want now.
I used to be very sure of my goal in life and very determine to achieve it.

But now..
I realised that the dream that I hv been pursuing for so many years has become more and more unrealistic.
The strong passion that I always had for this dream has gradually eroded over the years just like a handful of sand escaping from my fingers.
Now I am back to the crossroads not knowing which direction to go to.
My dad hopes that I can find a proper engineering job soon.
He is near the retiring age and he is still slogging hard at work.
I cant bear to see him work till wee hours for almost everyday.
I must find a job soon not for me but at least for my family.