Yesterday was a bad day for me and my student.
I have never scolded any of my students in my 4 years of tuition life.
But this sec 1 student of mine forces me to do it.
I din know I was over harsh in my words until I can almost see tears in his eyes.
I started teaching him since May this year.
He is my favourite student.
I derive satisfacion from teaching him coz I can see his gradual improvement in his class test.
I was very happy except for one thing and for one particular topic--Algebra.
He is weak in Algebra.
To monitor his progress in that topic, I noted down all his mistakes and prepared intensive excerise for him to do every now and then.
I explained his mistakes to him and expected him to correct and learn from his mistakes.
He said he fully understand it.
So I assume he wont repeat his mistakes.
But he keeps on making the same mistakes for the same set of questions.
Not once, not twice, not thrice.
It is more than five times.
And what does this show?
He din make an effort to learn from his mistakes despite I explained patiently to him and even told him to take down notes.
I got more and more frustrated with his learning attitude.
And thats how the scolding started.
I dont feel good in scolding him coz I dun wish to jeopardise our relationship.
But scolding is the last resort.
I just hope that the scolding will get into his head and he will at least make some effort to change.
Otherwise I will just surrender.

Sometimes I feel that I have too high expectation of myself.
I expect myself to do well in all aspect and I expect my students to do the same.
Its going to be a month soon and I DONT see any progress in my learning.
I am starting to get stress in my job.
I am starting to get afraid of the morning meeting.
I am starting to lose my passion for semiconductor.
I am starting to lose my confidence in whatever I do.
I am starting to doubt my ability to perform in the company.
I am starting to doubt if I can be a good leader to 32 people.
I am starting to drag going to work.
I am starting to believe what the director said to me during the interview.
He said I am not suitable for the job.
I was feeling so depressed one day that I msg my jc teacher, Mr Lum.
I know he will give me encourgement and motivation to push on.
So I msg him and this is what he replied:

What you can do you try.

What you cant do, try.

What you dont want to do, you try to be doing.

This ia a dog world.

When you are forty and have not make it,

even you try people also dont want.

Look on the bright side.

The person next to you also the same but never tell you.

Min tien hui kern how.

He dont know chinese well but he ended the msg with some chinese saying with a mixture of han yu pin yin, ang moh and hokkien.

Ever since I started work, I have stopped meeting up with my frens.

No time is always the reason or I can say is the excuse.

I really miss you guys and enjoy all the gossip and talk cock session.

These are the people I want to meet for the next few weeks.

1)GazeboO.(???)

2)Jc frens. (29th sep settled!)

3)Mr Lum.(after jc gathering. I owe him alot of treats.)

4)Uncle,angie & weilian.(maybe next wed)

5)Yufeng.(29th morning?? hope she is free)

6)Gina.(I wana play squash!!)

I shall be the organiser since my working days are so irregular. =)

Its geting on my nerves.
I cant stand it anymore!
I am saying my hair...
Even since I rebonded my hair in july this year,
I knew that this day will come.
My rebonded hair is less than 3 months and its not straight anymore!
Ok...I know its not very straight right from the beginning coz none of my friends can tell that I rebonded my hair.
But I cant stand my fringe as its getting to be wavy.
And whenever I rebond my hair, it always feel that I am dropping alot of hair.
Or itiz a fact?
I am so worry that I even count the strands of hair I drop when shampooing my hair.
If not for my convocation, I wouldnt have gone to rebond my hair while I am in taiwan.
I miss my perm hair...
I want to go perm my hair again.
But what style should I go for this time round?
Should I perm my hair when its short or when its long?
I have never try long perm hair.
I wonder will I look old in it.
I saw some quite nice n funky long perm hairstyle in the magazine.
I am so tempted to go and try it.
But when it turns out to be not suitable for me, the cycle will repeat itself and I will be back to the complaining stage again.
This stage I definitely will go through whenever I change a new hairstyle.
But I need a change.
I dun want to be plain jane.
I will welcome xmas with my new hairstyle.
So help me by saying it looks nice on me. =)

I was told that my working shift will change to night in nov.
Which means I will work from 8pm to 8.15am the next day.
I was so worried that I went to ask my colleagues a lot of qns regarding working night shift.
To my surprise, most of my colleagues prefer to work night shift.
Besides monetary factor, they said the pace is more relax hence less stressful.
They din mention negative things at all.
Itiz really better than working morning shift or are they trying to make feel less worried?
I will know the answer in nov.
Oh one good news, due to the shift change in nov, I no need to work on xmas eve n xmas day.
So date me of anyone of u are free on these two days.
Let me feel more positive about the night shift.

Today is my off day.
My boss asks me to rest at home coz tmr I will be starting my 12hrs shift.
I will be working on this sat and sun after which I will rest for 2 days and the cycle repeats.
My weekends are gone. =(
Hmm..Actually not so bad la if I think of it this way..
1)Going out on weekends is always crowded.
2)Weekends movie and buffet are expensive.
3)Carpark lots are always full on weekends.
4)Staying at home has nothing to do except to sleep.
5)The afternoon tv program to watch sucks. I can switch channel more than 10 times in 1 min.
6)Friends are not available on weekends.
7)Darling hv to work on weekends too.
So, its better to exchange my weekends for money$$ and spend it on weekdays. =)

I have started work for 2 weeks already.
The first 3 days were relaxing and fun coz it is orientation.
I had lots of briefing on work safety, security, intellectual properties, ISO and salary related matters.
Besides briefing, I also attended courses on the company's core values.
The core values were drilled into our heads through the games activties.
The ice breaker game reminds me of my secondary sch and jc days.
I have never really enjoyed the games in those days coz I simply find it stupid.
Maybe I was too anti-social. I duno how to make new friends.
But this time round, I put in all my heart and soul to participate actively in the games.
I was abit shy at first but after a few games I got warm up.
Most of the games emphasize on teamwork and every team members will need to contribute ideas to complete a task in the shortest time.
I am surprised that I actually open my golden mouth and contribute some ideas.
I had so much laughter and fun.
This is the best orientation I had ever enjoyed.
And I even look forward to the next course.

My progress in learning is very slow.
Sometimes I am very frustrated coz I am like stuck there not learning anything.
I was given some reading material and notes.
And I have a mentor attached to me.
But I dun wish to occupy his time coz he got more impt things to settle.
His desk phone and hp keep ringing non-stop.
He did teach me and answer whatever doubts I have but I feel that I din learn much at the end of the day.
Most of the time I will sit quietly at my desk to read the notes, and trying hard to figure out what all the technical terms means.
It was so boring and I have no one to talk to.
I never fail to fall asleep after lunch time.
I more I ty to keep myself awake the more my eyes feel like closing.
I wish I can also be as busy as them.
This is only possible when I hv learnt the ropes.
I must learn fast!!
Hopefully tmr will be a fruitful day for me coz I will be going into the production line to see see and touch touch the big big machines. Yeah.

Hi people, I am back! I am still alive!!
To those who still read my blog, sorry for not updating my life anymore.
Reason being too lazy to blog.
And now I hardly have the time to go online.
Oh btw, I got something to announce.
I have found a job and already started working for a week.
Guess which company employ me?
Yes, it was SSMC-the company which I complained to u guys that I did badly for the 2nd round of interview.
I personally feel that I din do well for the 2nd round of interview.
In fact, I screwed it up.
The interviewer is not the department manager.
Its the director! I only know abt it after I worked in SSMC. opps.
And until now, I still din know the reason why I am employed.
Anyway this is not impt anymore.
Right now, I only want to learn first so that I can do my work independently.

Will tell u guys more about my company in the next entry.
Going shopping with my mum now.
I will try to update more often.
So stay tuned. ^_^