I find my life is full of contradiction.
I am a person who is against of things which can cause harm to my body.
These are the rules I set for myself:
NO to supper.
NO to sleeping late.
NO to coffee.
NO to smoking and 2nd hand smoke.
Becoz of these rules, I always have conflict with darling and friends.
Sometimes I would wonder am I taking my life too seriously?
Am I missing out all the funs becoz of these rules?
Am I a no life person if I sleep very early and seldom hang out late?
I have always been very discipline and strict when it comes to such things.
And its very tiring to refrain myself from violating these rules.
When I violate one of the rules, I will get so worried and unhappy about it.
Life is short and here I am worrying about such trival things.
Feel so stupid for making a big fuss out of it.

Woke up at 5pm today.Then went to bath and ate some titbits while slacking away in front of the tv. I forgot that today is a sat coz I was eagerly waiting for the 7pm show, Lao po da ren. Very nice show! I came back from work at 10am this morning. I have started my night shift 8pm to 8am consecutively 2 days since thursday. I am soooooo tired and restless. Tho tired I still want to blog about my first taste of staying awake thro the night.

I was very excited about it on the first working night. That mrn I went to sheng siong to buy a small size toothpaste, shower foam, nestum cereal, milo, tea and panda biscuit etc. I also prepare my contact solution and facial cleanser. I reaslised I miss out one very impt thing--a cushion or sth furry that is soft to hug to see me through the silent night. I reaslised I miss out one very impt thing--a cushion or sth furry that is soft to hug to see me through the silent night. I feel as though I am moving house which is quite true when come to think of that. ssmc has become my 2nd home coz I spend more than 12 hrs there in a day.

My first night was quite terrible for me coz my eye started tearing from my non stop yawning and my brain started to freeze around 5am. Too bad I dun drink coffee. I stay awake purely thro my strong determination which doesnt work every well. So I went to brush my teeth and wash my face hoping that it can freshen me up and last for the next 3 hrs. It works BUT only for the first 10mins.. My yawning become more and more jia lat and I know I have reached my tolerance. I was totally knock out at 6.30am. I should learn to drink coffee.

Becoz of this I have learnt from my colleague that having sufficient sleep in the noon is very crucial. So from now on, I make sure I am in bed from 10am to 5pm. Before my first night, I only slept for one hour in the noon. Thats why I can only last until 6am in the morning. The second thing I learnt is the importance of power nap. I tried that this morning. I rested my head on my desk and slept for 20 mins, and when I woke up I am rejuvenated. It is very effective. After work I can still go around chit chat and play jokes with my colleagues.

I hate to eat late night supper yet...I am eating it for consecutively two nights when the clock strikes twleve midnight. It feel so disgusting and guilty to load my stomach with solid food and gave my liver extra work to do instead of resting. I dun wan to eat in the first place but somehow I start to feel hungry. If I dun eat my supper, I know I will definitely feel hungry later in 2/3 am. So I went reluctantly..and soon I got the habit of eating supper. I got more hungry when it is 6am in the morning. I think I couldnt get used to this eating pattern coz I lao sai after that. My stomach still feel abit bloated and uneasy until now. =(

My owl working schedule:
7.45pm : Arrive at ssmc
8.00pm : Passdown from mrn shift people
8.15pm : Start to monitor production line and answer phone calls
9.00pm : Went into the fab to settle things
10.30pm: Do reports
12.00am: Eat supper
1.00am : Back to office. Continue to do reports.
5.40am : Power nap.
6.00am : Brush teeth and wash face.
6.20am : Go for breakfast.
6.40am : Continue to do reports
7.45am : Passdown to next mrn shift people on line issue.
8.00am : Prepare reports for mrn meeting
8.30am : Attend mrn meeting
9.30am : End of meeting. Go for internal mfg meeting
10.00am: Rush back home to sleep. (Its really rushing coz I scare not enough time to sleep)

I have 6 days of off thanks to the Mfg outing organised by my company.
My first day of the long break was spent having lunch with uncle.
It has been such a long time since I ate lunch and chit chat with him. Just the 2 of us.
Besides all the jokes and teasing, we also talked about some serious stuffs.
We seldom have the chance to chit chat when we go out in group and ever since Angie shifted home he no longer drive me back after the outing.
He is someone whom I looked up to as a good role model.
Coz I am impressed by the way he handles stress and his positive attitude about life.
I have so much to learn from him.

My second day of off was one I enjoyed the most.
I met up with my old secondary school mates, the peicaians, for lunch and some coffee.
They are Sze Yeng, Chiew Guet, Sharan, Lin Lin and Esther.
I psycho esther to accompany me coz I scare I will feel awkward.
Esther was very surprised that I want to go for the gathering.
Normally I will give a miss. No ulterior motive just feel like going.=)
Actually I was quite surprised that sze yeng will msg me for the gathering.
We seldom contact each other since I graduated from Peicai.
Few weeks back we bumped into each other at adidas at esplande.
I was busy msging when she called out my name.
We chatted for a while, exchange nos and thats how I was invited for the gathering.
There was not a moment of awkwardness at the gathering.
In fact I quite enjoyed it tho its only a few hours.
Its good to catch up with them after lost contact for so long.

My third day of off was spent in Malacca with my parents.
My mum got to know about this malacca trip organised by cc from her fren.
My mum then got so excited over it and keep pestering me to go with her.
I was quite unwilling to go coz I dun like tour guided trip and the trip is meant for senior citizen.
I think my mum is over bored at home ever since her boutique business closed down.
Sometimes I feel bad for leaving her alone at home when I couldnt come back for dinner.
To make up for that, I promise to go with her and in the end my dad decided to come along too.
I was glad that my parents enjoyed the one day trip and they were looking forward to another upcoming trip.
Well as for me, as long as they happy I am happy too. =)

My fourth day of off was spent with my colleagues.
My company organised a outing for the whole of manufacturing department.
Thanks to this outing that I can be excused for 2 days of work which explained how my long break came about.
Our SRC team organised a pool and bowling competition and buffet dinner at Merchant Court Hotel.
This is my first time playing bowling in my entire life.
Bowling is a game which I will always avoid playing becoz I dun know how to play.
Becoz of this outing, I die die need to play and soon I find myself enjoying it after a few throws.
As for the pool competition, my team came in first. We each won a $50 marina square voucher.
But we came in second last for the bowling competition.
After the long competition, we went to eat our hearts out at Merchant Court.
I heard about their buffet and the durian paste dessert before I came.
And after eating it, I must say their buffet was really fantastic.
For those who know me well, I dun like to eat durian but their durian paste is super nice.
And amazingly it doesnt leave the digusting taste in my mouth after eating.
Should try it. nooo..is MUST try!! hee.

My fifth day of off was today. I have no plan for today except to rest at home.
After having so much fun for the past four days, I start to feel the tiredness setting in.
I have two chalets to book, one for gazeboO and the other for my jc.
So I went down to downtown east to book a chalet.
My dad is not working today and he dun mind driving me all the way to pasir ris.
But it was a wasted trip!! fuck.
Becoz costa sands only sell their chalet in 3D2N package with 4 free theme park passes which I dun need.
And one night is 200+. Wtf.
Feel so piss off today. Its not easy to be a chalet organiser and esp for those last min booking.
I have search almost all the chalet resorts in singapore and made alot of calls to the resorts
but none of them suits wat I wanted.
Those that I want are already fully booked.
If only money is not a issue...
Arghhhh...bad day

Tomorrow will my last off day after which I will be going to night shift for five months. =(
I better conserve my energy for my next working day and cut down on outing.
Any good ideas to share on how to keep awake and alert throughout the night till 8am in the morning besides drinking coffee?

Was extremely tired after two full days of ERT(emergency response team) training at Spore Aviation Academy.
My muscles are aching now and I also suffered some bruises and big mosquitos bites.
Today is the last day of the training. I am a certified ERT member!
This ERT is to trained us how and what to do during an emergency such as gas leakage or fire.
But I wont be in the front line if such emergency really occur.
My responsibility will be to coordinate with the front line people and help in the evacuation.
If I am the one in the front line, I probably will put everyone's lives in great danger.
Coz it requries alot of courage and physical strength to put out the fire or rescue any casualty.
I lack both and I must admit I am the worst female warrior during the training.
I totally cant carry the hosereel or fire extinguisher, let alone to rescue a 70kg dummy casualty.
And on top of that, I am carrying a 10kg breathing apparatus which I will have to depend on for oxygen.

The training is quite tough especially for a weak female like me.
I was fully dressed from head to toe with my helmet and breathing apparatus throughout the training.
One of the activity that scare me to death which is also the most memorable of all the training was the building simulator.
They put us a group of five into a dark room with alot of obstacles and a manhole.
This is to create a fire emergency. The objective is to overcome the fear of darkness and to find the way out to a safer zone.
To let us have a feel of the real situation, smoke and heat were introduced into the room.
When I entered the room, it was a total darkness.
I have to crawl through the room and rely on my sense of touch and also my group members to get out of the room.
The breathing apparatus can only last for ard 30mins.
A whistle will start to sound when the oxygen in the tank is running low which will make a person panic.
The whole experience was so scary becoz I couldnt see a single thing a all.
To make things worst, I was left behind by my group.
This is what happened...
I was the second person in the row and everything was going smoothly until we hit a dead end..
When my group was retreating, I lost the grip on the person in front of me.
Btw we are crawling in a narrow cage so we can only move in one direction either forward or backward.
I started to shout for his name. I couldnt hear very clearly coz everyone in the room was communicating with one another for direction.
I am not sure if he got response back to me.
I got panic and started to shout for 'number one! number one!'
I tried to search for him by using my hands to feel for his present but he was out of my search radius.
I think he was far ahead of me already.
Maybe he was already out of the cage to a safer zone.
At the same time I was waiting for the guy behind me and the rest to catch up before I can move on.
While I was gan chiong-ing shouting for number one, I realised the guy was not behind me anymore!
I tried to shout for him and he responsed but somehow he din reach out his hand to search for me.
Maybe he did. I couldnt see a single thing.
Soon the rest of the people behind me realised I was not with them.
I could hear them shouting for my name. I quickly response as loud as I could.
The most amazing thing came about.
That is I duno how come number one is with all of them already.
As I couldnt see a single thing and too scare to move, I stay put and wait for my group members to come and rescue me.
While waiting I heard the noise in the room dying down and soon the room was in total silent.
I know they had left the room WITHOUT ME.
At that point in time, I was so scared that I almost wanted to cry out.
I started to bang the cage violently and shout for my members' name.
The instructor acknowledged it and came to my rescue.
Btw the instructor has always been in the room to follow us through the training.
After the whole thing, I realised that the instructor has asked them to leave the room when they tried to go in and rescue me.
Coz he deliberately want to create a mis-communication in us to test our alertness.
Soon after that incident, I had became a laughing stock.
One of my colleagues even create a metaphor related to me and this incident.
Anyway, the course has been fun overall.
I will load the photos here in my next entry.

Tomorrow I still need to go to work for some classroom training.
I have been attending intensive classroom training for the past two weeks.
I need to sleep now. My eyes are closing....