My life is getting...busier
, more stressful,
monotonous and miserable.
I try to be positive abt life and my current job but the setbacks at work eroded watever enthusiastism I have.
It eroded my confidence and happiness as well.
I feel extremely lousy.
So lousy that I duno how to describe my feelings.

Today I rcv a xmas card from Shiyi, my ntu fren.
The gal whom I went taiwan with.
Nowadays nobody send xmas card.
It feels good to rcv one after so many years.
Dear Shiyi, tts so sweet of u! Thks. *muaaacks
When reading ur card, it reminds me of the days we spent in taiwan.
Thinking back, I find ourselves so funny n silly.
It all started becoz we hv a tight budget constraint.
We tried to cramp everything into the short six days trip.
It was so packed that we hardly hv time to breathe and rest.
And becoz of that we always hv to starve ourselves.
Throughout the trip, we were always rushing for time.
And racking our brains to save and scrimp on food and transport.
Only to find ourselves left with alot of money on the last day. lol
And we hv to racked our brain to spend all the money before we left for the airport.
I dun think anyone will spend their holiday like the way we do lor.
Dun you think we are so silly? lol.
But I dun mind going back to taiwan with u to fillful those tt we missed out on our list.
Oh I am starting to miss taiwan..
You tk care k. See u and the rest soon at Asian bar.*muaacks

I purposely use green n red coz xmas is here!
WISHING U MY DEAR FRENS a HAPPY & MERRY XMAS!!!

Two things to look forward in the month of Dec:
1. Tuition
2. Xmas party with 3 groups of frens

Last mon I was suppose to go for tuition in the evening.
I finished work in that mrn, went to catch a nap and I OVERSLEPT!!
And when I woke up I cant rem I got tuition until my tuition kid's mum called me.
It was so embarrassed!!
I hv to arrange another date again and the mum was quite unhappy.
I was quite upset over it.
I din hear my alarm rings.
Duno why I will be so careless to miss it.
Maybe I am too tired.

Yest was a happy day for me.
Coz I finally met up with my dear gals!
Had a jap feast at esplanade and a nice chat under the starry night.
I love u gals so much coz...
We nv stop reminding each other that we are old.
We nv stop suan-ing each other coz tt is our definition of true frens.
We can nv break the cow and bangedesh curse.
We nv fulfill the program that we hv planned since sec 4.
We cant hv enough of shopping tho we all complained being broke.
We nv missed out the marriage topic.
We nv run out of things to chat about.
How I wish yest night the minute hand will stop ticking.
And now I am back to the depressed mood again. :(
I cant imagine my current life without u gals.
Pls meet up real soon!!

I am so tired and restless now. I feel like going to bed now. I finish my work this mrn. Was supposed to attend a colleague rom lunch at Ritz but I back out last min. Coz I caught a cold last night and was down for flu since 2am. So I decided to go back home to sleep instead. The colleague is my mentor, Eric. Sorry Eric, I choose to rest between ur rom and my sleep. Congrats and blessings!

Eric has taken two days leave due to his rom. And for the two nights I had my first taste of taking the deck phone and monitor the line using my fresh and raw experience. Every time the deck phone rings, I will panic. I am even fear of answering it when I see unfamiliar nos. The caller usually speaks very fast with a foreign accent that leaves me with alot of qns marks after he hang up. I am so slow in catching. Feel so stupid to ask them to repeat alot of times. The MAs must be thinking what a stupid boss they have!

There are endless things to learn and there are times where I feel that my tiny and stupid brain is already saturated but I still keep on stuffing more info into my brain. Even noting it down wun help me. The info scattered here and there. Either I cant find it or I totally forgotten about it and I have to start all over again to ask and be scolded. Luckily I have very nice mentor and colleagues who will be always be there when I needed their help. But one bad thing is that, I tend to be over rely on them.

I know I am stupid.
I know I am slow to absorb.
I know I am struggling very hard.
But I wun give up.
And I wun allow allow myself to fall.
I will keep on fighting.
To prove to myself that I can survive even under harsh environment.