<< A Penny for a Thought >>

Is the Earth spinning too fast?
Its the end of a month again.
Usually I will ask myself this qns, "What have I done in that month? "
Its the same old answer.
I study, study and still its study again.

After 15 years of books and studies, I finally getting sick of it.
I dun really like to study but neither do I hate studies.
Just getting upset by the stressful lifestyle.
But there is nothing we could do to change the stressful environment.
That's the reason why I want to travel. As far as possible.
Anywhere will do as long as I can get away temporarily from this small island before the reality hits me again.
Maybe will consider going for backpacking.

I read a medical article today.
Its about heart disease and heart attack.
It encourages people to go for regular body check up as heart attack can happen to people in the twenties too.
And these people appear to be healthy and do not have a family history of heart disease.
It suddenly strikes me that I have not been exercising for quite a long time.
My diet and lifestyle are very unhealthy too with all the late nights, supper and irregular meals.
I have been trying hard to change my lifestyle but its so hard to do it.
Its like mission impossible!
It needs shear amount of determination and discipline.
I seriously lack these two key elements. I will try harder.

Tmr I am going to Yaya's house to watch Shutter.
I have been wanting to watch this movie since very long time.
I simple love horror show. The chills that run down the spine and errie sound effect..Love it!
But after the show, I always ending up scaring myself with all my silly wild imagination.
I am having second thought now..

I duno why I get hungry very easily these days.
I ate 4 meals a day and the portion is like double!?
Yest dinner I had 2 plates of fried rice and half pack of maggie mee.
And my house is always stock up with chips and choc.
Nearly two-thirth of my pocket money is spent on food!

Today a canteen stall auntie asks whether my hair is fake or real.
Do my hair really look like a wig?
Then a guy fren of mine ask what happen to my hair when I go sleep.
Another fren ask how will my hair look like when is all wet?
I hv already lost count the number of people who ask me all those qns.

I thought my HK trip bubble has burst cos most prob I wont be going with Moo.
To my surprise, Tiff msg me today and ask me whether I wana go HK as she is leading group there.
I almost say YES!!! But hv to wait until next week then can confirm with her.
Since young, I have always wanted to go HK.
Heard that HK has nothing much to shop or play.
And the disneyland there is quite disappointing.
The people there are quite rude too.
I wont know how true it is until I am there.
Even if it is true, I wont change my mind going there.
Really pray hard that I can go.

<< Just another Day >>

I wanted to go jogging this mrn but couldnt wake up.
I not lazy just feeling extremely tired.
I wish I could live in my dreamland forever.
The places in my dreamland, the people & strangers I met there and the things I do there are so interesting to the extend that it wont happen in real life.
I wonder why people dream..

I finally watch brokeback mountain.
Highly recommended by yaya.
But I almost fell asleep in the movie coz I know the whole story and the ending as well in details!
Haa. Anyway its quite a touching story.
Still trying to figure out what 'I swear' mean in the ending.
More nice movies coming in May.
Looking forward it.

I am thinking how to spend my long holiday-3 mths.
There are always alot of things I wanted to do but no time to do.
But when I have the time, I wont go and do it. Ironic right?
I wana travel but everything doesnt turn out the way I want. Sigh.
Its always the wrong timing. Then when is the right timing?

My taiwan & HK trip is gone with the wind le unless I get ge in SS2.
UNLIKELY!
The USA exchange program at San Diego confirmed CANT GO le.
It costs around SGD7000. Not worth to go.
By right this summer, me and Moo should be going to Yellow Stone for USA Work & Travel program. But my parents wont allow me to go.
Thinking back, I think Work&Travel in USA is more worth than the exchange program in terms of less money required.
Now left with Thailand with gazeboo.
We MUST GO ok. Dun wana to be disappointed again.

EXAMS COMING!! ARGHhhh.
I hate exams.
I hate it even most when I know I am not ready for it.

<< HAppy Birthday>>

HaPPy 22nd BiRthdAy to myself!!
MAy all my wishes will COME TRUE!!

3 more years I will be 25 years old.
OH NO... :(
Thanks frens for all the bdae clelebration.
This year bdae kinda special and meaningful to me.
I dun wan any presents for my bdae.
Coz I have everything I want except for the non-material.
Birthday is a best time for gathering.
Becos of Tiff bdae, I get to meet up with A-mei whom I hv not seen long time ago.
Becos of my bdae, I get to meet up with my gazeboo dearies coz we hv not been meeting up every fri recently. Everyone of us is busy.
And not forgetting my group of 'pig, chicken, mud' frens for the surprise.
We used to hang out for ice cream every week but not now anymore due to my busy schedule.
And today I just had a wonderful dinner with my family.
I have not seen my dad for quite some time since he has working until very late.
And I miss my mum!! Thanks for helping me alot with my style business.
This birthday serves as a remainder to me not to neglect my parents. I hope its not too late.

Birthday is more than just cake and presents and getting one year older.
Its the best time for gathering.
Its the time to really cast aside your work and enjoy the precious moment of the company of good frens and family time.

<< Tired >>

Class finishes at 8.50pm today.
Thanks Alex for giving me a ride to Braddell mrt station.
I am drained out. TIRED!!

Just realised that all my frens around me hv got their driving license.
I used to be very determined in getting a driving license but not now anymore.
The process in learning to drive and the time spent seems to be very tedious.
And you may not pass for the first time.
Heard many frightening stories abt driving.
Maybe I will learn it after I graduate ba.

One of my fren has completed the 15AUs of business ge.
She can file for minor le. So envious of her.
I am still left with 3 more to go.
I dun know whether I should take the risk of registering ge for the special session 2.
What if I cant any of the ge? and SS2 only has marketing, no accounting.
I dun wan to miss the taiwan trip.
I am very vexed now and the closing date for SS2 registration is this thur.
Moo, what should I do?? Help...

Stress = Pressure - Adaptability
Thats how stress is measured.
Taught by a fren who is taking 'Mind over stress' module.
This module seems fun. May consider taking it next sem.
My adaptability skills is very bad.
No wonder my stress level is higher than the rest of my ntu frens. :/

35 days to exams..I hate this...
Study just to pass exams?
Thats what every students does, isnt it?
Very often I question myself, do I study for the knowledge or to pass exam.
If you feel happy throughout the learning process, you are studying for sake of knowledge.
If you feel tortured throughout the learning process, you are studying just to pass exams.
Forget about it, just study for exams and get the degree.
Anyway that holy paper is the key to everything in life.
Without the holy paper, life in the future will be very hard.
Thats what all the aunties uncles in the fish market, my parents and teachers said.

<< Happy Day >>

It was a happy day.
I had a great day shopping even though its only 2.5 hrs.
Shopping is a great way to relieve stress.
I almost over spent but dun care.
I shop as if I own a bank.
So many nice clothes caught my eyes.
I have fall in love with Mr Yellow.
The two clothes that I bought were yellow.
I like vibrant colour coz I have a dull life.
How good it would be if I own a PUMA shop.
They really have nice clothes and bags and shoes.
Simply love PUMA!!

I have finally taking a long break for my tuition centre until my exam is over.
I feel so guilty telling lies to my boss again and again.
Sorry I din meant it coz I desperately need the time.
Time is running out!

So many dateline to meet. (I think its more like deadline)
So many project to do.
So many tutorial to catch up.
So many report to write.
And its just one month away from my exam.
My stress level has reached the climax.
I feel so numb rushing and doing non stop to clear all this pile of shit.
Is there sth wrong with my time management?
Is sacrificing my beauty sleep the solution to it?
Seems to be the only solution...

I have a bad feeling I wun be able to make it this time round.
All my frens know how much I hated this engineering course and I swear a hundred of times that I will never be a engineer in the near future but I am still aiming for a 2nd upper Honours.
I not satisfied to graduate with a degree.
And hopefully I can complete my business minor in time.

Thanks Moo and Yaya for 'forcing' me to accept the early bdae present.
The more I see it the more I like it. Thanks gals!!
Moo, lets jia you k and our rewards will be the taiwan & HK trip.
I really look forward to it!!
And bankus, the thailand trip is still on. Dun be disappointed k.

My dear Tiff. I am not angry with you.
I am too occupied with my sch work than to be angry with such a trival matter.
Happy for u that its ur 3rd time gg to Taiwan. *so envious.
Taiwan becoming your 2nd home le. Haa.