<< Defeated >>

My day sucks.
Totally defeated by two papers in a row.
My heart hurts when I think of it.
I was utterly disappointed with myself.
Nobody knows it better than I do.
And I know it myself.
It is a not a life threatening issue and there is no loss of lives here but I just cant helped feeling damn bloodly lousy and stressed up. fuck.
I hate the bitterness feeling!
Anybody out there, I need a shoulder!!

<< First Paper >>

Exams start today.
First paper. Its my fave business module.
MB361: Operations & Quality Mgt in Manufacturing and Service Industry.
I know I will do well for this module.
Alot better than my engineering module.

After my graduation, I may consider a job in service industry.
I like serving people and meet different kind of customers.
Opening a cafe of my own has always been my dream since the age of 16.
I fall in love with cafe under the influence of sister.
She is the one who brought me to alot of cosy cafe to eat.
And we will always bring the cafe menu home to keep.
I am still doing it now. My collection of cafe menu!!
Reading a menu is like reading a storybook to me.
I take hours to read it and appreciate the interesting names they gave to their dishes.
Some cafe really have wonderful menu.

I can still rem after my O levels results I was hestitating whether to study hospitality at TP or go to JC.
After much hestitation, I choose JC.
I blame myself for not having the courage to pursue my dreams.
I am not fit to complain about my engineering course.
Cause I choose the path myself.
I know that my dreams are drifting further away.
But I am still holding on to it.
Cause I believe that one day my dreams are going to realise.

Have the urge to go jogging tmr.
But cant find a jogging mate after msging so many frens.
They are too busy to jog. :'(

<< Exam Period >>

First paper on the 13th of April.
Last paper on the 5th of May.
Though only 6 papers, the exam period stretches til one month.
5 days of rest after each paper.
I prefer it this way rather than hv it on consecutive days.

Have not been putting in my 100% effort to study.
For the first time, I am hooked to the TV for more than 5hrs.
Have been watching repeated drama series, taiwan varieties show and SuperBand etc.
Omg, this is terrible. Dun hv the mood for exams.
I always have this terrible thought to defer my course one or two years of study.
And where will I be and what will I do for this 2 years?
Of course to realise my dreams.
If I am successful, I would quit sch.
A thought is just a thought.

Oh btw SuperBand show is rubbish!
I quite look forward to it but it turns out to be quite disappointing.
Why is there so many compeition nowadays?
The channel 8-yong bu yan bai is also quite horrible.
Just feel that those contestants hv been made fun of to boost the viewers' rate.

I went for dental checkup today.
My gum has been bleeding for the past one month.
The dentist said my gum is swollen tt lead to the bleeding.
The medicine for mouthwash tastes awfully yucky.

I have listed down all the activties I wana to do during the long holi.
Its a long list and more to go. Cant wait to do it now.