<< Staying over in sh>>

This whole week I am isolated from my family, outside friends and darling. =(
I just reached singapore, oops I mean home this evening.
With one big bag(4 reference books inside), laptop and paper bag for my dirty clothes. V HEAVY!! As tho I hv just came back from holiday.

Since mon I hv been staying in sch till 12am in the computer lab until it closed.
And waking up real early for sch to rush two reports(my fyp and design).
Because both the dateline is fri which is yesterday.
Only slept for 3-5hrs a day and I am down with a flu. Plus cough now.
Always skip my breakfast and had my dinner at 10plus.
I went to weigh myself and I lost 3 kg accompanied by super dark circles. =(

Have been rushing like hell to and fro school so I decided to staying over sch instead.
Thur night I stayed through the nite until 6am typing non stop but I FAILED to finish writing my fyp report. #FIRST FAILURE#
I am so discourage despite putting in my 101% effort.
If I cant finish with my report, I cant start on my revision for exams.
*The first paper is next tue 17/4*
So my fren and I who were under the same professor went to email him to extend the submission dateline.

Dear Prof,

Can we check with you if there is a date which our fyp final report must be handed in?
we still need more time to tidy up our reports and especially in our discussion chapter.

Regards,
Janet & Gwyn


Dear all,
As I told you, I won’t insist to have your report before the end of the month, so from my point of view, you still have time – but seeing how close we are from the exam start, you should ask yourself questions about the way you plan (or don’t plan :-) your work.
It is still time to find answer to this question – you are at school for a few more weeks

Stress goes hand in hand with procrastination and bad planning – doing things at the last minute is the best recipe for a stressful life. Jun Hua, who already submitted his report after minor corrections, is now more serene that the others I bet :-)

I hope to see a draft ASAP (even incomplete) so that we can discuss the report organization… I may still have one thing or two to teach you there :-)

Good luck for your exams and cheers!
Franck

After reading his reply, I feel extremely down instead of feeling relieved.
I duno how to describe my feelings at that point of time.
A FEELING MIXTURE OF:
Negative thoughts.Resentment. Disappointment. Sad. Remorseful. Angry.
Feeling to doubt on capability.
Feel like a total failure.

The 2nd report is my design project on sugarcane juice extractor machine.
The dateline is also fri which is yesterday.
It is a group work but everyone is busy with their own fyp report.
I try to balance out my time for this and fyp, and I am already working like a mad woman.
Couldnt finish the report yesterday and again, my proj mates and I ask for dateline extension.
The prof was ok with handing in today.
But I overslept today! Slept at 4am and set my alarm to wake up at 7am.
Shit shldnt go catch a wink at all!
Hv a quick bath and rush the report at the fastest speed as we could.
Still left with abit to do, some touch up and some editing to do.
But all these took ard 5hrs!?
In the end, the prof sent us an email asking us to hand in on mon morning instead. That was the time we had just finish printing and binding our report ready to hand in to him!!! ARGHHHH.
I think the prof was angry waiting for the LATE report that he went home already.
My heart dropped when I rcv his email and I just stood there freezed with the report in my hands.
All the efforts has gone into the drain.
Why cant he just wait for us for another min anyway he has waited quite long.
ONE MINUTE MAKES A BIG DIFFERENCE.
#2ND FAILURE#

I am not going to experience the 3rd failure again.
I will make sure I hand my fyp report on mon punctually.
I am not going to sleep until I finish my fyp report today.

<< Rushing proj>>

Hv anyone seen a sotong with panda eyes tt eat junk food whole day?
Its at sgoon north. Free admission.
Photo taking is allowed. ^_^"

Totally worn out these few days.
Hv been burning mid night for the whole week and maybe next week too.
And now I am used to going to bed only after 12am.
Is there any research on why ppl tend to eat junk food when they are stressed?
It doesnt help to de-stress and its making me sick.
But do I have craving for it?

I think I better dun bored u guys with my prob.
Anyway I have learnt how to cope with it having trained 4 yrs in ntu.
I am following my own pace.
Slow and steady=win the race.
Its my last sem before I leave ntu forever.
But its also my worst sem.
Maybe this is a best way to create deep impression of my last stage of student life.
LAST STAGE OF STUDENT LIFE!!!
Going to release from MAE prison on 30th April.
Jail term: 4yrs since july yr 2003
Crime committed: Not courageous enough to pursue my dreams.
I swear I am not going to waste any of my youth again.

I finally went to IKEA at tampines yest.
And its a outing with my parents.
Despite having alot of sch work to do, I still go out with them.
Coz I have been rejecting my mum a million of times.
Not worth to sacrifice my time for sch work and neglect my family.
A public holiday hardly come by.
I asked Sean to come along.
So I can acc my parents and him at the same time.
So off we went to tampines.

My first reaction when enter IKEA was wow.
My second and third reaction was still wow.
The place was so so so spacious despite having big crowd!!
And for one item they have all sort of design to choose from.
Each design is so creative and nice. I feel like buying all of them.
And their decoration for bedroom, living room, toilet, kitchen is still as cosy as before.
It makes me feel like buying a new house and start decorating it immediately.
Din get to eat their famous $1 hot dog coz its such a long queue.
Their cafe is full too. =(
Miss their famous meatball and fried chicken wings.

GIANT and COURTS are there too.
Din know it until I went there. Opps.
By the time I finish shopping at IKEA, my legs are already tired to walk any further.
End of shopping trip.
Bought a cool quilt for myself.
Tested it out last night.
It brings me sweet dreams.
I need a good rest. The quilt is the best reward.

<< busy life style >>

I finally went to donate blood on last sat at punggol park CC.
I was greeted by a warm welcome by the staff.
There were not much blood donors.
This is my 2nd time donating blood but I am still scare of the process.
I am scare of the thick needle.
Its the psychological fear coz I din even see them inserting it into my skin.
I can imagine the pain of a patient going through kidney dialysis.

My 2nd time donating blood is not that pleasant as the first time.
Coz my arm hurts during the process and time taken for the blood to fill one packet is very slow.
The nurse said I have very fine blood veins and low pulse rate.
Need to exercise more and drink more water.
I wan to exercise except swimming. Any takers??

Had a bad time surviving in ntu.
There are so many project dateline to meet.
Alot of things screwed up last min.
Alot of things are done incompletely.
All the things just came at one go and I duno which one to handle first.
Coz all of them need to be given first priority.
I dun wan to sacrifice my sleep for it.
But wat can I do when I have so many things to do but so little time.

I tried not to complain and keep calm.
Somehow I just lose my temper and vent it on my loved ones.
I feel so bad for treating them this way.
I just lose control.
I think the best way is dun open my mouth to talk until I am back to normal.

I hope this difficult period will end real soon.
I am already imagining myself enjoying holiday in some parts of the world in coming May before the reality hits me again.
God bless me!