<< A night w/o him >>

Today i met juan to go rollerblading at pasir ris.
We meet at 3pm but only start to blade at 5.30pm.
We hv been walking the wrong way for 2 hrs n 30 mins under the blazing sun!
By that time my excited mood has all gone.
Duno wat got into me. Things not going well for me whenever i go out. Fark.

My mind was somewhere else when blading.
My hp din beep. I was waiting for some msg.
It was an empty wait. Why?
Yest was on msn chat with him.
I was feeling down becos of him. He din know.
He asked me why i was sad.
I almost burst out that it all becos of him.
I duno if he really care for me or just kapo'ing'.
I told him it was relationship prob.
He din suspect anything. Or maybe he does.
I told him i hv lost ' sth ' and can nv be retrieve back.
He din get the hint.
Forget about it. I am quitting this game. There is no players left.
But today i found myself online again despite i am very tired.
Reason: Becos of him again.
But he din cum n chat with me. Why?

I hv found the answer.