Living in an Ironic World

Monday, July 09, 2007

7th May 2007--My FYP Presentation Day
...which was also the day that marked my end of school life.
It was also a day that marked the beginning of the next chapter of my life.
Have been attending school since I was in kindergarten all the way to university, it took me 18 years to complete all the hurdles in my studies one after another.

At the age of 16, I was a rebellious yet ambitious gal.
After completed my O-level, I almost wanted to stop school and devoted my youth to work as a waitress. I have fallen deeply in love with F&B line since then.
Visiting cafes frequently..
Started collection of cafe menu..
As well as the receipt of those cafes I hv been to..
Always on the look out for waitress-related jobs during school holiday..
Was contented with the lowly-paid salary as long as they want me..
To the extent of willing to work free for the cafe..
I was crazy over F&B line for no specific reason.

After my O-level, I almost wanted to enrol in TP hospitality course.
But was faced with discouragement from my parents
and friends too...
I was confused and upset.
Without the full endorsement from family and friends,
I began to doubt my choice.
In the end I gave up the hospitality course and enrolled myself in a junior college.
Choosing that route, I understand that there was no turning back.
It was like signing a 6 years contract.
I went on with my life having regrets most of the time.
Living life with regrets was never happy.

My life in junior college was never easy.
I remember how I struggled for General Paper and finding last minute tuition with bankus when its near to A-level exams.
Dun even dare to aim for a B4 coz it was an impossible task to me.
Thank God, I made it through with a C6.
With the rest of the grades I obtained, I happily apply for business course at any of the local university.

However things din work out smoothly for me.
I was allocated to a Engineering course.
At that moment, my world seems to collapse.
It must be the poor GP grade that got me rejected.
Facing with no other alternative, I accepted the Engineering course unwillingly.
Deep down my heart, I hate the sucky course.
It took me a year to accept it.
And I was glad that I did enjoyed myself and even like some of the physics and maths I learnt.
Maybe becos I have accepted it.
Now 6 years had passed..
I have finally graduated.

Do I still regret for not choosing TP hospitality course?
Yes, abit. I always wonder how my life will change if I choose that route and where will I be now, AND will I be happier with my current situation now?
I am very interested to know..
But choosing another route let me realise that interest can be nurtured. I din know that I have a liking for physics and maths till then. U will call me crazy if I tell you that I like to read physics textbk.

But if I am given the chance once again, will I still pursue my dreams?
Seriously, I duno coz my life is in such a mess now.
I am in a over-relaxed situation which makes me feel like a useless bum.
I hate to waste time and I have been idle for 2 months and 3 days.
There wun be an answer until I have found a permanent job.
DEAR COMPANIES PLS GIVE ME A RING...

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