<< Yesterday >>

Fuck. I duno wat i press, the things tt i wrote all disappear.
Hv to rewrite again. Arghh.

Yest wanted to write my blog but too tired to write.
Yest chatted with alot of ppl esp Juan. She has came back from Japan.
She din do any shopping there but she has bought back alot of happy memories.
Seems like she is motivated to save hard for her next Japan trip again. Jia you, gal.

Juan has read my blog and scolded me for not letting her know abt it.
She even said she dun deserve the fren status. Wat a silly gal.
I din want to trouble u with my prob cos u already gou fan le.
U hv ur own prob too and mine is nth compared to yours.
Gal, thks for ur encouragement asking me not to give up.
I know u meant well and i also truely understand tt 'Nothing will come back to u if u dont try.'
But i hv already sentence myself to death.
I am just too greedy and selfish for love ba.
Love life and freedom weigh the same to me.
But freedom weigh a little bit more.
If i cant hv both, i would rather be a carefree bird always flying high and as far as i could to search for my freedom.
Immature? Childish thinking? but who cares.
But gal, u said sth tt really touched my heart.
'Its really hard to find someone who makes you feel the pain deep inside your heart.'
I agree with tt. But tt someone only makes me feel the pain inside my heart not 'deep' yet.
So can i say he is not worth my time afterall? I am letting it go.
He makes me feel like i am in a fantasy land. Everything is so perfect and great.
But tt fantasy land has disappeared. The characters on the land hv went back to reality.
We are just two person looking for someone to chase away the loneliness in us.

I feel so much better toking to you. Gal, u straighten out my thoughts.
If i ever met someone who can make me feel the pain deep inside my heart, i will nv let it go.
I will try very hard before i really give up. Thanks gal!

I went to trim my hair today. I wan a shorter fringe too.
But the hairdresser cut away all my perm and cut 2cm of my fringe.
Sob. I am back to square one again. Yes, tt cow hair again.
Guess i hv to really know how to style my hair in order to rescue my hair.
I wun let u all laugh at my hair de. I go style now.